I fall for-
Dark haired angels with heads full of demons
Women-
That stab daggers in my chest to watch me bleed out
People-
With eyes as blue as the abyss of tears behind them
Anyone-
Who compliments the way I look when I smile
and will dance in the pouring rain with me
I fall for-
Those who see my body and want to beautifully ravage it
But see my mind and stand in awe

These are the people I desire

I am on fire
Well
My brain is at least
It hurts to think some days
Well
It’s often all of them
It’s burning me up
I feel feverish with it
Like some unholy ghost coming from furnace
twice burned:
Body and soul
It isn’t always bad
Sometimes it makes me wild and alive-
Unstoppable
Well
Except for the headaches and crash at the end

The truth is
I like being on fire
Even though it hurts
I just don’t like stepping out of the flames,
Realizing,
I have been burnt raw and ******

Crystals and sharp edges
Pencil lead and arson
Steel and death
Why are these things all tied together in my head?
Because association
And experience
Have played a game on my brain
And turned the wires all askew
Ribbons and assault rifles
The color orange and pill bottles
...
So many more

Lover,
Do you understand the way my heart desires you?
the way my soul longs for your touch-
Not the touch you give without thought
Or the kisses you do not seem to mind-
Those are but the surface of the endless desire
No, my love
the way I long for you is without parallel
I could spend my nights pining
Or spend verse after verse of exposition-
Like those poets of old-
But it would be no use
Lover,
I hope you understand,
I have tried to speak my mind,
You are all I want
And all I think of late at night
You are the stars and the rain
And every small, strong, beautiful, and rugged thing
...
I simply desire the intentional love you give me
Please, my dearest
Do not forget to love me with intention

i have waited my entire life to be kissed the way u kiss me
I have watched every movie about girl kissing lover in the rain
I’m so happy that you could be my lover in the rain
As we sit in my car
With music swooning
And the rain pouring down
My heart feels like flying
And I truly cannot remember anything but the way your mouth makes my body tremble with excitement
Do you know,
Every **** time you kiss me like that
It’s like it’s the first time
And I feel everything in the world come alive
Suddenly
It doesn’t matter what I drive off to
Because I am fuzzy with the butterflies in my brain and my stomach
The happy ones
Like what I saw in all the films
I can take on anything
If only to be with you forever.
And ****
When I look at you
you have never been so beautiful
you have never been so soft
And god, I have never been so in love

I used to dream of being kissed in the rain
But I did not imagine
It would be as wonderful as this
Spinning in darkness
Frosted streetlights reflected in emerging puddles
Freezing cold head and blue lips
but warm all over the places their hands touch
The happiness that blooms in my chest
Is the flower watered by the rain
And the result of many small kisses
Dripping down my face
Glasses spotted
Teeth chattering
But all I can do is smile
And laugh through the cold
I am in love
I am in love with being with them
And their kisses in the rain

I listen to 1975 on repeat,
Because all I can do is think of u
All I can do is cry over ur kisses and
Scream that I miss you to the wind
I want to dance in the stars or
drink till I’m dead-
No In between-
I want to marry you
Or live abandoned in a forest till my bones dry into the dirt around my feet
If you will not stay
I, too, will have no good reason to exist
If I cannot have you
I want no one else ...
Just listening to 1975,
Thinking of all the ways I miss you
And all the ways I love you