Every time you
Feel lonely or sad
Or you feel like
Your life doesn't
Make sense and
When it feels like
Things are the
Darkest is when
You must search
For the light and
The love just waiting
Beneath the surface
Its always there if
You know where
To look inside of
Your heart and
Soul and when
You find that
Light that leads
You through the
Storm and through
The trials of life you
Will feel that much
Stronger and whole
Through the lessons
Of life that might
Come your way
If you have faith
You can move
Mountains and
Change the course
Of rivers with your
New found strength
And faith and light
That is flowing in
Your soul as you
Begin to show
And share your
Inner light and
Strength to others
To be the beacon
Of light and faith
To show others the
Way when they feel
Lonely or like life
Isn't fair you can show
Them through your
Own light and experience
There is always a brighter
Way through the storm
And showing and sharing
Your gift of light and healing
To all who are willing to see

This feeling, my heart bursts.

Pumping through my vains, happiness in my hands.

The secret smile that you hide

Just seeing you brings me to live

But this life has become different

in my eyes i run to you but you're so far

"come back" i say to myself but you keep walking away



Where have my days gone..



Working with the thoughts of your eyes makes me fall to my knees.

Listening to all the words of wise men..

Still i find my heart searches for you.


I can still smile through the days,
but when I close my eyes to sleep all I see is you



Where have my days gone..

Because we both know the sound of gunfire
Except I, didn’t grow up in a war zone
It was a different kind from yours
Our bullets were words
Sounds of breaking glass
And the shards of which made it into my cheerios the next day
Chewed them anyway to spite
The sound that
Breaking makes

You,
you know the sound of falling bodies too readily
  you can mimic them in your footsteps
The smell of rotting corpses
What kind of scars shrapnel really leaves

What the color of blood really looks like
I see that shade of red every time you speak
  The way you keep it hidden in those paintings
In the drawer that I sneak into when you sleep
Know too well what evil looks like

I can find a place for all the words buried in my chest
inside your bullet wounds easily

If I were not a coward

Staring into the dark irises of men in uniforms dirtier than their conscience,
Find it easier to look into a barrel of a gun
Only one of them holds salvation
  
No, you are not afraid of guns
Nor the sound that breaking makes


But I still remove the safety pin
Just in case

Do they miss me?
Those I have shown my hand in kindness
The ones that which upon a single glance
Would ease the tensions of daylight

Do they miss me?
She of which showed sweet whispers asking for forgiveness
When none was needed to be heard?
How about her, the only one that tried to enter the way of Cupid
When all I done was light the darkness that held her
The model that showed interest in my growing world
The little sister I had grown
Or the angels I dug out of the earth
What about them?

I hear no word other then whispers from the crowds
I see no word of their lives other then the lights that drag my eyes into their path
I speak no name then screech of random thoughts
Do they do the same?

I wonder how many times I missed a chance
I wonder if they still feel the same

On a bed in which I lay
A life I see
A century old path leading
To this moment
No matter the path I took
It all lead to this
At least in this I feel no pain
No sorrow
No regret
Soon I am to meet
All that brought others and me
Heart beat eighty

I can see the glows of the tears
Slowly falling down their cheeks
People I have brought together
By my own hand and the grace of fate
Mothers, daughters, brothers, sisters
People of my past of torn from the battles
United under the pressure of loss
People for the future
Are brought another lesson of life
People of present
Given another relief from inner waterfalls
Heart Beat Seventy

My wive is closest
My daughter is next
Whispering please don't go
The warmth I feel
Is from their breaking hearts
I sing the songs from which we first met
Trying my best not to sound goofy
Managing to ease the pain for only a moment
Lights start dancing around me
Family from what seemed each generation
Come to help me across the line.
Heart Beat Sixty

Her hair lays on my chest, feels like it did when we first met
On that summer day down by the river
The water rushing through our toes as we danced the song of the winds
Laughter filled the air
Fish even decided to join the chorus
The splash of their jumps changes the beat
Our hearts sync to it
The air is filled with love
Even the angel of death paused in admiration.
Chuckling "I guess it will be a while"
Heart Beat Fifty

My sisters all gather in tears while my brothers to stay strong
I whisper to them I was sorry
For not being there in a time of need
I told them what our time apart has caused
I told them in fear I would never see them again
They became ghosts to fill the gaping hole that held in my heart for times too long
Only to dig its depth
The middle and second of youngest sisters granted the forgiveness
The older that is closer to my number still eggs the stubborn head
My brothers never held a grudge
The youngest of eight, never held a love quite like the rest
But still understood the pain
Despite having been born during the aftershocks
Heart Beat thirty

The Lights grew brighter
No sound could move
When this began I could hear the cries of women
Bringing out the next of the world
I hear the shouts of children in pain
I could feel everything
But now there was nothing, but a pressure on my chest
Dogs have gathered on my body, next to my wife and daughter
Smiling at a sight long seen not
My wife's hears their breaths and cries even louder
But no sound could be heard
My daughter knew what was coming, and joined the tears too
I felt the tears like the waters of holy river
Cleansing the filth still clinging to my soul
Heart Beat Fifteen

The voices from the past start to enter
Encouraging words that all will be alright
Everyone around me has changed
From the old that they once were, to youth in which we first met
My grandparents who died in pain appeared by my side
Looked better then I could remember
My wife was once again 16, the year that we met
My children were babies, crawled by the animals that lay on my body
Grandpa tells me that "This is the last look, might as well enjoy,
"The fruits of my labor have grown, but for now I will see the seeds,
"Each breath I take unlocks the cage that my soul was trapped,
"So I may live,
"If there is anything you want to say, say it now"
Heart Beat ten

I lifted my hand to touch my wife, as I would when surprising her with a present
I asked for a pen and paper to write one last message
My time is running out
Heart Beat Nine

The Lights raise their hands to grant me a slice of strength
Enough to help with what was needed
"To my family, to my friends"
Heart Beat Eight
"If you need me and I am gone. Look to the Stars"
Heart Beat Seven
"My mind has always been there, it was only a matter of time..."
Heart Beat Six
"Before my body decided to follow. Remember the words I have said..."
Heart Beat Five
"For each was meant to guide you. Do not allow yourselves to fall apart because of petty..."
Heart Beat Four
"Wars. I taught you all to patch wounds as soon as they are made so that you will never lose touch..."
Heart Beat Three
"of who you are an where you came from. The devil himself tried to take me over, but I fought it by accepting who I was. Do not argue over difference, do not blame any new lives that enter in the place of the lost..."
Heart Beat Two
"And do not stop being a family. Take my words and grow. I love you all with all my heart and I want you all to remember that no matter the trouble. I want you to remember that I will be still be here at your side protecting you every step you take. As will our ancestors. Use your gifts well and use them to help others. Please."
Heart Beat One
"With Love, Dakota. Blessed Be"






Heart



Beat



Zero

We live
In a give me
Society
Give me this
Give me that
We don't
Stop to think
How our
Give me attitudes
Effect everyone
Else around us
We don't stop
To think
About where
Our things go
We don't stop
To think
About the people
That are being
Affected the most
By our mass
Producing of
Things we don't
Ultimately need
In the first place
We need to step
Away from
Our needless
Waste
We need to
Start to
Understand
We have more
Than we need
If we just use it
Correctly
Its not about
Trying to see
Just how much
You can get
But seeing
How much
You can give
We need to move
From a Give me this
Give me that
Mentality to a
Giving this
Giving that
Mentality
So that we can
Start to live
In peace
And harmony
Openly sharing
With each other
Giving freely
Sharing freely
Everything
We have
Leaving behind
Our Give me this
And Give me that
Mentality behind

Its ok
To love
yourself
You don't
Have to
Hide that
Inner love
And light
We struggle
Against the love
We often feel
Like we don't
Deserve to be loved
Every body wants it
Every body deserves it
We all are loved in our own ways
When the love expands in your heart
You can truly begin to love yourself
Accepting yourself completely and wholly
Seeing the beauty for yourself and accepting
The ever growing love, beauty, light,  and peace
Love yourself
Don't ever forget
We all are free in
Our own way