With her smile she made me complete
Her happy tales and dramatic song were so sweet
She’d skip, trip and run away
But wherever she was, she was by my side, night and day
Her voice would sound like falling rain
A sound that meant death, or life, it would always remain the same
Softly it could fall, dangerous it could be
Violently it could sound, beautiful like the sea
You don’t mess with this girl, she’ll bring you down
But she’ll do it behind a smile never a frown
She uses no germs, poison or steel
Only what you have inside, what you can but can’t feel
Like all who have, I was wrong to cross this horrific joy
I was betrayed by her, stolen, used, like a child’s toy
What I never realized, was that I was betrayed by myself
She is who I was, am I an individual, one’s self?
Where am I now, I’m dazed and confused
I took a rough ride, it left me alone and bemused
Living in a world where part of you is gone
Makes you loose joy, love and song
You long for her sight, to rejoin the cause
But you must fight in the ring, to jeers and applause
No war is made with efficient haste
It’s made with time, pleasure and distaste
So I apologized, so gradually and well
I felt assured, my doubt groveled and fell
My confidence was balanced, and my soul lifted
I was rushed upwards, blessed and spiritually gifted
But like the sea she mercilessly took my hopes
She hung me back with heavy ropes
She broke my ribs and cut my hair
She put mud in my face and tied me to a chair
Nothing seemed to work but she changed her mind
My apology accepted, I was left behind
Pondering my decisions, wondering in my wake
Reflecting my choices, and the ones I would make
I crawled back to her, to make things as they were
They’d get better, you’ll see, for sure
But like a post-war madness, all was not as it was
I tried to find a reason, she said “just because”
So she danced without me, a battle won but lost
Left cold like the morning fall frost
Her muffled voice, sounding dull and distant
I’d remember that voice, throughout my life, during every instant.