I start to think about things sometimes. Whether we’re right for each other or not, Whether this will be a forever thing. At the end of the day it’t not our decision it’s what our hearts tell us.
Yeah..... I myself admit that I am easy to play with and not in a good way. I'm so disappointed and depressed I just don't say anything cause I don't like showing it I don't like the attention. I don't seek attention. I just want to be happy I might smile, laugh and **** but do you really believe that's how I feel. That's just my other face. No one seems to understand why I am the way I am. I just want to start all over again I want a second chance. Change who I am because honestly not even I know myself. I'm alone and afraid. Deep down I'm crying for help I want someone to care like ** *** ** did once or played with me and made me believe that he did love me with all his heart.
i knew you were that type of person to just walk away, when you felt like it. just like everyone else did, you thought it was going to hurt me. but the only thing you did was give me hope, of what could of been an us.
your hands between my thighs. i'm a little shy, but you don't seem to mind. you think it's cute when i get shy. i grab your hands as a sign letting you know it's ok you stopped and looked at me. smiled and said i love you. you kiss me and said "it's going to be alright".
when i meet you i thought to myself that you were the most amazing guy ever. you made me laugh you from the start. stood out from the rest of the guys. i didn't know you but when you hold my hand i got this feeling that i never felt before. i got so nervous i didn't know what to say i just smiled. my hand began to sweat i was so embarrassed but you liked how shy i was.
remember when we would just stare at the sunset for hours and you would always say something cheesy like "the view looks amazing". i would nod my head giving you a sign that i agreed with you. but then you explained yourself that you weren't talking about the sunset. i'd smile and the push you away. you then smile and told me you were serious, then pulled me and kissed me.
you were never good at stop signs. sometimes you wouldn't even care to stop, that is what you did when you walked out on me. i was never that person you loved or cared about, i was just another stop sign to you. you saw me but never cared to stop.
i told you that i was fine and that i was better off alone. but really i was just so hurt and couldn't stop thinking about you. i got used to be held in the night cuddling with you, how our future was going to turn out. i miss having that one person that would tell me "i love you" and make everything better. to be told that you cared about me. i guess you can say you're the one that got away and took everything.
You told me you loved me. you told me you were sorry. you told me i was the only one. you told me you were never going to hurt me. you told me that they were lies. you told me that you were going to make me happy. you told me you were always going to be there for me but where are you now...