You see the thing with anger
is that it spreads
like a rampant disease

From one person
to another
Infecting more people
as it passes on

You see,
you need someone
to stop that anger
and turn it
into something
else

You should not keep
that anger inside
Let go
forgive

turn it into something beautiful
for it spreads
into
wondrous things

instead of hatred
and
frustration

This is something
I learnt
from all my wicked
experiences with my old enemy
anger.

It is scheming
yet
love always outsmarts it

And so can you

Death.

I've pondered on that topic
countless times

and every time
I revisit it,
It brings new things

Since I was 6
I've always thought of the idea
of death
or people around me dying

What pains me the most
is after all these years
I realised
people go on with their dying
no matter what you do

I can't seem to be able to
cherish the time I have with the people
around me enough

Death scares me
a
lot

I mean,
Why do people come into your life,
make an impact
change you
make you love them,
then leave.

Just like that.

Why do people say goodbye
and leave you there
in all the pain and agony

What's even worse
is when they leave out of choice

It makes you think that you could
have done something
but no one did

and then there is blaming
and regret
and sadness
and bitterness
and
lots of crying

I've never experienced it
just witnessed it
and I keep fearing the day
I would be the one feeling
all these things
and
not just observing

Today I was feeling
grouchy
in the morning

Firstly,
I was in a rush
like I always am
nowadays

Then, someone told me something
and
it triggered
feelings

then someone else
said something
and it
triggered more feelings

As a human,
I have a need
to express these feelings

Thus,
they turned into sadness,
                              anger,
                              bitterness

Then it hit me
hard
on the cheek

the pain was searing,
waking me up
from my
reverie

All these events
aren't connected
but the feelings left behind
after each of them
built up an ugly side of me

I'm so hung up on studying
But
Nothing gets in

It's so painfully
Stressful

I don't even know
If I'm trying anymore

I'm losing it
Slowly
Too much work
Too little time

Or rather
I don't make use of it

I guess sometimes
Silence
Is good

Sometimes
Making someone feel better
Is just letting someone be

That kind of silence
Is
Peaceful

Just sitting there
Side by side
In silence

No hugs
No words
No nothing

Which is why
I wish people could
Understand
The importance of silence