I’m the type to say I told you so
I’m not the one who changed, you did
I still walk the narrow road and stay true to myself
You changed for the worst
You’re someone I don’t recognize
You no longer live with a shimmering spirit
One day you are going to wake up and realize
You’re not allowed to be mad at me anymore

Have you removed your ***** from her pocket yet,
And placed them back on your body so you can be a person again?
You need to be your own person now
Not just at work but in the real world too
You deserve better!

As your friend I am not asking I am telling you
Leave her and save what dignity you have left
Learn to respect yourself again and finish what you’ve started
Unfinished dreams and projects
Respect yourself!

I am not asking you to leave her because I like you
I am telling you to leave her because it is in your best interest
I am telling you to leave her because you need a positive environment
And if I was with her I would be drunk and ****** all the time too
I know what you’re going through

Leaving someone you love more than they love you
It’s hard
I’ve been emotionally, mentally and verbally abused too
It’s hard
I’ve been where you are and I know it’s hard
Leave now while you’re still alive!

I’m still waiting for comfort with butterflies
I’ve had comfort, complete comfort with someone
And comfort with stomach flips
Comfort with stomach flips usually means something is wrong
The comfort with butterflies lasts for a short time
And the butterflies turn to stomach flips
I want the butterflies to stay
I want the comfort to stay
I want comfort with butterflies

I’ve been thinking all day, thinking too much
I am not thinking logically!
I am still searching for a reason to stay in this dumb ****** up city!
What am I waiting for? Another chance with a man who doesn’t love me?
I can’t sit around and wait for him to figure things out
I need to do something for me now
I need to follow my dreams and stop letting things hold me back
I found an open window to climb through
So I’m going to climb through it
Alex will not hold me back
Benji will not hold me back
Betty will not hold me back
I need to climb through the window and not look back

I just want to breathe again
I don’t know how I’ll get by
But I’ll somehow pull myself together
I can’t escape you right now, but I will eventually
I will fill the space you left behind
The light will go on and I will figure it out

Right now I’m in another world
My mind has left Seattle and I am somewhere else
Nothing is like it was and I am waiting for grace
I’ve lost everything
I just want to hear your voice again
Feel your embrace
If I want to breathe again
I have to wake up!

My heart may not make it
My brain works, my arms work, my legs work
My heart may not come back to life
I waited too long to tell you how I really feel
And now you may not come back either
Without you I may never recover
Not in the way that is suitable for love

I miss my little piece of sunshine
My heart doesn’t beat now
It didn’t beat with you either
But that’s because you took my breath away
I my heart will never be the same
I will never be the same

I want to live on my own, by my own person
I am ready to begin my life without the pain
I am fighting to keep my head above water
I am trying to delete you from my life
Throw out the pictures and drawings and poetry
But I can’t throw out the mental pictures
The emotional memories
The verbal poetry that reverberates in my ears

I can delete you from my computer
I can throw away the pictures and poems and paintings
But when I close my eyes, you’re there
When I go to sleep you’re still there
When I walk around my cold lonely apartment, you’re there
You are still all around me and I don’t know what to do with it
I don’t know how to let it go, even though I have tried

I have tried seeing other people
I have tried dating other people
But no one feels right
It doesn’t feel right
They are not my best friend, there is no connection
They are not right, nothing in my life right now is right