dancing with the devil

sometimes ignoring you is the only thing that will get your attention

i want you to hear the words

i love you

without someone ripping your heart out

"i miss you so much that sometimes i forget my favorite color until i see a picture of your eyes"

When i sit in church
Every inch of hair stands on my body
Chills run through all my flesh

It's the demons killing me from the inside

I'm the
knife that broke
your skin

"I used to be the person
who took pictures of
beautiful sunsets but
now all I see are dark clouds"

for three months, i counted the days i would see you again. i spent every moment figuring out what i wanted and after three months, it was finally you again. i sat each day and just thought and wondered how it could have been different. three months i have been emotionally alone. and now after three months, you're back. and now I've lost interest because you have shown none. this time it is going to **** when you leave and to be honest;

i don't think i ever regained myself from the last time.

my heart
seems to stop
when i notice your
smile
for a second
i've lost my chance
to breathe
i'm drowning
in your
eyes
and i can't
think of a better
way to
die

i love how your fingers fit perfectly between mine