In a room full of people I still feel alone.
I’m miserable, I’m sad, I'm lonely.
Don't know what steps to take to get to a better place in my life.
I made him my everything and now I’m left with pieces of my heart shattered everywhere.
I didn’t mean to make him my everything.
I dropped everyone for him.
He was my future.  
I try to get him out of my mind but I can’t and it’s tearing me up inside.
I’m killing myself slowly.
I don’t want to feel this pain anymore.
I’m hurting each and every day.
I’m tired of crying.
I’m trying my hardest to move on but it’s so difficult.
This is just pathetic on my part.
I’m strong but this is the part where I question who I really am.

How could you hurt me the way you did?
How could you forget everything we shared?
How could you do throw away our future?

Panama how could you?

What about the tears we shed together?
What about the laughs we had together?
What about the love we made?

Panama how could you?

How does it feel to know that you broke me?
How does it feel to know you're on my mind every single day?
How does it feel to know that I can’t move on yet?

Panama how could you?

Why did you abandon me when you knew I needed you?
Why did you break your promise to me?
Why did you leave me?

Panama How Could You Do That To Me?

I used to be someone so carefree and lived life to the fullest.
I embraced the options that life has given and stuck with the decision despite the outcome.
But now I am nothing but a mockery of my former self.
I hesitate the slightest thoughts and decisions and ultimately don’t go through any plans.
I am my own biggest downfall.
The only person that I could blame is myself.

We all have secrets we hide from our best friends.
We have to comprehend the fact that we all have insecurities & flaws.
We try, we fail, & we succeed.
Thats what makes us humans; the determination to strive & survive.
The end the world isn’t as bad as we think it is.

I’m moving on.
Getting my happiness back.
I threw away my heart. I can live without my heart.
For the most part.
It is what it is.

I’m so angry yet I don’t want to release the anger.

I’m so sad yet I don’t want to cry.

I’m so confused yet I don’t know what steps to take.

I’m so hurt yet I try to hide the pain.

I just don’t know whether I should go left or right.

I don’t know anymore.

I will tell you I love you every single day. When no one listens to you, you should always know that I will be here for you. Who cares what they say? I don’t. Do you know why? Because I love you and that’s all that matters. You mean the world to me. You will always be my number one. I love you to the moon and back. I will always be the one person that will always have your back and will never leave you. When you look into the mirror, always remember that you are beautiful and one of a kind.