Please when I call
do not hesitate
for every moment with out you
I am truly lost.

I know you think your name
is oh so plain
but it tastes divine on my lips

There is a painting
called; In Bed The Kiss
Hanging in a private collection
by a famous french painter
Toulouse-Lautrec

My heart leap the first time I saw it
because there we were
I'm sure many lovers have pictured themselves in that painting
but the resemblance is to canny for me to dismiss it as anyone else
it can't be just coincidence
It's enough to make me believe in re-carnation
thrilling to know in a past life
you and I
were captured forever
in bed
kissing.

I say everything you want me to say
I trip head over feet to do it all your way

We were together
In a white hazy room
you said please

and I
I
kissed your
neck, ears
lastly as you closed your bright eyes
I covered your mouth with mine.

We
are slipping in to a rhythm
a natural flow

I know what you will say
and you know that I know

Come on over baby
It will be fine
just fine.

I promise, that if we have just one night together
I will forever let it go

How much do you have to miss me before
you can't wait any longer to text

how many drinks do you need to have
Before you don't care if he gets upset.

I can't send you a valentine
but I hope you know
that today
(like most days)
you are on my mind

I miss you
I really hope you find love
I know we will never be together
And I'm fine with that
but please be happy, that really is all I want

Once you find her
I'll be sick with jealousy
Of course
but I'll smile, and give you advice as always
oh and I'll hate her so much

but I'll get over it
                                                I'll get over you



                                                          ­                                                I hope.

I can never tell what your thinking
Or know what your going to say
I pray for your laughter
But run into bombs on the way
Never trust a man who's eyes can't stay the same.

Maybe I have to always be wanting something I can't have
If I'm happy with what I got
What is there to anguish about?

Shot after shot
I’m already down
How am I supposed to stand
When I can’t find steady ground
Heart break seems in my cards
So just let me down

Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

Can you feel them?
The thoughts in my head?
Some where between then and there.
I lost it.
That feeling of ease.
This tenseness is tearing me apart.
Do know my secrets?
Have you figured it out?
My feelings for you are
No longer just self doubt



And then I look into your eyes.
And I see.
You know. You’ve caught the glances.
Those looks that have lingered to long.
And I know.
That the lightness is gone,
In its place, is this terrible Apprehension.
This feeling I can’t comprehend.
These Long silences,
That stretch forever.
The words stifled by my unease.
Only broken by our parting.
I see the relief on your face,
Glad that the awkwardness is gone.
But that awkwardness is controlling my life.
My heart is lost in the quiet,
Till nothing is left,
But mere static of what we were.

Bubbling this energy inside of me
Sometimes I feel so light and I see
Everything good there is to me

Bubbling this anger inside of me
Sometime I feel so ****** heavy
Why can’t I just do anything?

Bubbling these words inside of me
Sometimes I say things I don’t mean
And then I never know what you really see

Bubbling this hope inside of me
Sometimes I just feel so silly
Maybe it’s all working out and I just can’t see

I tried to write a poem
but all I can really say is
I miss you
please say you miss me to

And do you know
That every word you have ever
Spoken to me, that I can remember every one

And do you know
That every glance we have shared
Is etched in to my memory

And do you know
That every touch, every nudge
Still lingers on my skin, I can cite each one

And do you know
That every day I wish for you
I recollect a time where It came so close to being true

right where
you stand is
always
not close enough for me

I love the way you hold my hand
and your bad jokes
I love when our matching noses touch
how you laugh when I say kitten

I love you in the morning
with your pretty sleepy eyes
I love you when you say
please give this show another try

-Katherine Baldwin-

does sharing these little small things
if I stitch them all together, the glaces and smiles
can it make the sum of it all
equal more than what it is

the shows we have watched
the eyes you make at me
does it make us a little more than friends?

If I told the story of what happened here
and you went next
people would think we were talking about two different events

I just wanted you to need me
and then I let that get so big that
I needed you so bad I lost it

I still crave you
even if that craving comes
with a good dose of hating myself

I know
you want to pretend like it never happened
and you jump if I get close

So what if we never were physically intimate
I have not ever in my life had eye contact
as intense as that

If you see me shake
as I walk towards you
just know
that it is not the cold

So when I hesitantly lay my hand on your shoulder
and pull back quickly
know that it is just the fear
that I will never will be able to let go

you make me shy
and nervous
I edit myself so much
I try to give you the best me
but you make me feel so raw

you seem so wise
maybe just quiet
I spew all my thoughts
please tell me how you move with such grace
every action has such forethought


I want to take you apart to see how it all works
to see you come undone
trip up and stumble on your own words
so bring all that resolve and poise
it will make it so much sweeter
when you are falling at my knees

-Katherine Baldwin-