You said my ego would be my downfall
I scoffed,”Oh what a dull people.”
Now my ego is my biggest foe.

When you stand at the apex of all man
And realize your greatest fear
Was that you were a man
But now all these thoughts flood you brain
The man you are transcends the man you were
You need not fight nor further your rule
You need not dream or hope for
When the world all lies in the reach of your hand
You acknowledge your limited life span
And think only of how to immortalize your existence
Then you think ‘Why Religion’
When now I exist.

We are all ruined until we aren’t no more
For me, society killed me and moved on
I on the other hand have been stuck in limbo
The future is a distant memory
The past a door with no ****
And the present feels like hemorrhoids
An unnerving pain at the blissful of moments

You would think life be simpler
If only everything were black and white
But my grey scale’s been tipped
And my sight is way over five thousand
Yet still I don’t dream just a misfit
Like a misplaced piece of a puzzle
You can see the picture but just can’t fix it

Jingle bells jingle bells
Bring the sound of
Blood thirsty elves
Evil spells sinister santa
Plots to taunt
and scatter witches,
frail and pale
Around the world
To **** and chill
With their haunting melodies
La lalala la- la- la- la
La lalala la- la- la- la
A trail of blood
Red like crimson
Horrors worse
than those of prison

I hate myself I do, or at least
I've convinced myself I do
Will I repeat it, I don't know
But sure as hell know I can
What started as a couple drinks
Turned into a real big thing
Its just a fling I thought
Nothing more no big deal
I hate myself I do
What a big lie I'm such a fool
I'm nothing but your tool
But still I  let you use me
like I am your stool
Whenever you weary
quench your lust with me
This is not a poem
Merely just a confession
The guilt in me is piling
But how can I resist your touch
Your fragrance is compelling
No you put a spell on me
I don't mean to blame,
Why I have you both here
I just want to be heard
And if possible
continue as is was
I know it is a bit selfish
Disgusting as you might think
But the best is the best
How could it be
compared with the rest
I'm sorry
I slept with your mother

All alone with no care
A destiny you and I shall share
I shy away to hide my tear
You smile to shy away my fear
A burden we both have to bare
Without a place we call a home
All our friends and peers are gone
This lonely world is ours alone
The friend in you is all that's clear
You fill my heart with lots of cheer
The world might call but I shall not hear
You are all that's right and dear to me
The perfect friend I sometimes think
How in the world we ever linked
Your face is mine and mine is yours
How in the world could we both exist

I love to look good, auspicious they say
Maybe it’s to hide how ugly it is I am inside
Pretty devious indeed, so I always have one
Or more broads by my side, never suspicious
I am lustful, guess that is why I find
My prey to be delicious
Barely dressed yet heavily
Musked by all sorts of fragrance
Unaware of the malicious thoughts
That run rampant in my head
They say I have a twitch
So I had to get it fixed
But the charming ones love them a good story
And the bold ones hate Mr. Perfect
So "hear lies" my great defect
My little itsy bitty secret
I do not judge, yet still am a hypocrite
So criticize if you must
I shan’t protest, but I will guarantee
None will detest for I am your lover
And you hate how much you know me
So you ignore the parts you dislike
And cling to the façade I propose
You want me to use you and discard you
So a story you can share
I want to use you to discard me
Lose myself in the euphoria
Hoping the slimmest chance
That I find my first love and redemption
If not then the cycle repeats
And I take you over and over
With or without your permission

I wonder if the sky bleeds
That red when the sun gives a few peeks
Hanging over the horizon dip
I wonder if she cries
During storms and she pours
Heavy tears on the earths cheeks
And when she sneeze thunder roars
Or maybe it’s the gods applaud
When they feast or battle
That electrifies the sky
And send shivers down her spine
I wonder if the sky is afraid
When it’s dark and she’s all alone
And the stars don’t show their face
While the moons gaze
Is hidden behind the clouds
I wonder.