im *******
down
down
through a downward spiral
again
except this time
i dont give a ****
about what im becoming.

The sun was so good at its job.
It kept the planets in perfect orbit.
Gave light to the mirror of the moon.
Everyone admired the sun
It was just picture perfect.
Well...
Almost.
Everyone has their weaknesses.
The sun wasn't perfect, it was
inadequate.
It shone its rays, tried to tickle the shivering Earth
But no matter how hard it tried
It couldn't warm this cold being.
All of the other planets and stars
Continued to stare at it in awe
Or envy.
But the earth looked at it with
disdain.
And no matter how much effort the sun gave
No matter how flawless it performed in other areas
No matter how many people looked up to it for the things that it was god at
The sun couldn't help but feel
Inadequate.

I am the sun.

as i walk down the hallway
and array of faces
more like masks
with not even the slightest spark of recognition
i can hardly believe
that all of you forgot what we
once had.

i fell.
let us count how many tried to help me up.
none.
let us count how many asked if i was okay.
one.
let us count how many who kept on walking
like they didn't even notice
or like i deserves to be brushing off the gravel buried beneath my skin
too **** many to ever ******* count.

every single look is a knife through my heart
I bleed...
it's a beautiful crimson..
amuses everyone who bought tickets to watch the show
that's what it is right?
lets watch the toy make a fool of herself
she's just a doll
she doesn't have feelings
she'll never break
we'll never tire playing with her
of course she'll never end up under the bed with all of the other forgotten toys
well...
the land of the forgotten becomes more tempting everyday.

tired of this
no matter how hard i try
im always ******* last
no stop i dont want your **** pity
stop looking at me
laughing at me
giving me mock praise
i know this is sarcasm
should i eat my pain away
or stop eating
and become thinner and thinner...
maybe ill nearly disappear
then they wont be able to see me

remove the boulder from above my head
stop me from glancing upward to check on its position
from my stance
every passing moment
or just release your grasp
let the suspense end
let it fall and crush me
so i won't have to feel
its presence.

Was ist passiert?
Ich dachte...
Liebe sein sollte infinite.

Das Wort sollte eine Bedeutung haben
Das Wort...Liebe

Mehr als ein wort
Mehr vie hundert

Die Erfahrung ist unbezahlbar
Infinite
Für immer...

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What happened?
I thought ...
Love should be infinite.

The word should have a meaning
The word love ...

More than one word
More like a hundred

The experience is priceless
Infinite
Forever ...