I remember you,
I think of you.
You cared about  me and every thought I ever had,
You helped me make sense of what I was dealing with,
even though neither of us could at that time.
There wont ever be anyone like you in my life I rest assure
I stand tall and reminis on our time together
and feel the haunting of your presense everytime I write.

drop the base
throw me off, confuse me
mislead me
What I feel
Is imperfection
and maturity
wisdom and experience
I find the aging process beautiful

I can not wait to age.
23 is just a few weeks away, a new age is a new chapter.

Is it bedtime ?
or is it just the beginning.
When I am asleep my mind is a movie reel projecting role after role
I feel like my mind is like James Cameron in the production of Titanic.
I dream of the unknown, and the past
I predict the future and contimplate lifes problems best when I am asleep.

I will figure it out, on my own, in my mind
when I crawl under my sheets hit the lights
lay my head down
everynight at bedtime

ill get it ill get there
they already have it
debt free
worry free
a walk in the park a mere fun experience
i am stressed and broke
working harder than ever to make money
forget what others have
i am my own support system
hate and jealousy are drugs of the demon
faith and a dream hope and the future
its all i have
its all i need
ill get where i need to be
ill get what i want.

i want it i dream it i see it i believe it
destiny and fate
love and commitment
following your heart
trusting whats right
finding the right guy
is all i need
where is he?
patience is a virtue

you were there thru alll the struggle and grind
a hand to hold when my tears fell
a fight against the world
me all alone
but instead of misery i chose him
i lost a lo t but gained even more
aside from the pounds
and away from the fear
i feel bad for you

i am not sorry
for all the pain you have endured
is just a test
a test to make sure
youre ready for whats to come
whatever it is
a mere bump in the road
might seem to some as  a disaster
but remember that the grass may be greenner