No one has ever made me feel the way that you do

I face every fear
That's come from my past
You make me believe
That my pain will not last

You don't start to judge me
After stories I tell
You see past my mistakes
And wrong words that I spill

Your eyes see right through me
Your analytical mind
Shows more of me
Than I could ever find

Comfortable laughter fills the air
Your eyes squint as you smile
I think I'd like to stay here
If only for a while

*jm

Oh, how I'll miss their smiles, and
Their pattering feet as they'd come to greet me the minute I'd walk through the door.

Their love so pure, and
Their hearts so full.
Their innocent,
But naturally smart-alecky comebacks to statements like,
"It's time to come inside,"
"We should wait patiently in line,"
"It's time to take a nap,"
"Let's give him a turn first, and yours will come next,"
will always put a smile on my face.

The love for them, and
The joy they'd bring to my heart
From innocent
And naturally earnest words to me like,
"Your earrings are pretty today,"
"When it's naptime, you're going to hold my hand until I fall asleep,"
"You should sit by me for snack time,"
"I love you, Miss Julia."

Though I'll never see these children again,
I hope, through the years, they'll remember me
The way I will them.
I will cherish each one of them, and
Every memory they've given me
Until the end of time.
*jm

I open my tired eyes
And you fade away
As I rise to start
Another day.
*jm

Released balloons fly freely with the breeze.

As they glide peacefully above,
we are reminded of your love.

Until we meet again,
we'll keep you in mind until the end.

We repeatedly listen to your songs
and wonder if you're up there singing along.

As we watch the balloons rise,
getting carried by the wind,

We know you are flying joyously with Him.
*jm

the crescent moon
sends casting lights
upon insomniatic eyes
bodies shadows dance
upon dampening grass
as bare feet beat
and leave their marks
upon the soft earth
with souls brought to life
under the gleaming sun kissed moon
in the spirit of that summer night

I wish I were a cloud
Whisping freely away
With no intent to stay
Leaving as I please
Pacing with the breeze
*jm

As slowly as the waters waves grasp for land,
Is my heart yearning to return again.
As quickly as the rush of wind sets waves in motion,
Is my mind set back on letting go.
*jm

Living through heartbreaks
From losing one after another.
Years of tears form in her eyes
After hearing the news another time.
"We lost it,"
The words echo as fresh tears fall.
It's all too familiar for them,
Losing a child inside once again.

Praying to God,
Begging on their knees
To "Please, please let one live.
Bless us with a child
And we'll never ask for anything ever again."

Another visit to the specialist
Going through the same routine,
Never losing hope that He would answer their plea.

Months pass with no bad news
And hope starts to grow.
The date has arrived and her husband takes her hand.
Grateful tears flowing from their eyes
As they hold on to Hope and
Thank God for blessing them so.
*jm

"A star in the heavens has been named for you,"
That thick paper had read.
Excitement and gratitude burst from inside as your deep blue eyes beamed brightly back at me.

This wasn't just another gift.
The realization that we had something that would be ours until the end of time
Hit me like a million fallen stars.

Now all that hits me
Is the understanding that the star is ours and still burning out there,
But we are not. We are nothing.

Now every time the stars fall,
I'll think of you.
*jm

So used to dreading
Having to sleep alone.
Got used to depending
On you coming back home.
Never forgetting the nights
Held near.
Always reminding myself
That you aren't here.
When one departs
It breaks both apart.
Accepting the departure
Is what makes this life harder.
*jm

They're drowning in sorrows,
Hoping to see tomorrow,
Fighting for freedom
As we lie safely dreaming.
Our true heroes are the guardians
Of our country.
Standing for the people,
Standing by the people,
Living and dying
To protect, to defend
Our one nation
Under God.
*jm

I miss the long walks
When words were seldom spoken,
Or the nights spent lying in the yard, underneath the gleaming sky.
One smile from you was all it took to make
The stars shine brighter
And the trees stand taller-
You made everything beautiful.
To live without you here
Breaks more hearts than only mine.
*jm

Insomnia strikes me when the
Soft candlelight glows upon
pages-upon pages
Of the new book bought today.
Unable to set it back on the shelf above my head-above my bed.

Finding respite from worries of
days past and days to come, by escaping in this world imagined by
another-this brilliant creation.

Tonight, A Tree Grows In Brooklyn.
Who knows what tomorrow night holds?
These summer nights, spent in solitude underneath the dimming candlelight,
Are the nights I'll never grow tired of.
*jm

I'd do anything just to
Get away
Forget this place and
Run away
Chasing new memories as I search for
Better days
I can't move on if I can't get
Past today
To forgive and forget is
All I have left
*jm

To help me grow in my faith,
To remind me there's always a way,
These true friends God has blessed me with
Are the reason I'll continue to praise.
*jm

I see your face and it shows your grace to me
And there is no one, that I'd rather see
'Cause I've been waiting for you now
To show me how
We can fly together, through all time
You came from nowhere, you were so hard to find
You mean the world to me, leavin' all others behind
There is no one that can be
Like I am for you and you are for me.
And we can fly together, through all time
We're just beginning, to see what's right
Walk with me for always, heading towards the light
We've been waiting for this forever
To walk down life's road hand in hand together
And we can fly together, through all time
Yes, we will fly together, through all time.
*br

Swollen tongue,
And cuts all over.
If only she'd have known
That the epilepsy would take hold.
Dry throat
And an aching head.
She's been taking her meds just like they said.
Body worn down
As she's trying to stop her racing mind.
"Just sleep it off,
Maybe that was the last one this time."
Lacking understanding
Of why the drugs won't work.
Questioning everything
From when it happened to why it happened to her.
"Control the stress,
They'll become less consistent."
Maybe that would work
If she didn't feel like her faith was missing.
*jm

To be your shelter for your "stone cold heart"
Is what I wish to always be for you
Whether we're together or apart.

If I could wrap you in my arms
To thaw that frozen heart
I would be sure that nothing would cause you anymore harm.

When the days drag by and darkness consumes you through and through
I hope you look to the heavens
And feel the love He and I have for you.

No river too deep, no distance too far
As long as you promise to always remember:
We'll be with you wherever you are.
*jm

There's a hole in my chest where my heart used to be.
Nothing left but pain from the memories.
Never even knew
Always lied to
Never hearing you confess
Always finding out the rest
Never knowing what was best
Always saying, "Let it rest."
Never making new memories
Always hating because now we're enemies.
*jm

It's hard to enjoy every moment
When my mind's constantly looking ahead,
Ruining any chance of me fully appreciating the present ever again.

Time is a funny thing...
Always pushing us forward,
But leaving us wishing we could stand still and keep the present close.

Is there such thing as the present?
Or does every moment come and go?
Leaving us always in the future
Never allowing us to be in control?
*jm

I'm made of porcelain
And of glass.
Kick me once,
And watch
As my fragile body
Starts to crack.
Kick me twice,
And watch
As I fall and shatter to pieces.
But this porcelain doll
Won't be defeated.
Our true creator
Always pulls through,
Mending every one of His children
With healing hands and glue.
*jm

He makes me smile
By looking deep into my eyes.
He makes me laugh
More than anyone has in a long time.
He makes my heart race
When he shares his dreams with me.
He makes me realize
The world is much bigger than it seems.
He gives me hope
That things can change.
He sets a fire inside of me
I didn't realize was capable of being rekindled.
He makes me feel beautiful
When he looks at me shyly.
He doesn't realize
I have these thoughts in my mind. I may not ever voice these, because
He also makes me dread
The inevitable day we'll have to say goodbye.
*jm

Can't move on...
Can't let go...
Losing all sense of self respect and self control.
*jm

Sick of the illness
She learned of years ago,
Sick of the episodes
That never leave her alone,
Sick of the medication
That doesn't help a thing,
Sick of telling the doctor
She's fine with all of this,
Sick of trying to hide it
So very deep inside,
Sick of feeling tired
After every single time,
Sick of feeling hopeless
As she prays to God on high,
Sick of unanswered prayers
And not knowing if she's alright.
*jm