I am trapped in my own memories, an endless whimper through frail bones.
Despite the clocks ceaseless “Tick Toc”, I remain in my own fearful zones.
The sweat drizzles down my heart, Anxiety rushes through my veins.
Stay away from me love, NO NO NO, I don’t want the Pain.
I feel you lurking through those dark corners, I’m afraid.
Running from the fear of you, out of my body I have strayed.
I don’t want you to burn my soul, crush my aorta into stones.
Your trying to pierce my heart, I’m terrified, please leave me alone.
I've met you; I've savored your sweet honey taste in slow sips.
That was before the honey bees came to sting my coated lips.
The horror, the thought of love, the feeling of love is terrifying.
Is love really the phobia, or is it the hurt that I am memorizing.
It all boils down to love; it is out to get me, to hurt me.
How do I make it go away, how do I make it FLEE, FLEE, FLEE.
It's creeping around my lonely heart, to feel is what I fret.
I hide, but love removes my hands from my beating chest.
Persistent, don't you get the point of my reaction.
Love, why do you wish to grant me dissatisfaction?
I know, I want you, I want you it's true.
I'm so afraid of what damage, maybe wonders you may do.
What will you do? Please don't hurt me anymore.
I picked up those pieces that you left broken before.
I will get over this fear, If you show me a little, just a little grace.
Kiss me softly, I will open my tightened eyes, to see your beautiful face.
Even then my palms will be damped with frightful anticipation.
You penetrated your way inside of me, Love you are penetrating!
Please stay this time, I'm really afraid that you will go!
To have love away from me, I can't stand it, I don't know!

**My phobia is not having you Love!
Not having you is my Phobia.
Loving is not the Phobia!
The Phobia is loving not!

My heart is malfunctioning and sends blood to my pupils.
Now my heart lacks oxygen and all I see is pain.
And through these blood shot eyes I can’t see a thing.
If I ever love again, I won’t ever love the same.

Have you ever seen oxygen filled, blood red tears?
Have you ever felt pain run down your cheeks?
I cry blood; I cry pain, through all life’s jeers.
Not because I care and not because I’m weak.

I cry blood tears because the hurt is beyond control.
This pain exceeds pain and surpasses hurt.
No I’m not sad, I don’t need to be consoled.
I’m beyond, far far beyond the worst.

Cry cry cry; untill I have no tears left.
Hurt hurt hurt; until I feel no pain.
The water dries, and blood sweats.
I have nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

Heart break, my heart has no ache.
Heart broken, my heart has not been broken.
Heart destroyed, no heart left to shake.
It cannot be repaired, no longer is it open.

As blood tears continue to leak.
I lose all life, all feelings, and all patience.
They see me, but they do not seek.
I’m dead, and that’s an understatement.

Great ***** of fire, dart through the bones.
That muscle pumps ridged ****** stones.
The bitterness won’t leave her alone.
Alone, the bitterness left her home.
Home could not be found for help.
In search she went beyond herself.
Beyond her thoughts, she started to yelp.
She yelped until emotions no longer were felt.
Out of the blue, she felt this soothing breeze,
That cooled her bones that danced like trees.
Her blood streamed rivers flowing into seas.
No longer in confinement her minds at ease.
Hugs and kisses, I felt those before.
Moon lit dinners, chocolates roses at the door,
The dreams sold were sweet to the bitter core.
You sold me no dreams, yet gave me more.
How is it that you took this loneliness from me?
Destroyed my sadness, made bitterness flee,
“U” figured me out to the “T”.
I feel happy; I am blissful to feel free.
Through my unfathomable heart beats love.
It’s not broken or dead, a lively hub.
Peaceful and serene like the shivery white dove.
Chivalry, “I adore thee like the stars above”.
I was under the world, and now I’m on top.
Twinkling eyes, from the stars rain drops.
You dried the flooded garden like a mammoth mop.
I have someone to depend on, and my dreams they would not stop.
You’re the rush of excitement that cured my lifeless streak.
With your tenderness and care you clogged my tear ducts leak.
I have found what I longed for; I no longer have to seek.
Gone are the rain storms, the breeze blow by my silent creek.