Death is what follows through
In moments of weakness where--
Your voice is what the winds blow

Each word they carry to my ears
Was a knife staked to the heart
Then what follows after is a fall

I die once and then another
With each was a gasp for air
Just to suffer a little more longer

My every death is in your hands
And in every death I live again
To die once more in your arms

To die once and for another

If only dreams can die
The very same way I do
Maybe my life could've--
Turned for the better

Because in everyday I feel
Like slowly dying inside
Wanting something I can't
Even hope to realize

In a thousand lifetime

What is lost then could never be found
Not on the books you burried yourself in
Nor even under the fort you call apathy
What you've lost is carried away with time

It's too late; your youth has slipped away
Next to the many regrets you collected since
Were the choices that have dulled your soul
Choices that ultimately colored you gray

Years gone by though the consequences--
The results of your very negligence
Still haunts you with the ghost you know
The ghastly ghost of your wasted youth

Seven days to celebrate another year wasted
And despite knowing the reason of solitude
It still makes you wonder, how each year--
Your birthdays get to be grayer than the last

I am slowly dissociating
On this plane of existence
To a seperate dimension
Exempt from realizations
And harshness of life

I am slowly dissociating
Becoming one with void
Finally being at my peace
Exempt from everything
The very sorrows of life

I hope that life is not just about this
A one way road to somewhere else

Never did I pray for more or less
I just want to feel alive, if not again

Along the last words we better left unsaid
Were the ones unheard but needed the most
'Cause when our pride felt righteous at times
Mistakes are what we ended up doing certainly

You took it hard, straight to your heart's repose
The only son you knew were nowhere home
And along your last words better left unsaid
It was his cold and distant back that faced you

Yet, Laura for what's her worth did soon realize
How quickly time fades with a passing glance
She did what's right but to no avail was it all
Until the final days warily caught up to her soul

Since then, my every passing days were bleak
I took it hard, against the solitude of my ego
The words I said were just there for a second
When the days passed, I wished to go back

I wish I can go back and tell you I'm sorry
Although I thought it was right to go away
My dear Laura was here but nowhere near
Time was cruel for mom and I'll suffer for it

Took you a long time to reach the shore
When the seas seem fine and collected
Lest the sins and sadness you abhor
Haunt you through the old days relentless

Heavy is the heart that carries the world
And weary is the world that hates itself
You saw the shores and loathed yourself
Since you tried and swam but sinked again

While up above, the banquet of stars shone
Right over your head as to mock you terribly
Then in the aftermath of it all, the sea set off
Before you began to learn how to drift along

But when the seas seem fine and collected
You found yourself embracing for the worst
Because in the midst of the pain and enmity
Nonchalant strength foreign to you, stayed

Forget all the sins and sadness you abhor
For the waves that crushed you day and night
Washed your weary heart that sinked unfailingly
Fooling it may be, but pain did build you whole

Looking back to the days of grasping for air
Often lets you forget that you took to the shore
Not even realizing, it's not time that took pity
You swam and persisted to the days relentless

Lucky was the moment you thought of living
The harbors in the shores were such a sight
There's still a lot of seas yet to be conquered
But lucky is it, you can still persist relentless