To feel for sinew and find nothing but bone
Ancient energy buzzed amongst pillars of salt and light
Darkness weaving through sheer barriers of throbbing hearts
Creeping quietly upon delight and remorse
Depth attacking the shallow process
Subconscious suppression bursting into conscious thought
Gasping for air and wrecking floating boats
Sinking sinking
Forever
Into the subconscious hell
The untouched nightmare
Forever
Cursed to wander
Because they did not settle the fist fight-
between trauma and the future.

Has it set in yet?

The apathy

Once Drowning in these painful experiences.

Cringing at the bloodied bodies of heartless ventures dying  
Crying when your mother screams your name
Cracking beneath the pressure
...
Has your job finally overwhelmed your mortal reactions
Has your soul finally given way
Do you even hear the noises -

Or only the silence Now.

The apathy

Has it set in yet?

I did not know
Love was a competition or a fraud
Is love a symbol of hope after all
Or but a shadow
Carried by death
As a mark on my door for eternity

I don’t think my brain is working clearly

Failing is relative to most of the world
But right now
It feels pretty **** specific to me

I miss you my love
It’s odd
To get used to the rhythm of ones voice
And have it disappear completely
It reminds me
To always treasure my every -
Second
With you
For you are the woman I want to spend -
My life
Dancing with
To walk hand in hand
Through fire and water and everything we must face in this life
I miss you
But it’s a good reminder
...
I’ll buy u flowers the next time I see you

To fall for something lovely
is a dream come true
To fall for something deadly
Is to be a fool

In love we fall forever
Whether we chose
Or we are pushed

In motion
The heart remains
Towards the ground,
it’s path ordained  

Who will be there to catch you,
Before you hit the floor
And break every bone in your body,
Becoming ravaged rubble once more

To hold u is to live
Cherishing every second
And yet
Still desiring more
To the end I will love you
Never growing tired of you
And Always
Missing you when ur gone
To me you are beautiful
When you cannot see it
Still
I will remind you every day

You are that which softens my edges
And strengthens my soul -
Apart simply walking
...
With you
I am flying