How naive of I to think
everything would be fine

at least I had today

I'm still not sure of
what is happening all around me
The tables turn too fast

I don't know what you said
I don't know what you did
I don't know what you see
I don't know what happened

All I know is that things change
                                                                         too fast
Things keep happening
Things that keep slipping out of my

         *small fragile hands

How naive of I to think
everything would be fine

at least I had today

I'm still not sure of
what is happening all around me
The tables turn too fast

I don't know what you said
I don't know what you did
I don't know what you see
I don't know what happened

All I know is that things change
                                                                         too fast
Things keep happening
Things that keep slipping out of my

         *small fragile hands

Why do people only notice
when tears start to fall

Ain't it sad
how no one cares
during the point
where you are holding it all in

It's the part
where no one notices
that unlocks
the dam

To feel left out
abandoned
neglected

It *****
I know
I've been through it

The quiet one always
gets left behind
because she lets go too soon

I'm sorry
I was a tad too late
to stop those tears

I noticed too late
I was lost in something else
not worth
my attention

Im sorry
You had to cry
to get noticed

Im sorry
I realised too late
that watching you draw
made all the difference

*Im sorry

I'm holding water
Salty water
and
Its spilling out my hands

United we stand
divided we fall

I guess we're all falling
not together
but
at the same time

No matter how hard
you try to make things better
to cheer everyone on
solve issues
fake happiness

It doesn't work if I can
see through that
mask of smiles

To make someone else happy
you have to first
make yourself happy

because genuine happiness
warmth
and
love

can only be translated
and spread
If it comes from deep down
and
its
*real

I come to school
Each day motivated
To make someone's day

I set targets each night
To whom I want to
Help

Sometimes they succeed
But most times
I just fail
Miserably

Or it just becomes a feeble  attempt

People just do it so effortlessly
Like how

I stutter trying to say
Words I've spent time planing

I wait hours
Before I finally decide
To hug someone

HOW DO YOU DO THIS
HOW DO WORDS JUST COME OUT
SO
effortlessly

HOW DO HUGS COME OUT
SO
naturally

HOW DO FEELINGS GET
SO EASILY
*transferred

I guess I spilt today.

I have a tendency
to word *****

So now you know,
both of you
I don't know what you'll do

And I hope
you don't fall apart
like I did

I trust you.

I guess things just got
a tad too much
and
you made me realise it

Im sorry
I passed it on to you