your absence bore a hole
in my soul and my being
sharp as a lightning bolt
clear through the heavens

let your built frame
build a mountain
over the fragile frame of my own

shield me from the demons that never cease
to penetrate the warmth

your body heat so close
i can smell your cologne

let me feel the presence of hope
make the light visible.

stress sadness anxious tired done dead
i hate you hate this hate that hate me hate everything
no friends no hopes no dreams no life no light
no anything
i want to leave i want to stay
i want help i want you to just go away
leave me to waste
away in my grave.
PLEASE!
nightmares when i sleep night mares when i wake
is there no end
i cant pinch myself awake because my life is haunting
cant get away
wont leave wont stay
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
****
**** it all to hell
why is it this way

It was mine. What I had left of me.
Belonged to me.
Identified me as much as
My skin tone
My eye color.
I kept it locked in a treasure box
Hidden deep in the dark places
Of my being
Of course Pandora had to come and open it
Release my gift
Steal it away
And use it for her own
Left me feeling exposed and empty
Worthless
It's not special anymore now that everyone can look at you
And see what made me special
Doesn't matter anymore
If you can do it
If everyone can do it
FINE
Take anything you want from me.
Just take it all.
I can't do anything about it.
Can't you see I'm powerless?
Cracked open, nothing to keep to myself?
Just take all you want from me.
I'll just let you.
Not that there's anything left.

im feeling super anxious and on the edge ohmygod
i wish it was over i wish the pain would stop
get out of my head i know i dont have any friends anymore
and whatever im lonely and sick of it i want things to be better
but it never will be i miss her so much i miss having someone to talk to
i hate this feeling being alone every second of everyday it never ends
no one cares to be that pathetic excuse of a girl that
i used to be so sorry for me but no one cares to talk about it
walking the halls daring to open my mouth everything
i say is stupid adds on to my labels that everyone knows but
no one cares to talk about it to
look me in the eye and see what's going on inside.

I'm sorry
That I can't look in a mirror and like what I see
Can't go outside without being afraid that people will come out to yell at me
Taunt me
Why not, it's happened before
Can't go shopping because
Everyone who looks at me is thinking the same ugly truth
Nothing looks good on me anyway
Why do I try?
Can't be a part of popular social networking sites
Those are for people who have worth
It's okay.
Never hear my name because all I am is a part of the background
I'm sorry that every night I'm left alone with my horrible thoughts
Can't have nightmares if I don't sleep
Doesn't matter because I'm living one
I'm sorry that all I am to this world
To you
To myself
Is a waste of space
Always and forever
I'm sorry that there's no escaping anything
I'm sorry that there's no help for me
I'm sorry that this is my life
And
I'm sorry that you don't care.

PLEASE STOP!
CAN'T YOU SEE
YOU'RE HURTING ME!
please..i just can't take it