have you had a dream of something so close to heart you wake up and find yourself in a pool of tears?
have you ever had a moment in time where nothing else mattered to you except that one moment and the people and things in it?
have you ever stopped worrying about all the bad things in your life and took in the scenery of the place you are currently sitting in or on or by?
have you ever realized how ****** up you really are?

its not even 9:30 and everyone is asleep
i pondered the question of what to wear when i meet you
i don't know who you are, but i keep looking for you
i shouldn't try to find love but let it find me
im a hopeless romantic
i like weird things and i want to change a lot of things about myself
i am a lot like other girls
its late and im lonely

i love to think about my future or even so my past although it has been altered with bad things such as drugs and alcohol. i have lost a lot of memories of what used to be and i wish i could take them back. i have a lot of plans for my life, but there's always something in the way of it. i don't exactly know what that something is, but i do know that it is in me. when i say "in me" that can me a lot of different things. i don't know. i'm 16 and i haven't even kissed a boy. i embarrass myself a lot and oh lord this turned sad again.