If it was up to me,
I'd stay stuck in the dream,
And rest in your arms,
For all eternity.

You may say,
That makes me depressed,
And I would admit,
That just makes you an optimist.

I found an old poetry notebook of mine from my freshman year of high school and earlier. A lot of them are unfinished/short, so I figured it would be easier to just combine them all into one post. Enjoy =]
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You may be a stranger,
But you have my soul resting in your eyes,
You may be gone,
But you've never left my miserable mind,
You may be over it all,
But I'm still stuck under you

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Bittersweet poetry,
I just wish it wasn't me.

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You're going to leave,
Well,
Where does that leave me?
I was happier before,
But,
Now I'm self destructive.
Please, just stay.
Oh,
I forgot about the pain.
I cause misery,
But,
That's why you loved me.

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Dim lights,
Mismatched syllables,
I can't wait forever,
But still I sit,
Stewing in patience.

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Those pale eyes once pierced through me
An angels gaze upon hell's horrors
A desperate plea to be divine
You could have anyone you wanted
Why me?

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Those starless nights,
And cloudless skies,
A sea of darkened eyes,
I love only you,
After all we've been through,
Don't you feel it too?

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I'm losing all interest,
In seeing the light of another day.
One quick selfish act,
And my pain just slips away.

We will be together in the end,
Where the sea meets the shore,
And my heart will finally bend.
I just might love you, forevermore.




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For Paul.
The only man that could teach me how to love.

I've lived inside of clouds
And gazed through the
Kaleidoscope of life.

I've danced with the wolves
Engraved in my head
And held your shaking hand
All through the night.

I've watched you skip along
The line between the living
And the unknown.

I've propped you up
Against the angry winds
And walked you home.

I've killed brain cells
To try and delete the memories
Erase my mind.

I've smoked up my lungs
And prayed for cancer
To eat me alive.

It's all about image
All about how tough I look
But I know I'm dying
Just like you.

And truth be told,
I kind of enjoy that
You're dying
On the inside too.

Let's get drunk,
And fall in love.

(Possibly in that order)

The diamond girl's been ringin' all night
The world's strongest stone is cutting
Through flesh straight to snow white
Bone
Severed by a telephone line wrapped
Around my tissue wrist, disintegrating
In the sin of September, jailed for slicing
Alone

Wires criss-cross over my blackened eyes
Seven inches of glass can't seal out these
Broken screams that stab under my nails
Nightmares
The pills that slide down my throat swell
Inside my head, I've finally found insanity
Peace is internal, the chaos has always been
Out there

So hold me tight, shadow projection
Dig the hole with a needle, sedate me
Silence the terror and break in these sheets
Haunted
Cut, cut out those memories sunken
Into the depths of my subconscious
Pretend I was never the child no one
Wanted

The sweet crimson dances along
Every crevice full, every beige tile
Ruined, splattered, crying red beauty
Below
The splits in my ends pull apart
A half-hair strand dangles in the starlight
I wonder if I will ever catch up to the
Slow

I beg my flushed skin to rot right off
Pray my honey brown eyes grow mold
Hope and wish and dream for
Destruction
I can no longer breathe stale air
Or hide the scent of my own blood
No longer will I live under another's
Instruction

In the land of the forgotten