he said to me:

your eyes,
blue and wide
curious and colored
sparkling with-
is that-         a bit of madness?

don't stare at me
you scare me
your bright sapphire eyes
and
dark raven pupils
tell them to stop peering into my soul            
i have secrets i wish to keep...

so he said to me.

i kinda feel like an alien among men
i don't know why
maybe it's my intense gaze
or the way i need to feel everything
or the way i love to change
or my restless spirit...
        I don't want to be stagnant
        like some muddy river water, stuck forever
        dammed up so i'll never escape
(in other words ******)
why do humans so champion settling down?

i was told
in prime of youth
fear need only be feared
in the presence of two:
Pain
         and
                 Death
As I grow
I've come to know
Pain
        is temporary
and Death
                   is only a friend
                  come to take me home

you're the kind of girl
who writes beauty personified
...
but is never written about

and i realized myself in that moment

the stars seem to whisper your name tonight
every night the wind reminds me of your touch
the dark dances with me,
just a shadow of you
Morning come
Your phantom has left me
You fall like dust through my fingers
and you are lost till sun sets-
when
once again
i walk with your ghost

No matter how i try
i cannot have

what has already left

someday
i hope
i can stand again
stand and say
i am enough

That girl
               you think you know
she's moody.
personality: kinda sappy
dark-
but she's still happy           (right?)
she's   r a n d o m   and crazy
           (she could give the demons of hell a run for their money)
But she's not That depressed or hazy
she's not sunken to darkness That low       (surely?)
But
         I tell you
                                  what the hell do you know?

i thought i knew you
i guess i never really did
...
can i ever hope

to get to know you again?

WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME WHEN YOU'RE ON FIRE
I CAN PUT IT OUT

We are those who must decide what our life is worth

Whether the finale of our story
is a cliff-side car crash
or
the drawn-out drive's final destination

I'd rather be authentic and rejected
than
false and accepted

I've been told to shut my mouth one too many times
I'm done being silent.
You didn't listen when I whispered
You had the chance to hear me talk
Now you Will hear me Scream

i gave you that part of myself which makes it impossible to let go
You will call
and i will come running

No matter the distance

nothing is as powerful
as a person
who has nothing left to lose

I’m not pure
It was simply a lure-
Making me think I’d found her
No.
I’m still alone
Laughing gods above my head
Still alone
Lover across my bed

No one sees my soul
I open
Only to be ****** away
I close
Only to be pounded by her emotion
I listen
But I cry in my sleep

I’m no longer pure
I thought it’d be the cure-
Making our love sweeter than before
No.
I’m still alone
Scolding parents around my door
Still alone
Pretty lover wanting more

We just were never meant to endure.