i don’t follow traffic laws
don’t get in my car
i will crash it
it’s not that i don’t know how to drive but the signs get awfully confusing
especially with these tears in my eyes
and sometimes i’ll mess up the turns or drive off the road
i don’t know how to love you right
because i’ve never been loved right before
get ready for a bumpy ride
i don’t follow traffic laws
especially when it comes to love
don’t get in my car
i will crash it
don’t give me your heart
i will crush it

once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
and he called it 'Chops'
because that was the name of his dog
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
that was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
and he let them sing on the bus
and his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
and his mother and father kissed alot
and the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
and his father always tucked him in bed at night
and was always there to do it.

once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
and he called it 'Autumn'
because that was the name of the season
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
and the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
and left butts on the pews
and sometimes they would burn holes
that was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
and the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed alot
and his father never tucked him in bed at night
and his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it

once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
and he called it 'Innocence: A Question'
because that was the question about his girl
and that's what it was all about
and his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
that was the year Father Tracy died
and he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
and he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
and the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
that made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
and at 3am he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly.

that's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
and he called it 'Absolutely Nothing'
because that's what it was really all about
and he gave himself an A
and a slash on each ****** wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen

-osoanon nimuss

two years of sad to finally be happy
is not a trade i would’ve made if i’d have known at the time

you know that feeling when
you stare too long at a word and
you no longer grasp the meaning so
you stop looking?

maybe that’s why
you fell out of love with me

you stared too long and
decided to stop loving

i don’t even wanna die i just wanna stop hurting and thats the only way i know how to do that

i told myself i wouldn’t let you come back after how bad you hurt me, how you left me without hesitation, but it was 2am and we were laughing and i felt happy for the first time in a long time, and i fell for you all over again

ice cream at 2am will always taste like u