Missing someone
Is replaying all the moments from when you were together
From laughing about the days of childhood
To remembering his arms around you
at the train station, when you said your last goodbye
You replay it all, like a movie
wishing you could go back to those moments
wishing you could step into that movie
Having those old conversations in your head
Remembering when you told him about how you felt
His words of comfort echoing back
saying that he won't let you go that easily
You whisper that conversation, playing it back
pressing the rewind button, just to hear his voice and to remember that moment...the last moments with him
Missing someone
is reading through old texts and looking at old photos
while feeling the pain and having your heart long for him
while tears of emptiness fall down your cheeks and you think
"If he were here, he would tell me everything is all right."
But knowing that he would never come back
and that he is gone
Missing someone
is hearing a song you used to dance to
faintly hearing his voice singing along
and feeling his movement as he dances
or going to an old place, and remembering when you were there together, what you were talking about
laughing and never knowing how much you would miss him
And when you think that you are ok and that you have moved on
An old memory would slap you back
and your head will rewind that movie again
and bring back all that pain and your heart starts yearning for him again.
And the most painful part is,
that though your head says that he is gone forever,
you still imagine him being there with you as you sit alone in your room...and your heart still thinks that it has hope.
But it doesn't