How many times did you **** yourself
How many times did you let yourself die  
Did you bury it all deep just trying to get by

Serpent Goddess
Wild and free
Wants you to be all you can be
Achieve all you can dream
Not just be the icing be the cream
Cutting away the crumbs you have let yourself eat
Though knowing those crumbs have at times been your main meal
Setting a match to which you have deemed real
A light shone onto your illusions ideal
The burn can scorch and it may hurt as you feel
These pains are gains so you can heal
The rope has been burning for some time
The serpent love kindles to climb

If I were
to
love you
Would you
love me
For
an
eternity

But how will I know when it is real
When you and I
Are the only
one
We
long
to  
feel

Always looking to myself as worthless
Struggle to feel deserving
Couldn't look to the good
I was swerving
Weakness became my strength
Shrinking from the light
Hidden comfort in the dark
Feeding on fearful appetite
Worried to not get it right
Now I fail all the time
I try at least to fight
for the step into peace
and the calm in my mind

Pushing
Onto
The fragments
Of your
Soul

Although crazy and wild
I sometimes feel
My dreams are more real
than my waking world

Sometimes along the way
There are people who have beautiful hearts and words to say
They keep a little hope for you
Lighten dark days too
They are the few that will never leave
Etch memories
into your
heart

Roots
connected
in
the
earth
Branches want to touch
For now all they can do is
reach
out
Keep
stretching
and growing
to
meet
with love

**** Conformity!

Or should you be making love to it?

The beginning

Darling I think you're nice
Underlying sweetness that makes you a treat
Not too much, but right for me

How do we live without making mistakes
Can we?

Seek and you shall find
A lot more to right X write

To feel the sunlight on my skin
To know the love deep within
To see the wonder in your eyes
To have the truth and shatter lies
To have my worth in worthless times
To feel them back in bitter climbs
To touch the beauty between the thighs
Hand in hand
Soul with mine

In each eye you look into
If you can not see you and your love staring back
It's not outwards you should be seeking

I want what will never be mine
I want pollutes the mind
I want makes my heart break
I want all that I can take
I want to live with soulless cries
I want give nothing before I die
I want to receive all for me

Now I know why that cannot be

Song sings the shoreline
Waters rhythmic ride
Verses set the tone
Wave length far and wide
Chorus Crashing Crescendo
Flowing in Full Stride
Taking journey onwards
Ripples repeat lap and glide
Ballad gather tempo
Reaching  Dynamic
Panoramic
High

Magic came
from the seeds
that grew from mud and dirt
Magic came from
humble beginnings
vulnerability
dark layering
girth
Magic came from the power to grow
and give
birth
Magic cast its spell in motion to be the potion of skies
insert
Nature's sun
flower
on
lands
green earth

I can not let go of you
Cause you are always in my heart

Kissing wherever you like
Tantalizing taste to spike
Leaving a trace of me
inside
you

Crop
from the top
Cultivating down
In from the cold air
Spiraling around
to ground
Roots to
Mothers earth
Winters wreath to Springs rebirth

Hear the siren of screams from outside
It's the same every Saturday night
Take me back to the countryside

Drum beats
Soft touch
Delicate strokes
Face tingles
Follow
the
feel
the
sound
the
drift
the
a
b
o
u
n
d

If it's a journey
of the heart
It will delve into
the deepest darkest
parts of your
being

Head on the pillow
Ready to rest
Awake in the dark
Open eyes
Lad perched sitting on my bed
Cap on his head
Casual dress
I shout
Shock!
Put covers over head
Scared to look back out
Though I know not be seen right away again
Torch on
As I'm writing this

Guardian of the night
Wings of black
Hang
upside
down
Clearly
feel

ground

Senses
acute
Fly           where     you           dare
Out of the cave
Womb of bat's lair
Fears grown from dark hollows

Tucked further away
Know
thy
direction
Dark night
Fluttered dance
Embrace lights decay
Gothic romance scything new day

Agitation hits hard today and it doesn't want to go away
I feel ill and can't sit still
Frustrated by myself
I don't even want to write
It's fading

out



of






sight

Too much pain in the world
It's time to heal
Not hurt another

I die for truth everytime
Yet perhaps in some other universe place and time
We were together and you were mine
Still
walking
journeys
line
Even
If not
side
by
side

Succumbing under sunlight
Perhaps in our warmth
We rest

Love me in my darkness
Love me in my light
When shadows tight surround me
In fear
In love
In fight
Take me with my visions
My crazy crass insight
Love me in the morning
Don't let go for the night

Morning
Noon to night
That's how much I think about you
All the time

With boney fingers point me out
Take a hold
Kiss my mouth
Make haste in final embrace
After life don't wake with pain hurt or hate
Lifeless to feel anything

Scratch
Scratch
Scratch
the
wound
Make
em bleed

They'll dry up soon

Too much time has gone past with pain and sorrow
Although I know it was what was needed in that moment
Im under no illusion they won't come round again and maybe even with harder truths
But for now and for future when I can walk with the day, I will
I'll wake up to more adventures
To enjoyment
To shake the comfort zone
To live more fully
This is my life and I don't want to go on feeling like I've already died
There has to be celebration
in the living times

I need a love that's deep
I want to feel you inside me

Grow me a garden of fruit ripe and sweet
Plant me the flowers for the whole world to see
Branch up the trees for expansion to breathe
Unearth me a plot for the wounds left to heal
Sacred place of wisdom for silence or deeply feel
Tend to the bed to nurture from the soil
Let's be at peace in nature
in hearts
mind
and
soul
❤

May all friends and family live in peace love harmony health & tranquility
May the world live in peace love harmony health & tranquility
May the universe be at peace in love in harmony in health & tranquility
Thankyou God for your blessings
Amen
Namaste

Eternally
grateful to you
You are a friend
A confidant
Source of great insight
A warmth and comfort in the cold dark night
Shining a light to see it through
For this
I wholeheartedly
Thank you!
<3

Your love can not be eradicating
Diminished or Devoid
Sometimes it may feel it can
But it is always in your heart
It lives in you
For you
That cannot be taken away
We just need to remove the fog that clouds with grey

My love for you is unconditional
Even through the pain
I'm not sure love ever came from you to me
I'll have to move on
If this is not ment to be
I'll still love you all the same

I'm a ****
I'm a ******
I'm a matryr
I'm full of ****
I'm a burden
I'm an irritant
This is the person I live with
I don't feel like I'm living

As we sit here and ponder our existence
Thoughts race bout opportunities missed once
The now do we feel old or young
Future time will it all matter when we are done
We let the wounds air to heal
After the bandage has been ripped off and the soothing agent has been applied  
But how do we really feel now
When inside parts
are
slowly
beginning
to die

Been ill for few months now
Losing my energy small moments per day
I have asked God to take me away if I am to go soon
I today surrendered
Not before putting on my leopard print pants
Well I had to make some effort
I'm still here at this time

Like blossoms on a tree
Sometimes we drop off
Falling
to
the ground
The ground can be a stable place to show the beautiful patterns of nature
The colours as they fade or glow
As seasons change
The petals may wilt to grow

Queen of Power takes her Alter
She is Fair Seer of Truth in Weakness and power
Beyond the Earth's shade

There is no threat as she fear not death
From this Higher place

There is Beauty in All
This too she knows
Although some
buried
Deep
below

Conscious to core of World's pain
In Bold esteem she has Faith in Cobalt Reign
Universal Force of Truth Love and Unity
Where past ends

Future Shall Begin

Skies
to
Freedom  
Look
Within

They only ever saw him behind the stories they told themselves
So he preferred to stay hidden

Nature struggles under soil
The ground is broken
Cracked and hollow
Seems little hope for tomorrow
However in the dying all can be transformed
Just need to nurture what little buds lay in hollowed ground
What once was lost can be found
A garden is made for growth
And all will bloom when time and condition
is set and right for both

He laps her up like a kitty drinking it's milk

She does the same to him