She is the warm fireplace that warms you up
After a long weary day of wandering in the snow

Her words are the cups of hot tea that gives you
That warm fuzzy feeling in your stomach
On a cold day

Her laughter is the sun rays that peers through the gray
on cloudy days,
Or a candle, that lights up a dark room

Her voice is the warmth of the cabin,
A sign of comfort, knowing that you are safe

Her embrace, is the soft, fluffy blanket that keeps you warm
That you wrap yourself in as you fall asleep
Or a warm winter coat, that shields you from the assaults of the wind

She is warmth, she is comfort, She is sunlight in the cold
She is the apricity in my cold, dark, soul

They shun me, they fear me,
They force me to be something I’m not
They force  me to be sunlight,
to dance with pure white clouds and the blue sky
Even though I dance with the moon and stars
I am darkness

Only the moon knows my pains and my secrets
Only the stars wink back with encouragement
in my sorrow laments

They say that I should be bright and happy
But to darkness I shall forever succumb
To darkness I shall find peace
With the dark of the night, I shall be
And with the winking stars and pale white moon
I shall dance

Although you may be in an inclement storm
The thunder shaking you
It’s gusts threatening to knock you down
Do not forget that after each storm
Comes a rainbow

Although you may be in an April Shower, or even an April storm
Remember that, even the sky smiles with sunlight after it sheds its tears
And the earth smiles with it, bringing greenery and life,
dotting the dirt with colorful flowers

Because in the end, April Showers bring May flowers
Things will get better and darkness is not forever

I have fought many battles, cried many tears
Surrendered and created new fears
I have fell, stumbled, and crawled
I have felt pain

But here is a new opportunity,
A new start to heal
A new sunrise
To follow so that I not only run, I fly

So farewell to those who drag me down
Farewell to those who inflict pain
I am going to a place
Where I won’t drown
In your toxic oceans

I will soar and fly although I may fall
And I won’t stop this fight, till I win it all

Laughing till our stomach hurts
But we are still unsure
Though our time is short together
In less than two years we'll be writing letters instead

You are that special someone
I lose my breath when I look at you, girl
Especially when your eyes seem to fly when you put wings on them
Our moments together are sweet but go by in a whirl
Why are you so afraid?
If you love me why don't you just say?

Our love may be forbidden
Although it has to be hidden
It can still be our little secret
So just say, that you love me back
if you love me back

Those jokes you make are so insane
I promise, I meant it in a good way
Your art skills never leave me unamazed

You have picked me up from my darkest times
You brought me back into the light
You have shown be the way
to be brave
and to put myself out there
without a care

I love you so much but I'm scared that if I say
That I love you our friendship might break
So please, tell me that you love me girl

And though people say that you are quite crazy
an odd one with her head stuck in daisies
to me you are that one special one

Grief, is a terrible thing
that pains the soul
Everyone has felt it as some point in there lives

But not everyone's cry is heard
Those who keep a strong face
Eyes dry of tears
Mouth silent of wails
Those who truly care
But do not know how to handle such darkness
and the storm that is said to bash the little bird

They have been told to be strong all their lives
As they were beaten
As they were dodging from objects aimed at them

Crying will just make it worse
All you have to do is just shut your mouth
and not make a sound
and you will only get one bruise
instead of two

And now their at the funeral
where their grandma's coffin is
Now their dad is beating them
to make them shed a tear

But after all they've been through
After building up the walls
And making all those masks
of being a perfect, straight, cis,
positive, sunshine girl
that their parents expect them to be
how could they destroy all their hard work?
Their art work of masks?
Of their walls?
Of all those shields they made?

They only cry when it is dark
and the whole world is silent
That is the only time that the gates are unlocked
And all they ask...is a crumb-of understanding

You are in a place full of strangers
a different world
than the one I live in
3 hours away somewhere out there
I hope your happy now

Though you probably are smiling
living without me
I know your thoughts don't contain me anymore
just don't forget me
and remember

We live under the same sky
We sleep under the same stars
We bask under the same sun
We dance under the same moonlight
and we still live in the same world

You are finally free and happy
I'm still here imagining
that you'll come back to me
At night I can hold you in my arms
You visit me in my dreams
But when I wake up your gone

Even though I know it's impossible
I'm still waiting for you to come back
and be here with me
But all I can do is remember you
and the memories you left me
I hope you remember me like this too