We were just two kids with broken hearts
   Trying to piece together our lives
Sitting on the curb at the break of dawn
   Soaking up the blood in our eyes

How many times had I given up?
   How many times had you lied?
Honestly, at this point I've lost count
   But at least we can say we tried

You told me it's best to just move on
   And soar through the sky blind
Let the darkness surround me
   And explore the depths of my mind

I told you I'd already found another
   Who was nothing like your kind
He'd never rip my bones to shreds,
   Never drag a knife through my spine

And we were still watching the morning break
   With my head on your shoulder
I asked you just what went wrong
   You said our souls die as we get older

I stood up, nodding in agreement,
   Wishing the skies warmth was bolder
And you sat there watching me turn away
   Leaving your life that much colder

Am I the last person to find out
About this format?
I don't like it.
Can't figure it out.
Probably won't use it.


See ya HP!

Tonight on my lonely walk back
From your house
I thought about how
****** up
Everything's become

And how my heart
Is being wrapped in your web
So delicately spun
And while the lovers
Laugh with the moon
I'm walking home

Through the melting
Blackened snow
Over the glistening sidewalk
That reflects the dim streetlights
And my heart pounds in
My throat

I thought about how
Disappointed my parents would be
If only they knew

If only they knew
What rested between the skin
Of my chest and the
Padding of my bra
If only they knew
The green pill
With the 52 engraved

Was meant for me

To rid my head
Of all those words
You burned into my brain
Years
Ago


I thought of love
And how I will die alone
I thought of life
And how I waste it
I thought of music
And how it will never
Sound the same

I thought of her voice and her eyes and her
Bright LED smile

I thought of that girl
The smart one I loved
The dork who wasn't ashamed
To admit to her love of Xmen
I thought of the comic book nerd
The homework loving book smart
A student

I thought of
Who I was
Then
And who I am now

And my God, despite everything,
I thought of us.

And how I wished that the boy
Selling me drugs
Was buying me flowers
Instead.

But that's not how
It goes.

You've stripped me of any hope in romance.

And now
The only thing I believe in
Is amphetamines laced with
Guilt.

He wants this and she wants that
It's all about the score
And the grams and the money
The **** and *****

So many twists and turns
I never saw coming
So many strangers in my life
Turning tricks for nothing

I tried to rise up and
Out of this sketchy hood
But what is it about being bad
That feels so ******* good?

At first,
I was excited.
$27,
Straight profit,
From my state taxes.


After the pain,
The confusion,
The anguish,
The frustration,

Did I mention,
THE CONFUSION!?


My smile deflated when I saw,
It costs $27.95 to file the form.


***** you,
New Jersey.