when you feel it the first time
you wont have a clue
what your even feeling
is it love is it lust
you will ask yourself if you are okay
and of course you arent
why would you be
your shattered your broken
your body seems lifeless
and yet you will want it again
because its the only way he shows love

if i said you broke my heart
would you say sorry
if i told you i was missing
would you care
cause when the nights are dark
and im alone with out you
and in all honesty
you where made for me and no her
i wonder if you will wake up
because you dont even see
what you lost and when the nights are cold
and your this bold
i think youve seen my nightmares

i was three
and i thought you loved
and you let me
knowing i was young
knowing i didnt understand

i was three
and i thought it was okay
and you let me
knowing i was young
knowing i didnt understand

i was three
and i thought you cared for me
and you let me
knowing i was young
knowing i didnt understand

i was three
and i thought you where happy to see me
and you let me
knowing i was  young
knowing i didnt understand

when the smile you hide behind
becomes to much a weight to carry
you will be 16 the first time
it will fall for no reason
you wont understand why
you will feel the heat of the tears
as they run down your face
and you will see how old you truly are

when the smile you hide behind
becomes to much a weight to carry
you wont understand why
you knew you would grow
knew you had to get older
but you realize then
that everything you knew
everything you loved
it will hurt you wont know why
but you thought you would never make it this far
and yet you did

so when the smile you hide behind
becomes to much a weight to carry
remember that you will get stronger
and when your ready
you can pick it back up again

hey,
i know i shouldnt do this
but im not over you
i cant get over you
i get how stupid i sound
but i was in love with you *******
i shouldn't have fallen that hard
i if anyone should have known
you never fall deep in highschool
never hurt yourself
as much as i did with you
i dont regret you
dont regret what we did
i wont tell lies about you
i pray you wont tell them of me
though im sure you already have
i don't care
that dismissiveness i hated in you
but now i'm using it
i tried being cold
but i cant because when i see you
my heart speeds up
and i still cant look you in the eyes

its not that i didn't want you happier
its not that i didn't know you'd move on
its seeing those smiles
watching those hands
reach for another girl
i thought you would be my forever
and i know that we just weren't right
i shouldn't be crying since i moved on to
but for some reason
when i hear an old slow song
i miss they way i felt in your arms
the arms i was ready to be in forever

sometimes i have all the inspiration in the world
i write poem
i write stories
i write the inner folds of myself
and sometimes i have absolutely none
i cant walk
i cant talk
i cant even get out of my bed
and thats just my depression i guess