How many nights will I lay here, phone on mute and weeping, while you sleep on? When will I press that unmute button and let you into my head?

Tears stain my pillow and I wonder how many of them were shed for you

I am undeserving
of the sweet words you say
and the pure air you breathe  
and the love you give

My eyes burn with tears unshed.

Speak
   so that I may understand you

You breathed air back into my lungs.
Did I ever thank you for it?

God, when will it end?
Do I need to do it myself?

In the past 2 months, I've been asked the same question over and over: "How did you date her for so long?".
Usually, my response is "I have no ******* clue". And sometimes, I really don't. You'll do ****** up stuff, like trying to build a relationship with one of our good friends, and I'm back to square one and that question. How did I date you for so long? I think back on some of our "dates". The tea room, the lakefront, the floor of my bedroom. Those were the good times and I cherish them. But then I remember the not so good times. The pain of June, the heartbreak of July, the tears of February -- times when I thought neither of us would make it out alive. And we didn't, did we? Not in the end. We both came out with scrapes and bruises to our bodies, minds, and souls. People told me in July to end what we had, but they didn't understand my love for you. You made me so happy and I you. How could I end that? What would have happened to you if I had said "No more"? I know how depressed I would have been. How was I to walk in darkness without my single light? I'm sure I would've built the walls again, brick by cracked brick, but I wouldn't have been the same. Things would be much different. We would be much different... So I'm back to the question. "How did you date her for so long?"
Truthfully, I still don't know.

And I wait sitting here by the phone,
With the hope that your heart isn't stone
And I wish that you'd call me and cry,
So I'd know how you feel deep inside.

And she's waving goodbye with that photograph smile,
Under the heavenly blue,
I'm never gonna be closer again,
I'll never know,
I'll never feel you, ever again

I'm a sunbather, basking in the light you emit

And you, so blinded by your lust, forget to love.

I used to think, darlin', you never did nothin'
But you were always up to somethin'
Always had a run in, yeah
I got to think those days are comin' to get ya
Now no body want to protect ya
They only want to forget ya

You'll be on my mind
Don't give yourself away
To the weight of love

Exposed and vulnerable
Yet you didn't move
You hardly breathed
God, you're arresting
I shifted, unsure
It means beautiful
A kiss on my jutting hip bone
Stunning
Another on the scar below my ribs
Breathtaking
Turned, but not too roughly
A trail down my lacerated spine
*Mine

You're only a disappointment if you allow yourself to be

I can still taste your love on the corners of my mouth

Kiss away the pressure residing in my lungs

You were always searching for a father figure... I think you confuse your lust for some form of twisted love

Turn a boy into a man,
lemme me show you the things
you don't understand...

You look for love where it is not wanted, hoping you can throw a dart and it will hit the bullseye

I am waiting for the day that you realize that you're *obsessed

I broke my own heart --
I felt it quiver and shake with a fear unknown
Slowly, I pulled it apart
It bled and bled but I let it bleed
Pieces of you drained from under my skin
Drops of what we had landed on the bathroom floor
And I, I did nothing to stop it
No bandages, no sutures
It continued for days
And I, I did nothing to stop it

Would it be impulsive to stick my hand into the flame and let your fire consume me?

You crave touch, but no one is willing to pick up the baggage that comes along with you.

Anger --
Spit in my face
Rip up our photos
Burn all my love letters
You're just one step closer
Go ahead
End me

This isn't a poem. It's just a post of gratitude.

I want to thank all of my friends for being so supportive over the past two months. There have been high ups and low, low downs, but you've been there every step of the way. You've been building me up and reminding me that what I did was a good decision. Not only that, but you've also supported me in my new relationship. I've received constant "I can tell he makes you really happy" and "This is the happiest I've seen you in a long time and I know it's because of him". You will never know how appreciated those simple phrases are. They mean that you continue to love me, no matter who I am with or what decisions I choose to make for myself.
Thank you. Thank you. **Thank you.

You've made a home in the space between my ribs

The air is thick as tar and my skin is bruised and stung
I try to talk but no one understands my tongue
With every passing second,
I age a million years
When I fall and graze my knees
The universe cheers

I want summer --
no stares from kids I don't know,
no glares from kids I unfortunately do.

I have been encompassed by the warmth of your existence

You have me flying high,
finally feeling free.
Teach me how to use
these newfound wings.

My fingertips taste like the skin across your shaking shoulders

When I call your name out, it turns to shrapnel in my mouth
and the last time I looked up, the north star was south.

Then
The two of us
Thick as thieves

Now
The two of us
Thin as martyrs

Do you recognize your own vulnerability?

Smile again, beautiful boy.
Let them all see.

There may be 50 ways to leave your lover, but you only need 1

I pity you.

You make me nauseous. ******* sick. I am disgusted. Revolted.
How did I ever? ****, how did I ever?

It's you, you ******* idiot. You're the one causing your own issues. Are you so blind? For ***** sake. Idiot. ******* IDIOT.