in that moment
i felt everything shatter
i was yours
and you were mine
always

i don't know why there's still this pull
i'm content
and then
you come back
i know we wouldn't be happy together
or if i'm not actually happy where i'm at
but every day i'm drawn
everything is in question

tender but strong
a paradox
i have not yet mastered

i thought i wanted someone to calm my storm
until i realized calming me was useless
i'd fight until i was told this was too much
so i found someone that encouraged the tornado
they did not strike me down
they encouraged but redirected
i never needed my storm to be calm
i needed someone who loved the storm i am

the hopeless romantic
longs to be a muse
but what if
you're the muse of
heartbreak
pain
sorrow

you didn't give me what i wanted
you gave me what  i needed

simultaneously knowing how loved you are
but grasping to know why
you're still so lonely

euphoric
the chase to obtain
feels anything but