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58.7k · Nov 2011
The Darkness.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
Even in the darkest of the night,
I can still remember those lips finding their way towards mine.  
We can barely see what's in front of us,
But yet our bodies are gravitating towards each other.
I'll let you guide my body into the night.
The darkness brings us together.
The darkness holds no fear.
The darkness conceals all flaws.
As the sun begins to slowly creep against the horizon,
He quietly leaves the sanctuary of her heart.
As the seconds of the morning sun ticks by,
He gradually becomes nothing but a dream of her imagination.
The light grasps the truth.
The light enhances the shame.
The light shows the scars.
I can still feel your warmth tingling against my skin.
It's time to wake up.
29.3k · May 2012
Soul Quest
Kingafroninjaa May 2012
Can I drown in the sweet sorrow of your passion?
Bask in the drips of your essence and savor your liquid ecstasy.
Stare in awe at the contours of your body as it bends to my very will.
Making you feel as real as this fantasy world we have thrusted ourselves into.
Your soft whimpers caresses my ears as our spirits are driven by their own Heaven and Hell.
The rapid movements of your ribcage soothes my ravenous soul as our bodies intertwine with each other.
The aroma of our mixture captivates my subconscience as we're climbing towards your highest peak.
Your petite thighs clenching onto my physique build as the wave of nirvana overpowers your psyche.
She slowly drifts away from our fantasy world, leaving me here to dwell on her forsaken sorrow.
My body yearns to hear your voice in the endless darkness as it awaits for your return.
Can I cross the threshold into your garden of Eden one last time?
14.4k · Feb 2012
Nostalgic.
Kingafroninjaa Feb 2012
In his barren room of eternal darkness, you will find her suspended alone in space.
The silhouette that continues to haunt her soul have returned to reveal its obscure face.
Its eyes dazzles with the pure optimism for the uncertainty of what secrets the future has in store,
But her dimly brown stained eyes are plagued by the sadistic knocks of death at her door.

The seemingly gullible and naive entity clings onto an orb that has an effervescent shine,
This radiant glow, beckons for my soul to remember, to remember that it was once mine.
What is the reason for my once pure light to turn into the blacken, tainted soul that lies within me?
Is it waiting for the completion of my quest to find my hidden euphoria to be finally be set free?

Its voice sings to my inner demons, tugging at my existence like a synchronized team.
But the painful reality of life has taught me that happiness is nothing but a just forgotten dream.
Trying out rhyme scheme. o.O
14.0k · Jul 2012
Lost in this Sad Dimension
Kingafroninjaa Jul 2012
I never felt like I belong here.
No matter how hard I tried, I never belonged.
Could it be I'm destined for something greater than life on this planet
Or am I doomed to spend eternity with the latter?
I wander across this land in search of who I am but it seems there is no answer no where in sight.
Am I suppose to quit this journey or continue to walk in denial?
How long must I endure this nightmare til I finally wake up and face "reality"?
At the night's commencement, memory of this life drifts away into the forgotten stream.
I can taste the answers but the moment I begin to relish in its delicacy, it fades from my grasp.
What is left for a king whose kingdom has fallen?
I went on a trip with a white girl & I never quite came back
13.0k · Apr 2012
Tears of a Broken Angel.
Kingafroninjaa Apr 2012
The moon illuminates the tears she sheds as the darkness shields her from this reality.
She opened the portal to her fantasy world and the memories she once hid, finally reappears.
His ability to make her chocolate frame quiver into the palm of his hand just by whispering those 3 words.
The way his alluring eyes would caress and soothe her soul to force her to disclose its hidden secrets.
"Do you mean it?" She quietly whispered into his ears as their essence finally merged into existence.
He was able to tear down her layers of pain, confusion, and hurt as he crossed the threshold into her mind.  
As she gazes into his ravishing eyes, she becomes paralyzed as they undress her bare petite physique.
The gateway to her hidden domain steadily closes as the warmth rays rest upon her dried tears.
Her tear stricken face clenches onto the dwindling memories of his dominance over her.
If only he kept to his word, then he would have understood her tears of affection.
10.5k · Nov 2011
Ghosts.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
Who is this ghost in the corner of my eye?
I've seen that ambiguous shape before.
Was it in a nightmare?
Or from a repressed memory?
I can't shake this feeling that I've seen this ghost before..
I want to meet this ghost..
But I'm worried of what secrets the ghost holds.
It's concealed itself in the dark abyss..
This dark abyss is beckoning to me..
It feels so warm against my skin..
Ghosts of my pasts.
9.5k · Nov 2011
Cheat.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
They knew they shouldn't be doing this..
He brings his face close to hers so their lips could meet.
There's a chance they're going to be caught..
He grabs her by the waist and gently lays her down.
They're going to end up regretting it..
Their bodies gradually turns into one soul.
Their shallow breaths matching each other.
She lets him inside hoping he'll stay.
Their movements becoming fast paced and in-sync.
They are holding heaven in the palm of their hands.
For that brief moment in time, he is hers and she is his.
Their high comes down and reality knocks on their door.
I knew I would regret it.
5.6k · Nov 2011
Lighthouse.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
It's a new day.
She's standing by her lighthouse.
Waiting for the day, her ship will arrive.
She had a ship docked her port once.
Oh, the memories they shared.
Oh, the places they traveled.
Oh, the love they had for one another.
But suddenly,
His ship sailed without her.
He docked at a new port,
Leaving her alone at her lighthouse.
She's stuck.
She still thinks of the Captain of the ship.
Wondering if he thinks of her as he sails the seas.
Wondering if they still have a fighting chance against the seas.
She's sees a ship coming closer to her lighthouse!
Could it be the ship that she gave everything for?
The ship that left her at her lighthouse?
The ship that has haunted her dreams?
The ship that broke her in more ways than one?
No, it's not...
It's a new ship that she hasn't seen before.
Who is this Captain?
He's docking at her port and staring at her.
He approaches  her and smiles a friendly smile.
She's hesitant and slowly backs away.
Should she trust this new Captain that has entered her dock?
He could be like the last Captain that left her at the lighthouse.
Or he could be the Captain that takes her on a journey around the world.
4.9k · Nov 2011
Kidnapped.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
Standing outside her window..
He patiently waits for his moment to strike.
How is she able to weaken him without even meeting?
Is it so wrong that all he wants to do is keep her to himself?
He can't seem to find the strength to break away.

Sitting by her bedside..
He stares at her petite body while she's enters her dark & twisted world.
How is she able to leave him utterly breathless without even speaking?
Is it so wrong that all he wants to do is to just hold her and never let her go?
He needs to leave but the mere presence of her lifeless body has him trapped.

Staring at her body..
That he held in his red stained hands, he wonders what has happen to him.
How can this black beauty have the power to overthrow his 6ft build?
Is it so wrong that all he wanted to do was to make sure no one else can have her?
The girl that has haunted his thoughts & dreams finally belongs to him and no other.

She gets to sleep in his arms forever.
He gets to keep her in his arms forever.
Somewhat of a macabre Romeo & Juliet.
3.6k · Feb 2013
Orgasmic White
Kingafroninjaa Feb 2013
&& in that moment everything turned white.
As if life were as clear as snow.
The tidal waves of insecurity, sadness and denial suddenly calmed down.
The misty haze of infidelity, betrayal and ignorance were lifted from my eyes && a new world appeared.
Moment of extreme clarity where mind meets nirvana.
I looked in the eye of God and turned my back on him, blew a kiss at the devil && walked away.
I was handed the key of absolute knowledge && was freed from the shackles of my oppressors.
That brief blizzard of purity.
My beautiful reality.
I meet her once && I need to meet her again.
3.5k · Jan 2012
Countdown.
Kingafroninjaa Jan 2012
11:20pm
You kidnapped me and we flew back to your home planet.
I was left speechless as this heavenly body took over my soul.
He tied a martian string around my heart and promised me to stay.
11:30pm
You took me on an adventure across the galaxy that distorted my mind.
I let him guide my body into a meadow of star dust, without any fear of hesitation.
He tightened the martian string around my heart and promised that I will be his forever.
11:40pm
You gently caressed my untamed spirit and helped this earthling experience a new look on life.
I only craved for my eccentric martian, so I feared the day I would have to go back to that dreary planet.
He glared down into my dark brown eyes and promised that I'll be his officially, to have and to hold.
11:50pm
You slowly began to distant yourself from yourself my soul as the days progressed on this martian planet.
I noticed that the string we held tightly around our hearts began to steadily loosen as the nights grew colder.
He turned his back on the earthling he once loved and promised to let me go so he can travel the stars alone.
12:00am
You promise that we would explore the extrasolar worlds together as we floated through the dark abyss.
I believed in his promises, hoping the martian string that bounded our hearts together would remain intact.
He delivered me back to my humdrum planet while untying the same string that we once held so dear.
How I spent my New Years.
2.7k · Nov 2012
Supernatural.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2012
What do you tell a demon that is obsessively pursuing the soul of a mere mortal?
The longing for her fragile human body captivates the insanity of his aged existence.
Who would have known this creature of the dark would lust over a lower being that's as pure as fresh snow.
He would travel to the depths of hell to see her smile one last time.
Fight off his army of blood thirsty demons to taste her droplets of blood.
In the tainted eyes of this foolish demon he will forever be trapped in the labyrinth that holds her deluded heart.
Not knowing the truth hidden within her darkness.
2.6k · Oct 2011
Panama How Could You?
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
How could you hurt me the way you did?
How could you forget everything we shared?
How could you do throw away our future?

Panama how could you?

What about the tears we shed together?
What about the laughs we had together?
What about the love we made?

Panama how could you?

How does it feel to know that you broke me?
How does it feel to know you're on my mind every single day?
How does it feel to know that I can’t move on yet?

Panama how could you?

Why did you abandon me when you knew I needed you?
Why did you break your promise to me?
Why did you leave me?

Panama How Could You Do That To Me?
He broke me.
2.6k · Oct 2011
The Silence of Two Lovers.
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
The silence is louder than any words that they can yell.

He looks at her, she glances away.

She looks at him, he turns his head.

What are they afraid of?

If she opens her mouth, will he ask her to leave?

If he opens his mouth, will she say she has to go?

What brought them together?

Is it the missing passion that she longs for?

Is it the missing person that he needs?

What happens now?

They put a smile on their face and pretend it was nothing.

That is what happens with the silence between two lovers.
2.5k · Sep 2012
Abyssal Love
Kingafroninjaa Sep 2012
In the darkest of the night is where you'll find her waiting for him.
The mere thought of his electrifying touch sends shivers down her spine.
Her flame of loneliness will drown in his sea of exotic eccentricity.
She craves for his presence so she can reach the peak of her insanity.
She gave her soul to earn the entrance into their heaven.
She poured herself into his empty shell of darkness so their broken minds can be reunited.
Her favorite addiction that she will never go to rehab for.
Her prized possession that she will never part with.
Her only obsession that fills up her time and space in this dismal dimension.
When the last light shine through, the darkness will be there to engulf her in his passion.
2.0k · Jan 2012
Lurking.
Kingafroninjaa Jan 2012
He enters the dark regions of his mind.
Concealing the secrets of his past.
Quietly lurking in the shadows.

He hides in the corners of his mind.
Surrounded by the loneliness & despair.
Locked away from the miseries of the world.  

He keeps to himself in this world he created.
For he is the dark silhouette that hides in the middle of the night.
Something quick to get the brain juice flowing.
2.0k · Mar 2013
Written Not Spoken, 143234
Kingafroninjaa Mar 2013
Words of the forgotten voice.
The soft spoken voice that can no longer be heard by the ears of her beloved.
Her once loud spoken voice turned into nothing but a whisper of a faded memory.
The muffle tears of this forgotten girl plays a gentle soothing lullaby in Death's ears.
As he attentively listens to her angelic cries, she begins her ****** story.
Story of pain, heartache, and suffering is slowly etched across her thinning body.
Her hieroglyphics only visible to the cold longing eyes of Death.
She waits for his daunting kiss to penetrate her broken vessel and reach her impure soul.
"Please." The last word her meek voice will ever say.
My voice. My thoughts. Belong to Death.
2.0k · Mar 2013
Sweet Cherry Dream
Kingafroninjaa Mar 2013
He sold a sweet dream.
A dream so sweet even God would have goosebumps at the mere thought of it.
A dream that the fairest in all the land would be envious.
Our dream where our love would outshine the sun across a thousand galaxies.
A dream where my first name would latch onto his last name causing the heavens to sing above us.
The blissful dream that he sold to me would've been passed down to our generations every Sunday dinner.
That dream, I lived for it. Craved for it.  
Dreaming of his stolen dream that he sold to me.
Our once tangible dream began to collapse around me.
That dream I once I lived for turned into a forgotten nightmare of his doing
2.0k · Nov 2011
Drugs.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
One puff.
I know I shouldn't be doing this
I'm just going to regret it
I thought I was strong enough to resist
But he makes me feel so good..
This will be the last time.. I promise..
Two puffs.
I don't want to stop
The peak of nirvana is suddenly tangible
I can feel him creeping inside of me
I have to make this one last
This will be the last time..  I promise..
Three puffs.
Can this be real?
I can feel your warmth next to me
My fantasy has become my reality
Is this the happiness that I've been looking for?
I'm happy now.. I  promise..
Four puffs .
Why is everything going back to normal?
What's going on with us?
Weren't we just happy moments ago?
I can feel it slipping away..
Please don't leave.. I'm sorry..
Five puffs.
Where did it all go..
1.9k · Feb 2012
Dr. X
Kingafroninjaa Feb 2012
Do you feel that pain Dr. X?
That desolate, dreary feeling that slowly engulfs at your deteriorating gray matter.
Causing you to plummet down the spiral staircase of eternal confusion.
Do you miss your happiness Dr. X?
The light at the end of the tunnel that you held so dear, dims as the minutes tick by.
You took my away my bundle of hope and now she took away your bundle of joy.
Do you hear those sounds Dr. X?
The echoes of my laughter ringing through your ears as your serene world slips from your fingers.
The frigid, emotionless knocks in the middle of the night as the reaper collects his missing dues.
Did you see that Dr. X?
The smile that etches across my lips as your essence of life crumbles.
The gentle hands of the galatic karma steadily grasping your throat as your last breath becomes imminent.
1.8k · Sep 2012
The Abuse and the Abused.
Kingafroninjaa Sep 2012
To die by the hands of your lover.
It's a bittersweet concept that few rarely experience.
To not breathe the same air he breathes in this brief time in space.
To not feel his presence as our bonded red string falls to the pits of hell.
His dark eyes being the last glimmer of hope i see in this world.
The intimate moments where we explore each others crevices and discover a hidden world inside our bodies.
By the time this ends, my memory will fade into a dream as I die for you and you live for me.
I'll hold onto our secret until we meet in the place where our dreams can finally come true.
1.8k · Jan 2013
Infinite Girl
Kingafroninjaa Jan 2013
The unstable mind of the infinite girl slowly starts to crumble as he ascends from hell into her forsaken kingdom.
The mirror tells him that his impish looks gives him an undeniable handsome.
She knows that the insanity hidden behind her blood stained eyes is what drives his incurable lust for her.
His insatiable need to be one of two is how he causes hurt.
What is she getting herself into by playing in his hidden eden of ecstasy?
He latches on to the first thing he sees in the vicinity.
The scars of their intimate charade reappears in the moonlight as he devours what's left of her mistaken innocence.
In the attempt to mold her into something like him she seems to have lost her very essence.
She screams into the night hoping that his deaf ears will finally hear the cries of his once infinite girl.
The faint sound of the night breezes past his ears as ponders his next assault on this world.
She'll drift through the seamless passages of time and space to regain what's little left of her impure soul.
His next mission will not fail, he will meet his goal.
She clings onto the memories of their past lives as he holds her meaningless death in the palm of his demon claws.
To create something perfect like him, and rid the world of things like her and all her flaws.
She waited for the sweet nectar that death will bring only to realize that her heaven lays with God's fallen angel.
To be the world's savior, to be the world's angel.
A poem co-created with @JayTheEmperor from twitter.
http://skreened.com/kingsclothes
1.8k · Dec 2011
What Do They Know?
Kingafroninjaa Dec 2011
They don't know about the love we have for each other.
Do they know about the silly nicknames we have for each other?
The hearty laughter we shared from our inside jokes?
Or the secret language that belongs strictly to us?

They don't know about the love we have for each other.  
Do they know about the intimate passion that we would constantly fall victim to?
The brief moments when we held heaven and hell in the palm of our hands & spoke to God?
Or the vulnerable moments where we released the private sections of our past?

They don't know about the love we had for each other.
Do they know that we used to be one soul but now we are just two bodies?
The days that we spent arguing and spilling tears over the silliest little things?
Or the day he released my soul so he can rest in the arms of his lioness?

They don't know about the love we had for each other.
Do they know about the fantasy world she trapped herself in to escape the life without him?
The nights she spent wandering when she would finally numb the aching pain?
Or the times she wished she could go back to her past & forget ever meeting him?

They will never know.
1.7k · Sep 2012
Forevermore
Kingafroninjaa Sep 2012
When their harsh reality comes crashing down, I'll escape to our fantasy world where you'll be waiting for my arrival.
Our secret realm where we are free from their restrictions.
Free from their rejections.
Free from the fate the gods have destined for us.
We will make the path that we deem fit and walk hand in hand as we proudly taunt the gods that laughed at our existence.
We will explore the world that we have created.
Seek out the mysteries that are hidden in each cave.
Dive into the underwater trenches and bask in the glory of atlantis.
Fly up and touch heaven just to feel the warmth of nirvana.
I'll always be yours until the last star shines in the our collapsing galaxy.
1.6k · Sep 2012
One Hell of A Sinner
Kingafroninjaa Sep 2012
Why is it the gates of paradise are always out of reach from hands of sinners?
Do my tainted eyes not shed the same tears like those of predestined?
Do I not feel the same pain and pleasure like he who sits on top of his golden throne?
Why do they see nothing but a devil in disguise when I don't believe in their ancient yet flawed text?
Their prayers try to heal the impurity of my "broken" soul but they are quick to cast me aside as their judgmental eyes seek for ways to purge the darkness that I held dear.
Can you not see the pure perfection that my true form emits?
Is it so wrong to believe that this sinful vile form is what makes me perfect?
If I cannot enter the threshold to his kingdom than I shall see you in hell.
1.4k · Dec 2011
Untitled.
Kingafroninjaa Dec 2011
In the stillness of the night
There is no sound to be heard,
There is no light to be seen,
There is no love to be lost.

She closes her eyes for the last time, waiting.
Waiting for the soothing pitch in his voice to ring in her ears.
Waiting for that flicker of happiness to return to her eyes.
Waiting for his unconditional love for her to return.

Her subconscious drifts away, pondering.
Pondering on the missing words that has been so easily forgotten.
Pondering over the deception of adultery that has been caught in the act.
Pondering whether the love he had for her was authentic and pure.

In the stillness of the night,
The words have turned into a faded memory.
The tears dried and evaporated in the summer breeze.
The love floated away along with the rest of her soul to the heavens above.
Back from my hiatus
1.3k · Dec 2013
Justice for Jandei
Kingafroninjaa Dec 2013
Bring Justice to a beautiful soul by signing and sharing this petition for my boyfriend's senseless death! His name is Jandei Cherry and he was shot in the stomach by Duke Laguerre on October 6, 2013. As of now, Duke has not been charge! Jandei left behind a beautiful 3 year old daughter and its heartbreaking to know that she will grow up without a father. Jandei deserves justice, please just sign and share. It would mean the world to me.

Link is below.
Hopefully it will work.
http://www.change.org/petitions/the-state-of-florida-department-of-justice-charge-duke-laguerre-with-the-crime-of-******
1.3k · Nov 2011
Little Black Cloud
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
She steps outside.
The sunlight beaming on her beautiful dark skin.
The breeze of the wind going through her thick ***** hair.
She embraces the world but yet there is a dark cloud following her every step she takes.
What could it be?
She can feel the warmth of it caressing her skin.
She can taste the flavors of it fondling her tongue.
She can hear the noise being absorbed by her ears.  
Everywhere she goes, it follows her.
Every breath she takes, it will always be there
Every time she blinks, it will always be there waiting.
She can't go forward and she can't go backwards because the little black cloud is there.
What can she do?
Face it head on like a battle between good and bad.
Pretend it isn't there and just live her life
Or embrace it like a long lost friend.
1.2k · Jan 2012
I See You.
Kingafroninjaa Jan 2012
I can see you glaring into my soul with your glassy metal eyes.
Drooling for the red thats flowing throughout my petite body.
Smirking as my gullibility rises as the seconds ticks by.

In that split second he can release the pain that enters my soul.
He can erase the memories that constantly darkening my spirit.
He's the only one that could bring reason to my existence.

If only those seconds could last a lifetime,
I would be able to live another day.
To dream, a dream.
1.2k · Feb 2012
Bob.
Kingafroninjaa Feb 2012
What made him him stop and stare at this fragile beauty that walks with no motivation?

Was it that glimmer of hope that carries a feeble sparkle in her eyes?
Or the longing of the missing passion her soul so desperately yearns for?
Or the subdued beating of her shattered heart that she has masked away?
He's intrigued by this girl that is so young and yet filled with wisdom beyond her years.
The secrets that she kept hidden away never to be seen is what his soul aches to unlock.
He'll take her to places she's never been hoping to bring back her essence of life.
He'll wipe away the invisible tears that sheds from her damaged heart.
He'll bring back that shy girl that has lost her way.
1.2k · Nov 2011
Is This What You Wanted?
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
Is this what you wanted?
To see my wrists splitting open to show a ****** smile?
To see my eyes become red as another tear sheds.
Does it make you feel powerful?
To see me cower in the corner in a fetal position?
To see my body become numb & cold
How does it make you feel?
To see me become a shell of my former self?
To see me question every single advance.
I need to leave.
I have to leave.
I will leave.. Soon..
I'll change.. I promise..
1.1k · Oct 2011
He's beautiful.
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
He's beautiful you know.
His crooked smile.
His shaggy beard.
His gentle hands.
He's beautiful you know.
The way he holds me afterwards.
The way he listens to me.
The way he looks into my soul.
He's beautiful you know.
I wish he were mine.
I wish I could keep him.
I wish I could be his.
Am I beautiful for him?
1.1k · Mar 2012
Another One Bites the Dust.
Kingafroninjaa Mar 2012
Their army of love was not enough to go against Father Time's armada.
Their sky was once filled with hopes of the future but it diminished with the despair of reality.

He'll tightly hold onto the love they shared together as he walks the path of moving on.
The nostalgic memories of the unity of their eccentric souls begins to clouds his better judgement.
Her beauty that was once able to captivate his very essence, now fades away into the dwindling sunset.
The daunting task of remembering their past will always be his to keep but its time to let go.

She'll cling to the smell of his body as she breathes in the heavens above her.
Reminiscing on the aroma that would emit from his muscle build.
Embracing his smell as its seeps inside her chocolate skin.
It'll always be hers to remember but never to keep.
1.0k · Nov 2011
Happiness?
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
Why can't she get it?
Doesn't she deserve it?
What's wrong with her?

How many tears must be shed?
How much blood must be drawn?
How much longer must she drown in this sorrow?

When will she get that pure unfiltered happiness?

What's keeping her from this happiness?
Is it her past that's constantly haunting her?
Is it the fear of being loved?
Or is it the feeling of being vulnerable?

She knows the answer but yet she's afraid of the truth.
787 · Nov 2011
Dark & Twisted World.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
I remember the days when my world was pure & innocent.
Those were the days when I could always feel the sun embracing my ebony flavored skin.
The days when I knew no matter what, there will always be a happy ending.

But now..
My life is anything but pure & innocent..
Those days are nothing but a distant memory..

I've seen too much that no one should ever witness.
I've said too many things that no one should ever express.
I've experienced too much that no one should ever deal with.

Continual darkness confines her to this world with no chance of escaping.
The moon used to visit daily but just like everyone else, he left without saying a word.
They all commit suicide once they get a taste of what lays inside of her dark & twisted world.

She patiently waits for the day that glimmer of hope will come back into her life.
But little does she know, that shimmer of sunshine is waiting for her to realize that he hasn't left yet.
When will the day come for her to open her eyes to see the light she craves for is right in front of her?
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
I used to be someone so carefree and lived life to the fullest.
I embraced the options that life has given and stuck with the decision despite the outcome.
But now I am nothing but a mockery of my former self.
I hesitate the slightest thoughts and decisions and ultimately don’t go through any plans.
I am my own biggest downfall.
The only person that I could blame is myself.
751 · Nov 2011
Tears.
Kingafroninjaa Nov 2011
She wants to cry so badly.
The tears are there as she writes.
But they quickly disappear.
She knows only the strong survives.
So there is no room for tears.
703 · Oct 2011
Who am I?
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
In a room full of people I still feel alone.
I’m miserable, I’m sad, I'm lonely.
Don't know what steps to take to get to a better place in my life.
I made him my everything and now I’m left with pieces of my heart shattered everywhere.
I didn’t mean to make him my everything.
I dropped everyone for him.
He was my future.  
I try to get him out of my mind but I can’t and it’s tearing me up inside.
I’m killing myself slowly.
I don’t want to feel this pain anymore.
I’m hurting each and every day.
I’m tired of crying.
I’m trying my hardest to move on but it’s so difficult.
This is just pathetic on my part.
I’m strong but this is the part where I question who I really am.
699 · Oct 2011
Day by Day..
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
I’m moving on.
Getting my happiness back.
I threw away my heart. I can live without my heart.
For the most part.
It is what it is.
631 · Oct 2011
Secrets
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
We all have secrets we hide from our best friends.
We have to comprehend the fact that we all have insecurities & flaws.
We try, we fail, & we succeed.
Thats what makes us humans; the determination to strive & survive.
The end the world isn’t as bad as we think it is.
602 · Oct 2011
My Scars
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
As I rub my fingers over the healed scars, all the memories come rushing back to me.

The numb feeling as the blade slides against my arm.

The empty thoughts that clouds my mind.

When I reach that temporary moment of nirvana I know that everything will be okay.
574 · Oct 2011
A Letter To Me
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
I will tell you I love you every single day. When no one listens to you, you should always know that I will be here for you. Who cares what they say? I don’t. Do you know why? Because I love you and that’s all that matters. You mean the world to me. You will always be my number one. I love you to the moon and back. I will always be the one person that will always have your back and will never leave you. When you look into the mirror, always remember that you are beautiful and one of a kind.
562 · Oct 2011
What Do You Say?
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
What do you say when someone stares at your scars and ask you questions?

Do you pretend to not hear them?

Stare off into space and talk about random things?

Make up a lie and say it was just your dog?

Or start crying and be completely honest with them?
478 · Oct 2011
Too Many Emotions
Kingafroninjaa Oct 2011
I’m so angry yet I don’t want to release the anger.

I’m so sad yet I don’t want to cry.

I’m so confused yet I don’t know what steps to take.

I’m so hurt yet I try to hide the pain.

I just don’t know whether I should go left or right.

I don’t know anymore.

— The End —