i keep telling myself that i won't be there for you anymore
that it's tiring to love someone like you
but after a month,
you asked me how i was doing
and just like that
i was beside you again

*~KDCB

Sabi nila, lahat ay nangyayari sa tamang panahon,
Ngunit hindi ko na maalala ang huling beses na sumang ayon ang tadhana sa akin
Minsan nag dududa na ako kung may tamang panahon pa nga ba
Ilang sakit pa ba ang kailangan tiisin bago matamasan iyon?

Nung nakilala kita, akala ko tama na, akala ko ayun na
Akala ko ang tamang panahon ay naririto na
Ngunit hindi parin pala
Sa puso mo'y may nagmamay-ari na pala

Wala akong ibang magawa kundi ang palayain ka
Hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin maintindihan
Kung bakit pinag tatagpo ang dalawang pusong pipigilan din naman
Ito na ata ang pinaka masakit sa lahat, ang pigilan ang nararamdaman

Ilang paalam pa ba?
Ilang pag papa-raya pa?
Ilang pag titiis pa upang magawa lamang ang tama?
Ilang luha pa ang kailangan pumatak sa aking mata?

Kailan kaya maranasan at maramdaman ang saya
Yung saya na nananatili hanggang sa pag gising mo kinabukasan
Hindi ko alam kung kelan ang huli
Huling beses na masasaktan ako bago ko maranasan maging masaya

Nothing hurts more than knowing that i have to let go of someone i've waited for
Today i realized that saying good bye does not always mean 'i don't love you anymore'
Because when i said good bye to you, i meant 'i love you so much'


This will be the last time i'll have to let you go
The last time i will not be beside you
The last time i won't be holding your hand
And the last time i will be unfair to you

I'll be missing our late night talks at the back of the church
I'll be missing your touch
I'll be missing your corny jokes that make me want to roll my eyes all the time
And i will be missing you

One day, we will see why this had to happen
One day, i will be beside you again
One day, all this waiting will be worth it
One day, it will be us against the world

You will be here in my heart
I hope and pray that i'll stay in yours
Please wait for me
And i promise this will be that last time i'll have to let you go


*~KDCB

Ang hirap simulan
Hindi ko alam paano uumpisahan,
Sisimulan ko sa hindi pag pansin,
Sisimulan ko nalang sa pag kukunwari

Kaya ko
Kaya kong mawala ka sa isip ko
Kaya kong mabura ka sa buhay ko na parang walang nangyari
Kunwari kaya ko

Masaya ako na kaibigan kita
Na kaibigan lang kita
Masaya ako na kasama kita
Kahit alam kong may mahal ka ng iba

Sisimulan ko sa hindi pag pansin
Sisimulan ko nalang sa pag kukunwari
Kunwari di ko napapansin ang pangungulila mo sakanya
Kunwari hindi ako nasasaktan

Kunwari hindi ko nalang nakita,
Kunwari wala tayong pagkaka intindihan,
Kunwari hindi mo sinabing gusto mo ako,
At kunwari, hindi ako nasasaktan

Eto na ako at kinakaya ko
Lahat ng sakit at pait na natatamasan
Mawawala rin sa aking damdamin at isipan
Wag mo akong kaawaan

Dahil hindi ka naawa sa akin nung ipinakita mo sa lahat kung gaano kayo kasaya
Hindi mo inisip ang mararamdaman ko sa katarantaduhan **** ginawa
Wala kang pakielam nung nalasing ako at ikaw ang hinanap ko at kulang nalang isuka ko ang pagmamahal mo noong gabing iyon

Hindi mo ako minahal
Paulit ulit ko yang sinasabi sa sarili
At tila paulit ulit din akong sinasaksak
Ngunit kada bigkas ko ng mga katagang iyon, ay unti unting namanhid ang puso

Sisimulan ko sa pag kukunwari
Kunwari hindi ko nalang nakita
Kunwari hindi ako nasasaktan
Pero tangina hindi ko alam hanggang kailan

and when I leave,
just don't forget..
you asked for this

*~KDCB

it saddens me
knowing that we had something
but when people ask about us
i know you'd deny it
and say "that was nothing"
because people know about the two of you
and no one knows about us

*~KDCB

Why do I love you?
Why do I miss you?
Why are you on my mind at 3am?
Why do I feel so much for you?

I cant be like this, you see
I cant like you and insist that you do too
I cant write about you and waste my ink on something uncertain
I cant continue to feel this way because it's destroying me

But please, this will be the last time,
The last time I'll write about you
The last time I'd be awake at the thought of you
Just one last time

I  wish you're here beside me
I wish you could just see right through me
I wish you could just stop this
I wish you'd stop me from making me feel this way

How can you be on my mind when I'm not on yours
How can you be in my heart and not be in yours?
How can someone like me love someone like you
How am I able to write poetry for you and not able to receive a single sentence back?

It's hard to be in this position
It's hard to show how much I like you since you're blind to the idea of you and I
It's hard to love someone who can’t see you

So finally, one last time
I ask you to make it easier for me
one last time, i wish you were here
one last time

Ala-ala sa ating nakaraan
Ngiting hindi makakalimutan
Tanging ikaw lamang
Ngunit nawala na

Paalam sa ating ala-ala
Tila nag bago ang lahat
Sana masaya ka na sa piling niya
Paalam, paalam, paalam

Pinaiyak, hindi napaiyak
Sinaktan, hindi nasaktan
Pinaasa, hindi napaasa
Naiwan? Baka iniwan

Hindi maaring sabihing napaasa mo kung
Ni minsan hindi mo ginustong saluhin
Hindi tamang sabihin na naiwan mo siya
Dahil hindi niya ginusto sumama sa landas na alam **** ayaw niya
Hindi katanggap tanggap ang sabihin **** "pasensya at nasaktan kita" habang wala siya sa isip mo nung mga panahong nagsasaya ka sa mga bagay na ika-lulungkot niya
Hindi tama

Mali
May pagkakaiba sa dalawa
Hindi ito isang aksidente
Sinadya mo, ginusto mo

Ngayon
Sinanay niya ang sarili na wala ka
Pinili niyang maging masaya ng hindi ka kasama
Ngunit wala kang magawa, hindi mo sinasadya, diba?

im waiting to be saved by someone
who wont even hold a sword for me

*~KDCB

Oh eto nanaman tayo sa magulong bugso ng damdamin
Maghihintay nanaman tayo ng pagkakataon
Para masabi ang nararamdaman
Nalilito kung ano ang sasabihin sa'yo

Meron pa bang natitirang awa sa'yo?
Sana ay pakinggan mo ang nararamdaman para sa'yo
Wag mo na sanang sirain pa ang puso kong ito
Umaasang mamahalin ako

Oh pasulyap sulyap nalang ba ang magagawa ko?
Sa t'wing ika'y ngumingiti, nahuhulog ang aking damdamin
Nalilito kung ano ang sasabihin ko sa'yo
Umaasang mamahalin ako

leaving you has to be the most painful
yet kindest thing i can do for myself
and im not ready to be alright
if it means i have to leave you behind

*~KDCB

you made good bye seem as if it was easy as saying hello.

*~KDCB

even if i think of you,
it doesn't mean you'll be thinking of me too

*~KDCB

it's sad that i have to say goodbye
even before i had the chance to say hello

*~KDCB

and just like that
i wasn't there for you anymore...

*~KDCB

admit it darling,
sometimes you tell him to stop calling
but when your phone lights up,
you still wish it's him

~KDCB

I know I've prepared for this moment
this moment when i see you with her
But **** it
It doesn't hurt any less

i still hide you in my poetry

~KDCB

Love him the way I will if we had it the other way around
Please don’t make him regret choosing you over me.

ikaw yung paalam na hindi ko maiwan iwan

*~KDCB

so what should i do
when the person who's slowly killing me
is the one who's also keeping me alive

*anong gagawin ko
kung ang unti-unting pumapatay sa'kin
ay siya ring nag papanatili saking buhay

for years, we've been on the same page,
i missed you and you missed me
i wanted to talk to you, and you did too
and now i'm scared
because i think i'm getting over you,
is it selfish for me to wish,
to wish that you're not feeling the same way
to wish that you're not getting over me
to wish that you regret leaving me

*~KDCB