The smooth sound of jazz always makes me swoon
Makes me smile and move
That sound
Is almost as irresistible as your voice

With the beat my feet move
With your hands my hips sway
I can still hear you whisper in my ear,
The sound of heart strings in the back ground

The light feeling of your kisses on my neck
I can feel the smile on your lips
As you tell me you don't dance and
I smile and tell you that you don't have a choice

Lets save that moment forever
Put it in a box and every now and again
Take it out and admire how simple it was with
The smooth sound of jazz always making me swoon

....Or could it be your touch

I paint my nails perfect
never a chip to be seen
and my makeup is always nice
Not even a single smuge
I always smile
and say hello
I wear nice clothes
and have such cute shoes
but inside
if you look deeper
You will see not the pretty outside
but the ugly inside
The rage that boils
Hate festers
Revenge is something to look forward to
When you are spread out on the couch
Like you always are
I will slip the blade
Into its home
and smile while the blood runs free
Neve again will you hit me
or yell at me
or insult me
or humilate me
My my how the tables have turned
When its your blood on my hands instead of my own
And no one will cry
because all you did was destroy
so may you always
Rest In Hell.

"Heal" is a fake word
Means nothing to me
I will not heal from my fathers fingers
and violation
I will not heal from the sharp needle
Mama pushed into my arm
I will not heal from the words
Grandpa yells at me
I will not heal from the cuts i inflict on myself
The scars will always be there
They will not go away

Heal is an ugly word
Fake and full of false hope
You will not heal child
You will learn to deal with the things given to you
With the problems and sorrows
You will grow up
You will move on
but you will not heal.

Standing on the bridge
Looking down at the peaceful water
I wonder what it would feel like to free fall
The water filling my lungs
Infused in my hair
I raise my arms to the sides of me
I close my eyes
Down I fall

The water surrounds me
Enveloping me
Swirls through my fingers
Caresses me like a lover

But the water turns cold
Choking, coughing
Trying to swim to the surface
Clawing at the water
I need to breathe
I panic and freeze screaming for help

Just as i go over the damm
Peace cocoons me once again
I stop the fight and give in
Taking one last gulp of water