I watch my hands
Destroying that mirror
And I finally understand
That I am a killer

Not only is the mirror breaking
But I am too
And I know that I am hating
The one staring back through

Nobody can hate me
As much as I do
Now you can see
What has been hidden from you

People say they love me
But they love the fact that they aren't alone
Would they live on in glee
If all that was left of me was my bones

I know I have nobody
And I guess I don't care
I've never lived comfortably
Only in despair

So this is the end
Of this mirror of mine
No more time to pretend
This is the end of my line

I am going mad
But don't you dare feel sad
I don't want your pity
This isn't a "feel better committee"

I laugh at everything
And all I hear is ringing
ringing ringing ringing
Of the doorbell in my mind
Someone must be trying to get inside!

Not once have I let someone in
Do you think it could be an assassin?
Maybe this person is trying to make me sane
Well their efforts are obviously in vain

Once you are gone you can never come back
Peace of mind is what I am lacking
lacking lacking lacking
All the friends I could of had
They're not like me, they are not mad

My blue eyes once held the sky
But now it only holds the sea
Tears raining down from the heavens
Crashing onto the world like waves

But it hasn't rained in years
Because I'm lost in a sea of emotions
And I'm so out of control that
I can't feel anything anymore

My cataracts hide my emotions like clouds
Because my eyes were once the sky
And they can't get over the fact that they aren't the sky anymore
So they're stuck on the horizon

Never being the sky
Never being the sea
Forever in between
My blue eyes

Just like a chalk board wipes away words
I wipe emotion off my face
So nobody can ever tell
I felt anything in the first place

Feelings are a mess
And that is okay I guess
Because I am too

The color pink
Is more than it seems
Some find it pretty
Others think of piggies

I think of what it once was
Before it was on a canvas
It was the color red
The color of bloodshed

From pink to red
Only seeing dread
From being innocent to sinful
And never being wishful

I'll paint with the color of blood
And all your emotions will flood
You'll be scared and scarred
Until everything goes dark

You've never seen one die
At least not with a smile and closed eyes
With blood on their hands
And the whole thing planned

You're trying to think of how
I could possibly be dead now
It's a pretty easy answer though
The pink is gone so the red will flow

I love you the best
So much more than the rest
I can't believe this love
Is more beautiful than a dove
But when I look at your face
All I see is wonder and grace
You hold my heart above your head
Until everything else I "love" is dead

I wonder
About that number
During the summer

The twenty first day
When the sky isn't grey
And the sun will be on display

To those who wish to look upon it
They all have to admit
That nobody really is a misfit

Because like the planets and stars
We all have been carved
And in our own way marked

Everyone is unique
So you should not feel the need
To rudely critique

Those who are different
Have their own talent
And are not transparent

Even with my iron grip
You seem to always slip
Through my fingertips

If I still held on
Maybe you wouldn't be gone
So we could look at the fauns

They're so strange
But they shouldn't change
Because life is like a train

It keeps moving
Sometimes it can be confusing
You don't know the path it's choosing

And that's alright
Because you're by my side
And in each other we can confide

But those were the old days
When life was a daze
And we sent each other a loving gaze

Now when I see you
It's like being in an interview
'Cause I can only say certain things- like ordering off a menu

I still love you, friend
I have no more words towards you to send
So I guess this relationship will, like always, end

My love was an oasis
Her love was a desert
And I became hidden
In her never ending ego
Until she told told me no
That I needed to go

But I was lost
I wanted her friendship
But at what cost

My watery eyes
Her sand paper skin
Scratching away at me
Forever buried in the heat
The sun glaring down on me
Until I evaporated

As I stay up at night
I think about the pain
And wonder how the light
Can shine through the rain

It's so hard to see through it
I just can't find a way out
Through this rain that just won't quit
There is no point to try to shout

Because nobody will hear
Nobody will listen
There is nobody near
Except my tears that glisten

So I go on everyday
With that smile that is not real
I wish I could just fade
So there will be nothing left to feel

Black sky
Bright lights
It's all I see at the moment
The time when everything I love dies
Is still not the time I will cry

To see those lights fade away
And to see that nobody stays
Is so painful and all too wonderful to know that I was right
Because now I know why I will cry
The reason is that they all lied

So now that I know what is true
I will go on without you
I've been hurt so many times in my life
So the hurt I feel is nothing now
It is just like how you will soon turn out

Colors are seasons
Seasons are people because
They will always change

Give me a break
Before I make a mistake
It will ruin your world
Which I somehow am a part of
Sing me a song
Before my last breath is gone
I don't want to be alone
It's such a frightening feeling
We will all fade
And today is my day

I've memorized your footsteps
Just like I've memorized the cob webs
You know, the ones forming in my heart
They're spreading through my body
Won't be long until they consume me
I have lost hope of becoming free
What's the point of living if we will all die
"Being happy is what matters" they say
How am I supposed to stay happily awake
When I can't even get a break