Fly back to me
Straight path to my arms

Check my arrivals
You know just where to start

Glace over my flight plan
See just where you are

Land on my runway
Climb right on board

Buckle in my dear
I'll take you anywhere you want

I promise a smooth ride
A destination in my heart

I'm fighting a constant heartache,
a virus I cant shake
there is a sickness is me
there is a sickness is me
                    a way of thinking
                    a bad way of living
Sorry that I look to you for help
but these hands shake
and they ache for you
boy they do

I never knew a cure that looked so cute
your bringing out this sickness in me
I call your name in and out of sleep
you think that i would ever be annoyed by you?
i must be more subtle than I thought
you are
a song
my friend, where I belong
swallow your fear
pour your doubts into me
ill sing you to sleep

Remember that day
My tires blew out on my new car?
That ******* truck ran me into the curb
My boyfriend was out of town
So I called you crying
I need a ride
I'm so sorry

Always it's no problem
and
I'll be there soon
You were my savoir that day
you hugged me
I went on about my beautiful new car
interrupting you told me the car doesn't matter at all

just me.

Any good friend would of done
said the same
but with you
its always the little ****** things.
that break my heart

Bubbling this energy inside of me
Sometimes I feel so light and I see
Everything good there is to me

Bubbling this anger inside of me
Sometime I feel so ****** heavy
Why can’t I just do anything?

Bubbling these words inside of me
Sometimes I say things I don’t mean
And then I never know what you really see

Bubbling this hope inside of me
Sometimes I just feel so silly
Maybe it’s all working out and I just can’t see

*******!
just your ******* name on a screen tears me to shreds
and it means nothing
and it consumes me
because I'm not allowed to tell you any of this.

****
I want everything from you
I cant be your ******* friend.
because every smile is a splinter
and your killing me
and your killing him.
so pointless
so futile
and it never ******* ends.

And do you know
That every word you have ever
Spoken to me, that I can remember every one

And do you know
That every glance we have shared
Is etched in to my memory

And do you know
That every touch, every nudge
Still lingers on my skin, I can cite each one

And do you know
That every day I wish for you
I recollect a time where It came so close to being true

witty banter
pointless flirting
long looks
racing hearts
guilty minds

does sharing these little small things
if I stitch them all together, the glaces and smiles
can it make the sum of it all
equal more than what it is

the shows we have watched
the eyes you make at me
does it make us a little more than friends?

I tell you everything
what my mother said today
and about the cat I saw on the wall
the boy I once loved
every funny story
that comes to mind.

I tell you everything
so I don't tell you whats really on my mind

In my newsfeed
you still
continue to haunt me

statuses that beg
for my comments

pictures that make
my heart drop
and messages
that leave me breathless

oh how much easier my life
would be if I was just
able to click 'block'

you make me shy
and nervous
I edit myself so much
I try to give you the best me
but you make me feel so raw

you seem so wise
maybe just quiet
I spew all my thoughts
please tell me how you move with such grace
every action has such forethought


I want to take you apart to see how it all works
to see you come undone
trip up and stumble on your own words
so bring all that resolve and poise
it will make it so much sweeter
when you are falling at my knees

-Katherine Baldwin-

footsteps
in the right direction

side-stepping my own hearts
misconceptions

I know that I sounded
so put together
when we said goodbye

you always hug me
but you can never quite
seem to meet my eyes

How much do you have to miss me before
you can't wait any longer to text

how many drinks do you need to have
Before you don't care if he gets upset.

Do you miss these hot humid streets
or do you miss walking them with me?

Like a child
I forget
the times you hurt me
high on the rush
wont this last
forever?

oh but those eyes I love
I have seen them turn cold
and your slight smile
has been hidden from me
I forget about your sting
the ache from not saying the right thing

Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

can you read in between the lines
you should know
what I'm really saying is:

I miss you
I miss seeing your face
god what a mess

I wanted your innocence
as ****** up as that seems
I wanted to peel back the veil
and show you all that love could be
I wanted to have you all to myself
crisp and new and clean

Light and fluffy
melts on the tip of my tongue
I worked for hours
and now you are mine alone

I squeezed the lemons
and wiped the egg whites
measured out the sugar
checked my list twice

I cleaned up the kitchen
wiped flour off my nose
turned off the cooktop
and thought of eating you whole

I tried to write a poem
but all I can really say is
I miss you
please say you miss me to

sitting outside even though its 98
drinking *****, crunching ice
and sweating

all these people were my best friends
a few still are
but mostly...we are all so distant
every hang out is a catch up
we all still hold on
try to keep it the same
but we can never go back to those golden years
this group
we will never go back
to the camps and summer days
and driving 7 hours together with
nothing to worry about but sunscreen
how each one of ya'll were my second family
I knew your flaws and traits as well as my own
(I love all the people I've come along a long the way)
but I would give most everything
to fix what the years
have done to us

We were together
In a white hazy room
you said please

and I
I
kissed your
neck, ears
lastly as you closed your bright eyes
I covered your mouth with mine.

we will never be just friends
there will always be this soft spot
this tender flesh you left so bruised

my head will always turn at your name
and every time that song plays
it will cut me just as deep as the first time

I will be married
you will be miles away
I'll still be blushing at the way you looked at me

Sweetness to the point
Of delicacy
Hands on hips
While squeezing by

I don’t want to
Move an inch

Don’t need to
Move an inch

So touch me again
Ever so innocently
Beg me to tell you
Its you I need

For you I come to my knees
Sweetness you can have
All of me

Give me rides home
Oh, I don’t mind

For you I beg on my knees
I won’t mind.

Please when I call
do not hesitate
for every moment with out you
I am truly lost.