Have you ever seen a dead body?
Pictures from my aunts Christmas party
Everyone had a blast, pretending it was all for charity
Not me, troubles on my mind
I don’t usually go out chasing after crime
But tonight I just might
Sinister me sinister look
I had never felt so fine
So when I ran into her
And he smiled whilst tossing me aside
I just knew how thin that line was
And they say knowing is half the battle
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
I had practically won, but I still rattled them a bit
So your daddy fought in Nam and you in where?
Show some mettle, it’s also my first time
Please take care of me I wish, hahahaha
So your girlfriend is a bit noisy
Oops cat bit its tongue, oh daisy
Now she can’t talk not from the lack of trying no.
She just keeps gagging on her blood
And Private Ryan’s no fun
It was going to be either him or her
But now his regressed and stuck in baby mode
While she’s pretending to be a fish out of the water
Well you know what they say,
One man’s food is another man’s garbage
And I have never been known to blow my own trumpet
So, boy’s night out!
We started with the nails,
Oh what wonderful nails he didn’t have
He screamed all night in amazement
I had outdone myself, I was impressed
Then I got annoyed so I cut his tongue out
Replaced it with his dead girlfriends
Sewed back on like it was never removed
Then sewed his mouth shut
Now he could taste his girlfriend
Wherever he went,
Or maybe his girlfriend could taste him even in death
Genius I thought to myself as I prepared for an emergency op
Tbc.

I remember having a thought
but then i remember not
whether this be naught
or maybe a clot in my head
and some sought of amnesia
I do not know.
I remember happiness
which i cannot seem to grasp
I also remember a sadness
that draws out rivers of tears
that soon flood my memory
with their salty anger,
for whom it is directed
I lay oblivious.
I remember having a reason
for just about anything,
Option A or B i could make a decision
But not now, I do not remember.
I remember i could talk for hours,
Even without stopping i just kept going
But now all the tenants in my head
have left and its all quiet.
I wonder if they took my memories
My precious memories with them.
I remember love, and all the joy
It brought into our lives
and the feeling i had in my stomach
Whenever i saw you or heard your voice
or just the mentioning of your name
But not anymore i do not.
It makes me wonder,
Where Did The Butterflies Go?

I've heard a choo choo like sound before
But there aren't no ferries or trains for miles
The monster under my bed has said
Its not a choo, but a chew instead
To befriend such a thing I wonder
Only the devil can be the cause

I whisper a prayer and suddenly pause
I thought I heard a little noise
Something crept behind my toys
I peep through my squinted eyes
For a moment see a dark shadow pose
Behind the curtain with a red nose
Oh Crusty man I've done my chores
Please let me be and haunt other boys.
I say in plight to save my skin

The sound of death and sadness looms
engulfs my room and all within
I pass out as I cannot breath
To wake up early morning soaked in red
The dog had made a mess all night
Stealthily assaulted me alright
Paint all over my bed and tights.
Yes I've always known
clowns are not that bright

If I am your friend, your confidante
Then let me be a rose, your special flower
When you are happy admire my petals
But never forget I too have thorns
So when I *****, don’t see me as just a blister

Humans die, is that really fine
All we can do is be withered
As we grow old and lose our shine
I can feel the warmth of your body
And the vibrancy radiated,
But with each moment you’re always a breath short
Reminding me of an inevitable outcome

You can’t unpick a flower
But not picking it does not ensure it lives forever.
I thought I would, when I fell for you
Let you clip me by them stem
Lived and laughed while love played us fools
Still my heart flutters when I see you
Breaks into a million little pieces
When I think of you now and tomorrow

I wonder how the unpicked flower feels
To be admired by all and shunned by none
In the summer bliss of a trillion gazes
To belong to all and not just one
Yet one day before your time is come
To find yourself, conveniently replaced
With one who’s young like you once were.

I fear that unlike my peers,
Friends,family and those dear
I'll always remain dormant
Like a small pool stagnant
In my development
Those that came before me
Blossomed,and those that followed
Were and are majestic in their fullest
I have created my domain
But how real is it?
I have shunned myself
But has the world also?
I look and I judge
Does everyone else do so?
I believe or think I do
But is it worth it
I smile to suppress it
Suppress my true feelings
And while at it hide my true beauty
I bathe,work and am dependable
But why do I feel filthy
I feel your presence
But I'm all here alone
Is it my imagination
Or maybe karma and this is penance
In my cocoon I lay alone
Shut from the world
I shall atone
To my surprise
A sad sad song
Meant for one
Who isn't I
I crack open
And stretch myself
Blinded by the beauty surround
To my surprise
I'm not alone
A monarch I am
My wings I spread
I shed tears, tears of joy
If only I had known my love,
My beauty and my joy
Were all within.