Never felt I belong
Always feel the odd one out
Isolated not a part of
I try to but it's difficult to get through

Opening up to love means opening up to the possibility of abandonment and betrayal
I've realised I don't want to not try
Everything is a gamble
I just hurt so much sometimes my mind won't shut up
My body pains my heart aches my soul cries and the energy shakes
I've held myself over and over
Working through the feel
Understanding the reason from the experience that has been
Delving deeper into compassion and forgiveness
Bringing in the love I can
It starts inside and then it scales to others
I know we are all connected
I know love is the true source
I just drift off course and need redirecting
The compassion helps

My mother she didn't get back to me
Not seen her for two years now an anniversary of my birthday
Each year I see the gap of when we last met.

I want to trust and feel secure safe and loved but the wounds have spread into relationships

Cut right open I sometimes want to tear at them other times stitch them up
Does the stitching close them to the air
Does the opening cause more tear
Or does the stitching protect
Or does the opening open up to the fresh

Is love really true for me
I feel it but do I really know how to receive

At times blissful ecstatic
Other times scared erratic
I don't always know when I have it
I've loved so much from afar

He touches me with passions raw
In his arms I really soar
Body to body deep connect
Mind to spirit heaven sent
Kisses melt heart to heart
Lips do feel of emotions not spoken
Sensing the love in each and every moment
Eyes sometimes bashful when looked into old worlds broken to new worlds of beauties splendor
Wonders from cosmic sender
Delving into oceans vast
Riding the waves of ****** euphoric blast
Waters edge to touch the land
Shore to shore
Hand to hand
Intimate islands to discover as we venture
more and more
into
one another

My flower
has grown from seeds of doubt
buried in the
deep
My flower has grown through mud and sorrow planted for safe keep
My flower has grown through rain and storm and echoed from below
My flower has merged to the other side to see the seeds bloom and grow
My flower basks in summer skies and sways strongly in the breeze
My flower is beautiful in every sense in its glory and it's delicacy
My flower is a picture of love of hope of courage and of truth
I'm not sorry to say my love this flower
reminds me of you
💕
🌸

Your eyes to me they bring delight you see
They bring the smile that I brightly feel
Your smile it is so beautifully warming and that makes me smile even more
Your dimples so cute I love to see you in your happy glory
That is the part of the story
I do adore
The colour in your eyes they bring a sense of home
There is comfort and depth and a heartwarming beautiful soul
I love you
Just want you to know

If you are low
I want to help you
I want to help you grow
Help with each feeling you sit with
Be there as a friend and confident
Pick you up if need be
It's ok
Cause I know the balance
And you do that for me