Distant are the days of my yearning
Of what things could have been
Now that you stand in front of me
Soon to accept my name as ours

We knew it all before even the stars
A premonition of a happy ending
Together forever with my other half
The X's to my O's, the tic to my toe

Before the estrangements of my youth
Were the meaning and colors to everything
Had as many friends as I could and held--
As tight to the hopes of living for eternity

Lost in the euphoria of my early years
Perhaps gravely endulged to even see
That the youth I savoured for so much
Has began to slowly erode to a new reality

The friends I had, worked their life around
And as I tried to arrive to the same place
The reality of mediocrity and blandness
Brought me to kneel, fittingly ashamed

My castle of grandeur collapsed as though--
I was not under it's roof, calling aloud
To whom I probably had missed dearly
"Mom, am I still young?" There's no answer

Better to sleep away this terrible dream
Let the calamity of my incessant doubt
Claw away my flesh and bones as it is
Hastily leave me here; older but not wiser

I did good, you did good
But I just wish
We could've done better

Why is it hard to find
A sanctuary for myself
But it's easy to be one
For somebody else

In bliss I found happiness
'Cause in it I found you
And in bliss I caught myself
Smiling through rise and fall

Yes, in bliss I found it all
The joy, the pain, the toll
'Cause in bliss I found you
Then in it I lost you

In bliss we lived our lives
Ignorant as though content
Yes, I thought forever is now
But forever is now until it's a bliss

There is an infinity between us
Stretching far beyond my reach
Yet to my heart, this too was close

Not in proximity can my longing
Be tamed but rather knowing
That your heart still holds mine

Left with only the still images
Of that one face that had loved
You the most since infinity

And when this love that knows
No infinity at all brought pain
Then in proximity shall I cease

Return to the infinity between
Back to infinity shall I reside
Knowing no proximity and all

Death is what follows through
In moments of weakness where--
Your voice is what the winds blow

Each word they carry to my ears
Was a knife staked to the heart
Then what follows after is a fall

I die once and then another
With each was a gasp for air
Just to suffer a little more longer

My every death is in your hands
And in every death I live again
To die once more in your arms

To die once and for another