Being told your ill
from a child,
born with
internal conflict
and confusion

Head spinning
into constant
trances, dream
states.

Brain jumps,
going into a loop
mind adjusts
and increases volume

TEMPO, TEMPO
Loud irregular thoughts
echo and magnify
wish it would shut up
can hear voices
telling me things
I do not need to know.

At eight always a loner:
mute and on edge,
taunted in school
for being slow.

What people forget
is that I know a lot
of things, my mind
never forgets
******* and lies
people spread.

The body defends
fortress of steel,
brings on flight and fight
anger rages quick,
feel like a ticking clock.

Thumping out aloud,
brain is now intense
starts slow, quicker then
fast before you know it
lands the final blow,
before it drifts in and out
zoning and hearing peace.

Looks sweet to the taste,
but bitter mistress,
she torments
swept me of my feet
dancing with the demon,
that one last dance
poisons my insides,
you sure you want to take that sip?
I will leave you with no cash
you won't have the last laugh.  
I'll leave you with jitters and sweats,
wake up with no recollection
of what's been done and said
but a dizzy, nautious feeling
of everything closing in
There be no escape
waking up with a sore head
repeat, drink, sleep
exactly the same thing every day.  

I woke up once from her spell…
in a coma state half awake
half asleep sat alone in the dark
in a park with no idea of how
I've got there hearing
muffled voices  

feeling alone
cold, confused and scared,
figured I wouldn't be here
so I no longer had any fear.

Alcohol got her revenge...

she led me on the path
and left me again.

I'm a little wild,
love seeing you smile,
even if its for a short while.
I follow my own path,
where ever that takes  
feeling human energy
chemistry of life
warmth of the sun
real energy flow
not this constant
*******, negative
vibes  just love
at pure form
the very thing we sow.

Eloquently the butterfly
swirls into the immortal sky,
clouds form into emerging
eyes, observing the gentle
rhythm of the sea.

The oak tree standing
guard while the cherry
tree blossoms they sprout
out fruit, seeds and petals:
which decorates the forest
birthing new life
celebrating each day
the harmony
the spirit of life.

The magnetism
of the cosmos aligns:
your energy pulsates
and flows through
your very being.

Your far away
at the same
time your near.

I am reading
each fragment,
each speck
of particle
of the universe.

We are but one,
our union binds
us together.

Energy of the twins
from the Gemini
star flows between us  

one being
one universe.

An utopia
tunneling from  
reality to fiction:
impending watchful
eyes, hungry mouths
feeding their habits.
Treading into fear of
unknown crevices.

Some stare, others
scurry around to  
find their destination.

They find each other
in separate time zones
realms, currency and
cause conjoined together
waiting...  

Each location
fades out into thin air.

They crawl out like
ants from confusion:
spiraling into more
labyrinths of escalators,
stairs and stations.

All is moving in constant
motion finding that place
they need to be.

The world is a distorted mirror
that reflects your desires
but deceives
turning you into the madness
of keeping
yourself sane.

People calling out your name
as you fall into trees
you feel your legs
brittle and body snap
apart from the strain.  

You revolve through
constant cycle of doors:
You hear the hiss of snakes
the sharpening of blades:
leading to the destination
of nowhere pictured before
that very dark and light
abyss from where you came.