You show up After 15 years Duch bag You disappeared Didn't call Didn't text I didn't know you were alive Untill I was 10 I tried to find you For 5 years Mom even tried to find you Then you show up Like nothing ever happened Expecting to run my life Well I've got news for you I have a dad I don't need you I don't want you In my life ******* I have a dad That was there On my birthday Christmas My whole life As far as I'm concerned Your just some guy You might be my blood But your not my dad Jason isn't my blood But he is my dad And he was ok with me and her You weren't He was there You weren't So I should have said this when I met you ******* I have a dad
Whiskey Beer Hell ill even drink ***** Anything to take the pain away Just to numb it even Anything to make it feel better I'm tired of all this ******* I hate it I hate them Getting drunk it'll make it better Right? No maybe not Maybe **** Maybe pills Anything Just make it go away Ill find it at the bottom of a bottle Or at the end of a blunt Maybe in the pills I don't know I just want all the pain to go away
I feel pain I feel guilt I feel broken I feel crushed But most of all I feel love I feel love for you I push my feelings to the side for you I am there for you I care for you I am there when you need something I am there when you need someone I do all this for you Because I love you
It's all thanks to you It's all your fault Thanks a lot I'm happy For the first time in a while I'm smiling All because of you I was miserable Depressed But now I'm happy Joyful Smileing Thank you So much
I've been with a lot Of other girls I ****** a lot of others I'm not proud of it They mean nothing You mean everything to me This world would mean nothing Without you My life would be meaningless Remember this As I tell you You mean everything to me
They call me crazy Because I used to cut They call me crazy Because I hate them They call me crazy Because of all my anger They say I've gone insane That I'm a cyopath Well I can tell them this You want to see insane? You want to see a cyopath? Sorry I'm not him You lucked out here I'm done with the cutting Yeah I have a lot of anger and hate But nobody sees it Because I hide it So am I insane? Hell yeah I'm insane But not how they think
They wonder what's wrong with me I always say nothing But truthfully I'm ****** At "dad" At "mom" They can't control me My heart Or my life **** them I'm done with them He has been gone 15 years Shows up like nothing happened Wants to control me Tell me to leave her Because she has a baby Sorry I'm not not like him I will never abandon her Ever So "dad" ******* I hate you Stay out of my life "Mom" Stop with the self pity ******* Nobody gives a **** Your a ***** to everybody And you wonder why your losing you kids Why they are turning against you Because you a pill popping ***** A liar A thief Yea remember $400 You stole From me I was a kid You stole money from a kid Your kid Well I'm not your kid Not anymore Tina is my mom Hg is my dad I have a family But you and Jason Took them You wonder what's wrong Well here you go But you'll do like always Just take some pills And pass out in your bed So you know what ******* both Your not my family I hate you both My family is Hg Tina My brothers My sisters My love And her baby That's my family So you can Get the hell out my life Before I make you
Cuts so deep, blood so red Clean it up, go to bed Cry to sleep, dream of death Wake up though, stop your breath Starve your body, plague your mind Keep it up, don't look behind Throw up food, work all day Watch your world fade to gray Never can talk, silence is key To far gone, nobody stop me Take some pills, go to sleep No one cares, you silently weep Nothing left here, escape your head Fly away angle, your already dead
It's your very first birthday, destine, One candle on your cake; Proud parents stare in wonder At each new move you make. We join in celebration, As this special date arrives, For baby has brought pleasure Into all our lives. We look forward now to seeing How you progress and grow, From the cute and tiny infant You were one year ago. So dig into your icing; Enjoy your presents, too. The reason for this day Is a special person--you!
This poem is kinda old. I found it going through some I had put up
So sweet So sound Sleeping with mommy Your mind wandering wide Dreams so wonderful No one will ever know You look so beautiful So peaceful So quite Lots to think about Beautiful little baby Laying there So sweet So loving Good night Sleep tight We love you
as i stand here in this pool of blood i look at my wrist i see the cuts i see the scars so many times ive drug this blade across my wirst wondered if this is it this time is diffrent is this it? was this my life a sea of misery moutains of pain rivers of hate finaly its all over im getting cold im getting tired as this pool grows at my feet i think finaly i get to leave i collaps evrything gets blury i slip in to my slumber never to wake again
looking at these blades i think of so many failed attempts ive washed them in my blood hoping this will be the one but it never came this time it will this time ive sharpened honed the edge this time ill feel it as i drag it across my wrist feel my veins pop feel it slice my fleash feel my blood seep from my body i think finaly this is it i can feel it once, twice, three times now the other one, two, three now im standing here i feel my life slowly sliping away i see him in the shadows come to take me away i tell him finaly you show your ******* face he chuckels says not yet and disappers im standing in a pool of blood my blood screaming fine i try again every night untill you take me
**** this **** childish ******* I'm done with it **** it all I'm better than that I don't start **** So don't start **** about me **** all of you If you doubt me Yeah I'm white Yeah I'm country Yeah my girl has a child But you know what I'm proud of all of it I'm happy about all of it So **** it I'm done
It will all end Fire will end it It will all burn And I'm going to cause it all **** this world Lets make another From the ashes Of this hell **** all this I'm done with it all I'm going to watch it burn laughing Lighting it Burning it all Watch everyone die Burn to death The smoke Black as night And when it's all gone We will rise And **** you all
Everytime I try to help It comes back on me It always backfires I get ******* over everytime I do the right thing But I get the short end of the stick I get called names I get picked on I don't do anything Because it's not worth my time But now I'm tired of it **** y'all Every single person Who has ever hurt me ******* me over Lied to me Every last one of you I'm nothing because of you The happy little kid I once was He's dead He's gone I'm an empty shell Incapable of feeling A sucidal freak ******* You made me this way Your dirt No your worse than dirt Your hated by everybody you meet Nobody likes you Nobody loves you I'm sitting here With this gun in my mouth And if I pull the trigger It's on you You deserve it No you deserve worse But no I won't Maybe another day
Will anybody accept me See I'm tring to help Will they That's all I try to do I can't remember The last time I was selfish All I try to do is help And all they do is hurt me Well I'm done with it Fed up with it You don't want my help then fine Suffer See if I care All they do Is cause me pain **** that No more I think I'm a good person I hope I'm a good man We will see who is happy In the end I'll have the woman I love In my arms A roof over our head Food on our plate And plenty more that I can promise And they will Have nothing And see if I care
Two things I hate the most Cheaters Liars You cheat on me You don't deserve me You don't deserve to be happy And I will find out I always do You lie to me You don't deserve my trust I'll never believe a word you say ever again But you do both You break everything I ever had for you I'll never want to see you again Because the kind of pain That will come Will break me Destroy me **** me I'll hate you Until my heart stops Which won't be long after. You cheat on me We will work through it You lie to me We will work through it But you do both And I'll **** him
This is my worst fear that you will cheat on me and lie about it if you do tell me when it happens but all my trust will disappear because your the only person I've ever trusted
Ripped up jeans Oil stained shirt Muddy boots Been busy ****** camo Sharp knife Meat on the table Had fun Muddy truck Passed out in said truck Beer cans on the floorboard Had a party Happy woman Happy child Run down man That's a country boy That's me
You, my love Are my everything My heaven in hell My diamond in the ruble My star in the night sky I love you Your the only one for me The one I love The one I cherish I'll take your burdens And make them my own Make your problems mine Love your child as my own I already love her as my own Your the camo to my stand The bullet to my gun The doe to my buck Our true country love The greatest The strongest The truest Of all
I haven't in two years But now I can't stop I don't tell you Because I don't want You worrying I love you And I don't want to lose you I can't talk I can't breath I can't do anything But I want you happy And I such a ******* Because I know Your going to read this Should I press save No I should delete it all Never speak of it I should But I can't
I'm sorry baby I really am I love you I'm really really sorry please don't be mad at me
what is death? is it good or is it bad most are scared but not me i would welcome death with open arms like and old friend but not today my love you hold me from him you keep me alive our love keeps me alive with out you i would be nothing so i ask again what is death is it torture a lifetime without your smile your face your voice a night time of nothing blazing hot or would you be waiting for me siting and waiting siting and waiting in our own paridise death would be a doorway one life with you for another
Death, cry, suicide Maybe I will laugh in time 1,2,3,4 suicide is asking more 5,6,7,8 maybe this is my fate 9,10,11,12 my body dies and silence fell 12,11,10,9 and now they all cry 8,7,6,5 my mind is going on a ride 4,3,2,1 we hang ourselves and they run
I'm not afraid I used to be Not anymore I'm not afraid to die I'm not afraid of death Not afraid to see blood Not afraid to see my blood Not afraid of any of it It doesn't scare me anymore I've learned the hard way Don't be afraid of anything Don't be afraid of anyone It does no good Fear is a veil Thin and see through Fear is nothing Nothing to feel Nothing but emptiness I'm not afraid of death When it's my time I'll go with no problems I'll have regrets But when I go I go Death doesn't scare me It shouldn't scare anyone
You know what I'd do You know what I've done What I've given up What I'm going to do I'd give up more Do more For you and her I love the both of you I think I have what it takes But do you I think I'm ready But do you She might not be mine But I'll treat her like my own Family is family Blood or not I'd give anything for you and her I love you I love her So I ask again Do you think I'm ready
I have not smiled I have not laughed I have not been happy since you left I have done nothing sat in my room stared at a TV my heart wants to give out wants to stop beating my head feels like its going to burst all of this since you left I understand why I get it I can wait but Im worried worried you will find another but like I said a million times its whatever makes you happy id walk through hell knock on the devils door and fight him if it makes you happy there is nothing I wouldn't do for you
Well your back Thank god But you doubt us I live you I don't want you to leave But I don't know What to do any more I'm just an empty shell In capable of feeling But for some reason I feel a love Stronger than anything For you But what you did It hurt The worst pain I ever felt Times a million But I don't say anything Not anymore For fear if hurting you I'll just slap on a fake smile I've had plenty of practice I can do it again Believe me I love you More than I love god More than I love life I just hope you know
They left it baited Waiting for their next prey When I came stumbling along I saw it and took it But that's when it all happened You were the bait And when I saw you I triped the wire I fell in a trap called love I'm stuck in here Can't get out No matter if I did try But I won't Because its paradise Everything I can hope for Everything I can dream of It's all here But what really makes me stay Is you Because you are here with me And that's paradise enough
I'm sitting here Starring at these flames Thinking Why are we here What's our propose It seams like We are here to suffer Gods little pawns His entertainment It seams we are here To hurt Feel pain Feel heart break But worst of all Love It hurts Not to see your love But we don't give up Fire It's just like love Hot It can hurt But if you choose the right person to light Your fire It's good It creates heat Light Life So I'm sitting here Looking at this fire Thinking of you Your warmth Your heat Your love You I need you I need you now
**** this ******* I'm done I quit I give up Your drunk as **** Don't know your own name Don't hear me talking to you And after all this You never said "I'm sorry I lied to you" I told you I'd try to forget it No matter how much it hurts To just hold it in I still do for you I'm done talking about it Because all you do is say I know I know I know Then I find out You trust him more than me Yet you say Your in love with me Well you don't show it No apology No remorse No regret Nothing I'm not leaving But what if I did? Any other guy would Robert would Trey would Joey would Everybody I ask Say they would end it Right then and there Because if I lose you I'll put a bullet in my head I love you But I don't see it from you I want to marry you Have kids with you Spend the rest of my life with you I love you More than you will ever know And I hope you do to
**** it **** it all **** friends **** family **** the world **** life I'm done with it all I'm done with stupid ******* I'm done with pain I'm done with misery I'm done with heart break I'm done with every ******* thing **** it all And you know what **** this life I'm done with it You can have it
**** it im done i give up im traped no freedom just take me out put me out my misery make it quick make it slow i dont give a **** im done with life im done with all this **** im done with everything **** it **** this life im ******* done
******* You don't let me do **** I have no freedom I can't see my love Because if you I don't do **** Because of you ******* I want to leave Move out What if I do that It would be your fault You ran me off They can tell you "It's not you fault" I'm here to tell you It's all your fault So *******, ***** As soon as I'm 18 I'm leaving Moving out You won't see me for a while And keep it in your mind That it's your fault you lost a son That's why on of them Doesn't talk to you as it is Because you do nothing for him Well I need clothes I've needed them for month I need money for school I need books, pens, shoes and more I've needed it for months But do you help? No I get the money some how I'm 15 I can't have a job But I get the money some how All you do it is buy your pills And buy for your little baby My 10 year old sister So *******. Your nothing but a dope headed *****
It seems like when something happens Everybody at school finds out quick Well that's life Everybody knows Like just a while ago Me and my girlfriend broke up Well my ex Corners me in the hall way Tries to kiss me When I push her away She says What your single now I just walked away Turned around and said Not even if you we're the last ******* earth And walked away Then a **** tries Then another It's to the point It's getting on my nerves ***** man What are you going to do Hahahahahahaha
I can't hear anything Exept your voice I can't see anything exept your face I can't feel anything Except your body I'm going crazy Lock me in a padded room Dope me up and lay me down I miss you too much I love you too much My love, you are my world I've given up so much for you My life has changed for ever And I couldn't be happier But not being with you Not talking to you It's making me go crazy So again Lock me up Dope me up And lay me down So I can go crazy With love My heart is a padded room Love is my dope And you are what's making me go crazy I love you
hate what is hate hate is felling is actions is words but to me hate is everything but hate can not exist without love hate and love they are two halves of a whole one can not exist without the other you see, my love i hate many people but i love you they battle within me my love for you withstands all nothing can tarnish it nothing can destroy it i love you but with that love comes worry worry ill lose you my love for you stands me up keeps me going without you i would have givin up you keep me from that my love, you are my light my every thing in this cold bitter world so i say now i love you no matter what
The most important things in my life Are those two That's all I care about I want them happy I want them taken care of I want her to have no complaints That's all I care about nothing else I don't care about anything Just those two That's it They are my life Untill I die
how am I any different im a person is it my country accent is it my ripped up jeans my oil stained shirt maybe my mud boots the music I listen to what is it why do you call me weird is it the scars all over my body because I fight to much is it my torn up hands my cut up body what is it please tell me or is it my girl the fact that im the luckiest man alive are you jealous because im happy? because she is happy? because she has a baby? well let me tell you something ill treat that baby like my very own oh that's what this is about well allow me to open your eyes I love her and that baby ill take care of them ill raise her like I would my own that's all I have to say good bye
It wasn't my fault It's yours I didn't ******* over You ****** me over ******* I hate you I hope you burn in hell Leave me the **** alone I was happy Until you ****** it up I want nothing to do with you I hope you ******* suffer It's all your fault I'm done with you I'm done with all of this ******* I'm done Bye
I'll die We all do Most die of stupidity Some die peacefully Not me I'll die on my terms I'll fight for my freedom I'll fight for my girl I'll fight for her daughter I'll fight for my family You hit me You better pray I go down and don't get up If I do You better run I'll fight I'll never back down I won't win because I'm the biggest I won't win because I'm the strongest I'll win because I have something worth fighting for I'll go down swinging I'll die with my finger on the trigger
I can't see the scars I can't remember how many I'm asking you How many do you think How many times Have I drug a blade across my wrist Hoping it will end Hoping this is it Do you remember why I started Do you remember what you did How much pain Was locked inside Waiting to be let out A monster within Clawing at the gates Each cut let a little out But killed me a little more I was hoping it would end But it didn't Like always But **** it It will happen one day
When your here But your not I can't wait Till your back in my arms Back with me Till we can be together forever I love you And I can't wait to hear you say it back In person To feel your lips on mine To feel me holding you And I'll never let go I swear baby
I'd rather die Than be away I'd rather die Than lose you I'd rather die Right here right now Than be told I can't see you I can't be with you I'd do anything for you Anything to make you happy What ever it takes ill do it I love you baby Forever and always
All of this I did for you I gave up friends I gave up family I gave up my father My brother My sister I almost lost my mom For you All this and more I did for you I'm there when you need me I'm there when you need something Anything you need Anything you want I'll get it Half my family Ive known my whole life I said **** them For you And this is how you repay me It's ****** up
They are gone All of them They are dead to me Almost my whole family I haven't forgotten them But it's their fault They couldn't accept us They didn't like Us being together So I said **** them Me and my dad We no longer talk Me and my brother We have drifted apart Me and my whole family No longer talk I said **** them Ill choose you over them Any day any time I've gave all of them up All of them For you Please Don't make me regret it I love you I miss you Ill go crazy with out you You are all I have now As far as I care I have no family
I bought it Thought you loved me Its a nice ring Lot of money But wait I threw away the receipt Now I'm stuck with it It's your size Fit for your hand Perfect for you Thought I'd marry you Have children with you Spend my life with you Guess I thought wrong So what do I do with it Can't return it So what I guess it's just going to sit there Next to my bed A forever reminder Of the only love I'll ever have