Would you still love me if I was a worm
No let me rephrase that
Would you still love me if I lost value
Would you still want me
If I broke all of the vows
Turned into something
you never agreed to be with
Became unable to be a wife
Would you still love me
If I couldn't be a wife, a mother
If I could never be a friend again
Would you still love me
Even as I grew unable to clean
Unable to cook
unable to walk on my own
Would you still love me
Would you still think of me The same
I guess honestly
Would you still love me if I was a worm

I've tried to float
I've gown through the fall out
When all of it hurts
Why would I try now
How do I smile
How do I let go
When it tends to simmer
It tends to run out
Right when I need
Just a bit more ill keep on pushing
Till I get to the good part
Till I find what the point is of this world

Sometimes I get in my head
Start to question if
I should've left even you
But that house was so small
This worlds so big
I'm sorry I left you behind
But I'm so glad I did

Start to a new year
This used to come
with so much confidence
Have your yearly set goals
Something to work towards as you go
I've never felt so ******* alone
When I can't find my purpose
Can't find my place
Looking in different doorways
Avoiding when there slammed in my face
Wish I could say I'm happy
Sometimes it feels like I never was
But I'm glad you came
It hurts so much less

Sometimes when the snow falls
When winter truly takes hold
I think about those nights I spent
Loving you
Even though it hurt me
I miss you when it's cold
Even if you where always passive
And I was getting carpal tunnel
From trying to keep holding on
And it makes me sad
The way I left you but I'm glad I did
It was for the best

Denial is a river
And baby I've drowned at the bottom
Watched it flow above my head
Watch the bubbles leave my mouth

Denial is a river
She ***** you down deep
Leaves you sure your fine at the bottom
After all you can see even if it's blurry

Denial is a river
I'm learning how to swim with the tide
Learning how to tread the water
So maybe I won't drown