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582 · Dec 2013
Love and lust
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
What is love
Love is special
Love is when
Your gut twists
You heart beats fast
Your stomach is on fire
Love and lust
Are often confused
Lust is ****** desire
Driven by urges
Love is when you care
More than anything for them
When you would do anything
Be anything for that person
Most don't know what love is
All they feel is lust
Everybody has felt it
I've felt it
But when you feel love
It's so much different
It's so much better
I know from experience
I've felt them both
But now all I feel is love
And when you find your love
Hold on and never let go
Never
Ever
Trust me
561 · Apr 2014
Death, cry, suicide
Jonah Lavigne Apr 2014
Death, cry, suicide
Maybe I will laugh in time
1,2,3,4 suicide is asking more
5,6,7,8 maybe this is my fate
9,10,11,12 my body dies and silence fell
12,11,10,9 and now they all cry
8,7,6,5 my mind is going on a ride
4,3,2,1 we hang ourselves and they run
561 · Dec 2013
I miss you so much
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Baby I miss you
I miss you so much
It hurts
When your away
My heart drops
I love you
I miss you
You showed me what love is
And now it's all I feel
I miss you my love
God it hurts
Please
Promise me
you will never leave me
559 · Dec 2013
Remember baby I love you
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Baby
I love you
So much
it hurts
But I love the pain
It's what keeps me going
It's what wakes me up
It's what puts me to sleep
And when I tell you I love you
I don't say it to get anything
I don't say it to hear it back
I say it to make sure you know
My love
I love you
544 · Nov 2013
You
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
You
You are perfect
You are beautiful
You are smart
You are funny
You are wonderful
You are joyful
You are you
You are nobody else
You do not try to be anyone else
You, I love you
You are perfect in every way


                             I love you
542 · Dec 2013
Hey
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Hey
Hey




Guess what




I love you
542 · Nov 2013
My light in this darkness
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
hello my love
you know
what you mean to me
but not fully
you are my light
in this dark stormy world
you are the happiness
in my anger
you are the joy
in my depression
you are everything
to me
you are my world
you are my heaven
you are my treasure
I love you
more than life its self
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
My blood runs hot
Flows easily through my veins
The heat is love
But where there is heat
There is always cold
That cold is hate
My body is made of hate
My blood is made of love
They fight for control
When I talk to her
See her
Love is winning
When I talk to them
See them
Hate is winning
I have no control over them
My heart pumps the love
The world scars the hate
It cuts deep like blade
My hate has endored
so much pain
My love has seeped from my hate
To get to the love
You must cut through the hate
But she reached in the hate
And pulled out the source of the love
My heart
She tends to it
Nurtures it
From her my hate loses
The love is taking controle
But there will always be a fight
But I'm not worried anymore
I have her
That's the secret weapon
*her
538 · Dec 2013
Funny as hell but so true
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It seems like when something happens
Everybody at school finds out quick
Well that's life
Everybody knows
Like just a while ago
Me and my girlfriend broke up
Well my ex
Corners me in the hall way
Tries to kiss me
When I push her away
She says
What your single now
I just walked away
Turned around and said
Not even if you we're the last ******* earth
And walked away
Then a **** tries
Then another
It's to the point
It's getting on my nerves
***** man
What are you going to do
Hahahahahahaha
538 · Feb 2014
One day
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
One day
I'll hold you tight
In my arms everyday
Go to sleep with you
Every night
Wake up with you
Every morning
Tell you I love you
Everyday
Hug you
Kiss you
Every day of the week
One day
It will all be worth it
All the separation
The endless nights
Missing you
Not seeing you
For weeks
It will all happen one day
I swear
I'll make it happen
We will be together
In each others embrace
Nothing holding us back
No one pulling us apart
I swear
One day, my love
One day it will all happen
It will all be worth it
We will be together everyday right now baby but We can't right now but we will. I swear. I love you.
529 · Feb 2014
I miss you already
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
Riding to meet my mom
Driving her home
As I got farther and farther away
I thought
I miss you
I miss her kiss
I miss your hug
I miss you in my arms
I want you back
I miss you
The hole in my stomich is back
The one only you can fill
We had fun
But I want you back
I miss you so much
Now I'm in my bed
I want you here
It's empty
I'm alone
And I want you here
I miss you
I love you
527 · Nov 2013
Just fucking kill me
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
just **** me
im ready
for it all to end
i want to die
please
shoot me
stab me
choke me
hang me
cut me
i dont care
just end my life
please
im beging
please
just ******* **** me
521 · Apr 2014
You did it
Jonah Lavigne Apr 2014
You did this to me
Your the only one I ever trusted
Then you cheat on me
I've stood for a lot of ****
Took beatings for you
Stomped *** for you
But I have a line
And you crossed it
I forgive a lot of ****
But I don't know
If I can forgive this one
You went to far this time
I will never forget this
I hope you know
You might loos the best man
You will ever find
I love you
I always will
I love your daughter
I love her like my own
I will never stop doing for her
No matter what happens
I will do and do for her
I love both of you
More than anything
But I don't know
If I can stand for it anymore
My body can't take anymore
I have no heart because of you
It's gone
You ripped it out
Crushed it
And stomped it in the dirt
And I still don't know why
Please tell me why
514 · Feb 2014
Why does it hurt so bad
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
That pain in my gut
It feels like something's
Eating me away
Wearing me down
And I don't know why
Is it all the loss I've suffered
All the people that are no more
The ones that are no longer my family
The ones that are no longer my friends
Is it because of her
The guy she's talking to
Is it just pain
An endless burn
Sting
Throb
Rot
Decay on the inside
It kills me every day
And I don't know why!
Just end it!
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
I know what it is
All the *******
Pilled  up inside
Cramer in to a bottle
And shoved down my throat
But I did it to myself
I put it in the bottle
I shoved it down my throat
I caused it all
The bottles cracking
But I seal the cracks
Because I don't want to hurt anyone
Some of it leaked through the cracks
I say things
Things I would never say
To my brother
To my sister
To my mother
To my friends and family
I seclude myself from them
I stay away
I lock myself in my room
And I sit there
I could **** myself
But I can't put that guilt on her
Her, the love of my life
The one I might lose
The one I want to keep
The one I can't lose
My insides burn
And my heart
What's left of it
Is falling apart
I'll do anything to keep her
I'll do anything for her
But I've said that
A million times before
I'll let her choose
I can promise her anything
But it's her choice
508 · Jan 2014
Why?
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Lies
I hate them
So much
I want to ****
When I'm lied to
Them pain
It hurts
It kills me inside
But when you do it
I want to crawl under a rock and die
Say **** the world
If you can't be honest
Then who can
If I can't trust you to be honest
The who can I trust
I don't trust anybody
I never have
But you are different
I trust you
But now
Now I wonder
What else have you lied about
What else
499 · Dec 2013
Only one I can trust
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Baby
Your the one
The only one
I can trust
I can't trust anyone else
I've tried
But I can't
Only you my love
I hope you know that
I love you
With all my heart
494 · Dec 2013
I love you baby
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I love you
I trust you
And I don't trust anybody
I never thought I would
Trust anybody again
But I trust you
More than ever
I love you
More than anything
I miss you
more than anything
Remember this my love
492 · Nov 2013
Death
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
what is death?
is it good
or is it bad
most are scared
but not me
i would welcome death
with open arms
like and old friend
but not today my love
you hold me from him
you keep me alive
our love keeps me alive
with out you
i would be nothing
so i ask again what is death
is it torture
a lifetime without
your smile
your face
your voice
a night time
of nothing
blazing hot
or would
you be waiting
for me
siting and waiting
siting and waiting
in our own paridise
death
would be a doorway
one life
with you
for another
484 · Dec 2013
All thanks to you
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It's all thanks to you
It's all your fault
Thanks a lot
I'm happy
For the first time in a while
I'm smiling
All because of you
I was miserable
Depressed
But now
I'm happy
Joyful
Smileing
Thank you
So much
483 · Dec 2013
Life and death
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
They call me crazy
Because I hate life
Maybe they are the crazy ones
Maybe life is a torture
Maybe death is the freedom
The reward for going through
The pain
The heart break
They fear hell
I can't wait to see it
Let's burn
**** it
I want death
Come get me
I dare you
I want to meet satan
Call him a ***** to his face
Laugh when he punishes me
So life or death?
Heaven or hell?
477 · Jan 2014
Fake smiles
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Well your back
Thank god
But you doubt us
I live you
I don't want you to leave
But I don't know
What to do any more
I'm just an empty shell
In capable of feeling
But for some reason
I feel a love
Stronger than anything
For you
But what you did
It hurt
The worst pain I ever felt
Times a million
But I don't say anything
Not anymore
For fear if hurting you
I'll just slap on a fake smile
I've had plenty of practice
I can do it again
Believe me I love you
More than I love god
More than I love life
I just hope you know
477 · Jan 2014
My biggest fear
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Nobody knows what I'm afraid of
They think they do
I'm not afraid of snakes
Or rats
Or spiders
Or fire
Not even death scares me
There's only one thing
And that one thing could end me
Could **** me
My biggest
And only fear
Is loseing you
If I lose you
I'd go insane
Crazy
Lock myself away
Put a gun in my mouth
And pull the trigger
I love you
You have no idea
It's impossible to say how much
But I'd do anything for you
Anything at all
I swear
Nothing will make me leave
I'm sorry for what I did
Baby please I'm sorry
I love you
476 · Mar 2014
What is a baby? I know.
Jonah Lavigne Mar 2014
That's the question
What is a baby
What is a child
What is it to you
What does it mean to you
A baby is the gift of a god
Trusted to you
It is not a burden
For it is a privilege
To be a parent
I wouldn't know
But I've seen
It seams wonderful
The gift no one deserves
But a few
It is the ultimate sacrifice
But the ultimate gain
Nothing can compare
Nothing is the same
Nothing ever will be
It's hard work
Sleepless nights
Wondering if your good enough
Thinking your not
Thinking how am I to do this
How am I to raise her
But this gift
Is given to those who can
They don't always want to
But they can
I've gotten a taste
A sample
And i fell in love with her
Her beautiful blue eyes
Her shining blonde hair
Everything about her
I want to do everything for her
Protect her
Be there for her
Everything
I want her in my life
I want to be in hers
I've laid awake
Many a nights
Thinking what if I don't do right
What if I'm not good enough
I know there's no turning back
I know there's no giving up
And I'm willing
To take that extra weight
I want to
I'll do anything for her
I'll do anything for you destine
I swear
Your not old enough yet
But when you are
I pray to god I'm still there
Because I'll never leave
I could never
The only way I'd leave
Is if I was forced by one person
And she knows she has that power
I pray she doesn't use it
For I love her
And I love you
When you read this, destine
Remember in your heart
That there is nothing
I will not do for you
I swear
474 · Jan 2014
Trapped by life
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Walls closing in
Space getting smaller
A tug in my gut
Head about to explode
Let me out
Free me
Fine *******
I hate you all
When I'm out
You will die
Give me freedom
Give me liberty
You want the best for me
Prove it
Let me make mistakes
Let me live a life
I don't need
Your over protective *******
When I get out
And I will
You will regret it
For the rest if your lives
You will feel pain
You will feel hurt
Let me out now
Or I'll find a way out
473 · Feb 2014
It hurts
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
It hurts so bad
Those painful thoughts
That you might leave me
They hurt
But I try to withstand it
Hoping you won't
Hoping you realize
You love me more
That I'm better for you
I'm better for your daughter
Or that it's all a sick joke
And everyone is in on it
I lay awake every night
Crying
Praying
I haven't eaten in three days
Slept four hours in three days
Because I'm so scared
I'll lose you
I love you
I always will
No matter your choice
472 · Jan 2014
You killed me
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
I'm dead
Or soon to be
My body is alive
But I'm dead
My body will soon follow
My soul is crushed
My heart is shattered
My inside is decayed
I'm nothing
You left
You wanted out
For what
Some *******
That won't love you
As I did
Fine
I've said it before
What ever makes you happy
Even if it means my death
Fine
I'll never be happy again
But I don't have to worry about it
I'll be dead soon anyway
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
I bought it
Thought you loved me
Its a nice ring
Lot of money
But wait
I threw away the receipt
Now I'm stuck with it
It's your size
Fit for your hand
Perfect for you
Thought I'd marry you
Have children with you
Spend my life with you
Guess I thought wrong
So what do I do with it
Can't return it
So what
I guess it's just going to sit there
Next to my bed
A forever reminder
Of the only love I'll ever have
465 · Feb 2014
You chose
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
You made up your mind
You chose me
I'm happy
The first time in weeks
And all I can say is
.......................
I'm speechless
Thank you
I know you made the right choise
I promise
I'll treat you and your baby right
Do everything in my power
To make y'all happy
I swear
465 · Jan 2014
When I handed it to you
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
When I ripped it out my chest
And I handed it to you on a gold platter
I gave you power over my entire life
Power to **** me
Power to destroy me
Power to shatter my soul
I did this because I trust you
And I don't trust
Nobody has my trust
But you do
I love you more than enough
To give it to you
I just ask that you keep it safe
Because it's not much
But it's all I have
463 · Dec 2013
Baby's first birthday
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It's your very first birthday, destine,
One candle on your cake;
Proud parents stare in wonder
At each new move you make.
We join in celebration,
As this special date arrives,
For baby has brought pleasure
Into all our lives.
We look forward now to seeing
How you progress and grow,
From the cute and tiny infant
You were one year ago.
So dig into your icing;
Enjoy your presents, too.
The reason for this day
Is a special person--you!
This poem is kinda old. I found it going through some I had put up
460 · Jan 2014
She might not be mine
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Which matters most
Blood or love
She may not be my daughter
But I love her like my own
I'll treat her like my own
When I visit
And she is there
My heart warms to see her
I get a smile on my face
When she smiles
If she needs anything
You call me
She may not be my blood
But I love her like she is
I'll be by her side
through anything
I may not be her daddy
But I wish I was
457 · Mar 2014
HOW COULD YOU
Jonah Lavigne Mar 2014
It wasn't my fault
It's yours
I didn't ******* over
You ****** me over
*******
I hate you
I hope you burn in hell
Leave me the **** alone
I was happy
Until you ****** it up
I want nothing to do with you
I hope you ******* suffer
It's all your fault
I'm done with you
I'm done with all of this
*******
I'm done
Bye
457 · Dec 2013
I miss you so much
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I miss you
So much it hurts
I just want to see you
Hold you
Tell you I love you
Tell you how wonderful you really are
I miss you
It hurts not to talk to you
I just wanted you to know
I miss you so much
More than anything
455 · Jan 2014
The plan
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
My plan
Was to ask you
Next time I saw you
Get on one knee
Open the ring box
And say
Samantha Saxon
Will you
Make me the happiest man alive
And marry me
And pray that you said yes
It was goin to be
The very next time I saw you
But then you left
Riped out my heart
And shattered it
An I don't know what i did wrong
Everyone I talk to
They say the same thing
She will see she messed up
She will see she loves you
She will take you back
She has to
But I don't want you to because you have to
I want you to because you want to
Because you love me
I love you
More than anything
But
Make the right choice
The one that's better for you
Better for destine
The one that makes you happiest
The one you truly love
It was going to be next time I saw you
But now I'm stuck with it
Just sitting there
Reminding me
Of you
Like everything else
453 · Dec 2013
You, my love
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
What every guy dreams of
What every guy wants
What every guy need
You could have anybody
You want
Why you choose me
Ill never know
But what I do know
Is I'm the luckiest person ever
Because I have you
Because I love you
Because you love me
You, my love
Are everything to me
When I'm with you
My heart races
When I'm without you
My heart slows
And if I ever lost you
My heart would beat no more
Because you, my love
Are the one I love
Forever and always
453 · Nov 2013
Bloody blades
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
looking at these blades
i think of so many failed attempts
ive washed them in my blood
hoping this will be the one
but it never came
this time it will
this time ive sharpened
honed the edge
this time ill feel it
as i drag it across my wrist
feel my veins pop
feel it slice my fleash
feel my blood seep from my body
i think finaly
this is it i can feel it
once, twice, three times
now the other
one, two, three
now im standing here
i feel my life slowly sliping away
i see him in the shadows
come to take me away
i tell him finaly
you show your ******* face
he chuckels says
not yet
and disappers
im standing in a pool of blood
my blood screaming
fine i try again
every night untill
you take me
446 · Nov 2013
Take a peek
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
Take a peek you will see
Open your eyes
Open and see what he does
Open and see who he is
Open and see who helps you
Open and see who loves you
Open your eyes and look at me
I want to be with you
I want to be able to help you
I want to be there for you
For the baby
I am there everyday
He is there when you are mad at him
All he does is hold you back
Open your eyes and you will see
He keeps you held down
Stay down to long
Your baby will be gone
You will forget how to walk
All you will do us crawl
You will be in the dirt all because of him
Open your eyes and you will see
Take my hand and you will be moved forward
Take my hand and you will fly
Stay with me and fly
Fly long enough and you baby will fly with us
You will do more then walk
You will soar
You and your daughter will be in the heavens
All because of me
Open your eyes and you will see
444 · Jan 2014
Break up poem
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Ha ha
Joking
I'm never leaving you
443 · Jan 2014
Love? Fuck that.
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Love never fails
That's the saying
But I think
They need to change it
To love always fails
I quit
I'll never make the mistake
Of falling in love again
Because when she left
Well let's just say
I can't wait
Till I get the key
To my gun case back
Because when I do
Everyone will see
How much I hurt
Never fall in love again
I won't
It hurts to much
442 · Dec 2013
Trapped
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I'm stuck
In my own thoughts
Should I live
Should I die
I'm trapped
I can't decide
Stuck in my own body
Scarred
from the cuts
From the fights
Stuck in my head
Confused
Twisted
I don't know
What to do anymore
**** it all?
Give up?
Or look past it?
**** this world
No save it
Stuck
Listening to my own heart beat
the blood running through my veins
Then the screams
Stuck
Seeing the blood
The hate
I'm stuck
In my own thoughts
Can't move
Can't walk
Can't talk
But it's probly for the best
Can't hurt anybody anymore
But who cares
Nobody
I'm trapped
Still stuck
**** it
441 · Dec 2013
When I look at you
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
When I look at you
I feel my gut twist
When I look at you
I feel love
I feel heat grow
Deep in my heart
When I look in your eyes
I get lost in them
You say I seem dazed
after we kiss
Tell the truth
I am
Because  
I can't believe
I'm kissing
the love of my life
I love you
With every thing I am
I look in your eyes
And I can't think straight
I feel all fuzzy inside
All I can say is
Your the one
I want to spend my life with
438 · Dec 2013
Nightmares called life
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
They're still here
They won't go away
Every night they come
Every night they hurt
The ******* nightmares
I know what they mean
I know what I must do
But I just can't
It would make me happy
But hurt too many people
Ill just suffer
To make them happy
I don't sleep
I don't eat
I put on a fake smile
To hide so much pain
Show a fake joy
To hide so much misery
Nobody would understand
So I keep it to myself
Hide it deep
But I claws its way out
It tears me apart
From the inside out
But I just push it deeper
But that just makes it angryer
But I can't hurt anybody
I can't tell them about it
It's to much
But I'll survive


Hopefully
434 · Dec 2013
Ill wait
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I will wait
However long it takes
No matter what
Ill wait  100 years
For one day with you
Ill wait for you
Because I love you
Ill wait forever
If I have to
As long as it takes
I don't care
All I want
is you to be happy
Ill wait
Trust me
I will
I promise
434 · Jan 2014
Love and suicide
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
I've drug a blade
Across my wrist
Many times
Felt the blood
Seep out of my body
Felt the flesh tear
And the veins rip apart
As the blade dulled
Felt my body grow cold
As my life leaked away
But when I meet you
I lost the blade
The cuts healed
My body grew warm
Then when we kissed
For the first time
Heat coursed through my veins
My head grew light
Then that special night
When we showed our love
For each other
I knew
Never again
Will I swallow pills
Put a gun in my mouth
Drag a blade on my body
My life will be yours
What's mine will be yours
433 · Jan 2014
It's diffrent
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
Before I met you
I never saw myself
Loving another mans child
Like she was my own
Before I met you
I never saw myself
With just one woman
For the rest of my life
But now
I dont see my self
Going one day
With out you
Because I wouldn't trade
One day with you
For a million years
Any other way
I want to spend
My life with you
Give you and her
All u have to offer
To see you smile
To see you be happy
Because I love you
And I mean it
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I'm about to fight
I think of you
I walk away
I'm about to curse my mom
I think of you
I walk away
You hold me form a lot
I couldn't do anything
To make me not see you
It's hell enough not to
But if I couldn't talk to you
There would be blood
But I'd just think of you
What it would do to you
If I got arrested
Or got killed
And just walk away
I couldn't do anything to hurt you
ever
I swear
never
*ever
430 · Dec 2013
All the others mean nothing
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I've been with a lot
Of other girls
I ****** a lot of others
I'm not proud of it
They mean nothing
You mean everything to me
This world would mean nothing
Without you
My life would be meaningless
Remember this
As I tell you
You mean everything to me
428 · Feb 2014
How I'll go
Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014
I'll die
We all do
Most die of stupidity
Some die peacefully
Not me
I'll die on my terms
I'll fight for my freedom
I'll fight for my girl
I'll fight for her daughter
I'll fight for my family
You hit me
You better pray
I go down and don't get up
If I do
You better run
I'll fight
I'll never back down
I won't win because I'm the biggest
I won't win because I'm the strongest
I'll win because
I have something worth fighting for
I'll go down swinging
I'll die with my finger on the trigger
421 · Jan 2014
What if I
Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014
What if I
Did this to you
What if I
Trusted another girl
More than you
What if I
Said I wouldn't
Talk to her
But did anyway
What if I
Hid things from you
What if I
Hid my past from you
But told this girl about it
What if I
Acted like it was all over
But it still eats me away inside
What if I
Didn't hid anything from her
But I did from you
What if I
Told you I love you
But you had a hard time believing it
Because I do
And it hurts
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