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Jordan Resendes Oct 2019
Stuck inside a place of no return
Wishing I didn't want it all to burn (away)
Constantly searching for the words
Hiding from the self-inflicted opinion of the world
But the more I search, the less I have to say
And all I want is to fade away.

The feeling that there's no escape
That once you've sealed the book of your fate
Decisions made, and people paid
But none of it ever really changed.
Yet all of it will never be the same.
My old life, never seen again.

And even now I cry
No matter how I try
Looking at what I've become
No one else will see
The truth inside of me
Nothing left but feeling numb.

So right now what's left of me
Is this mess that you can't see
And the dark decrepit chills within my soul
The words they try to soother
But there's nothing left to move
I'm Immobilized beyond my control
It is what it is.
Jordan Resendes Oct 2019
Tomorrow
Lie the keys to
my success and all my sorrow
Try my best to save
So that I don't have to borrow
Incessant preparing
Daring for
Tomorrow

Tomorrow
Such a sense
of hope and expectation
Forgetting that today
is a way for celebration
A lifetime of waiting
Spectating
Tomorrow

Tomorrow
I'm a horse
And out of reach you are my carrot
Endless cycles
I can hardly stand to bear it
Chasing endlsessly
Too far to see
Tomorrow
Most likely going to turn this into a song, but for now merely the words stand out to me.
Jordan Resendes Oct 2019
It was a beautiful day. Some might say 'perfect'. Others would disagree, as they always tend to do. I say 'WAS a beautiful day' because as these words are read, the moments they describe have long passed. Not only that, as I experience these moments they immediately become the past, since the present moment is partly an illusion, partly our liberation. The only moment most people are ever able to experience in our dimension/universe is the present. Yet the very structure of time becomes the ideology that binds us most: segmenting and amalgamating to create a false perspective of continuity, but more detrimentally to us, of finality. Reggie Watts once sang that:

"We're only living in the memories of our future selves and its funny to think like we're here right now, but we never really are 'cuz we're somewhere in the future controlling the options, giving lots of hints to ourselves in order for us to understand that choice is still important in a world where we gotta figure some stuff out: yea".

That's a pretty consuming thought, but most don't even have the self-awareness to figure out the most basic concepts so hopefully, this alleged shift in consciousness better brings some swift wisdom to those it can and solace for those it can't. How did such dark thoughts come from such a beautifully perfect day? Because beauty is pain and nothing is perfect in life except perhaps life itself in/or the multiverse we inhabit (potentially). Always full of ups and downs like waves... of sound... of light... of energy... aka EVERYTHING! That's enough pseudo-philosophy for now. Take comfort in life's uncomfortableness.
- Grange Park, Toronto
Jordan Resendes Oct 2019
Right when I lost hope,
All the things came together.
Extra jazzy life!
A Haiku
Jordan Resendes Apr 2017
One night on the web,
Reading unsuspectingly,
You found a haiku.
Jordan Resendes Apr 2017
Like a plastic bag,
Stuck on a branch, full of life,
Waiting for release.
Jordan Resendes Apr 2017
I have very complex thoughts
Some which I wish I could
Transcribe and manifest into the world.

But why? When language is so phishy and fickle. This is not the Chrysalids although I wish it were
So that I could express the
Duress of my thought shapes.

Steinbeck was onto something, I believe.
A more connected more
Outlandish, unifying ancient
Form of being present in the future.
Engaging and increasing the
Proficiency at communicating.

Perhaps one day we will be
Inundated from senses we
Had forgotten or done away with.

For now, these words must but
Never will suffice. Seems egotistical
Almost, to make me feel nice.
Clearer view. On our way.
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