Two things
I hate the most
Cheaters
Liars
You cheat on me
You don't deserve me
You don't deserve to be happy
And I will find out
I always do
You lie to me
You don't deserve my trust
I'll never believe
a word you say ever again
But you do both
You break everything
I ever had for you
I'll never want to see you again
Because the kind of pain
That will come
Will break me
Destroy me
**** me
I'll hate you
Until my heart stops
Which won't be long after.
You cheat on me
We will work through it
You lie to me
We will work through it
But you do both
And I'll **** him

You are my world
You are my life
You are my heart
You are my everything
No one can replace you
No one can take your place
I'll never love any one
As much as I love you
You are one of a kind
There will never be another
For you,my love,are everything
In my world
And nobody can replace that

Ripped up jeans
Oil stained shirt
Muddy boots
Been busy
****** camo
Sharp knife
Meat on the table
Had fun
Muddy truck
Passed out in said truck
Beer cans on the floorboard
Had a party
Happy woman
Happy child
Run down man
That's a country boy
That's me

Run your fingers through my soul.
For once, just once,
Feel exactly what I feel,
Believe what I believe,
Perceive as I perceive,
Look, experience, examine
And just for once,
Just once
Understand.

I'm not afraid
I used to be
Not anymore
I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid of death
Not afraid to see blood
Not afraid to see my blood
Not afraid of any of it
It doesn't scare me anymore
I've learned the hard way
Don't be afraid of anything
Don't be afraid of anyone
It does no good
Fear is a veil
Thin and see through
Fear is nothing
Nothing to feel
Nothing but emptiness
I'm not afraid of death
When it's my time
I'll go with no problems
I'll have regrets
But when I go
I go
Death doesn't scare me
It shouldn't scare anyone

I hide it from you
The only thing
I've ever hidden
From you
I hide the pain
I swallow it
Because I don't want to hurt you
I hold it in
Keep it to myself
I don't want you to see it
But you peek through the cracks
You see within me
Though not enough to know
I don't want to let you know
And scare you away
You ask what's wrong
That's why I'm writing this
But I'm scared to click save
Because I know you will read it
I'm scared you will see how damaged I am
And leave
I'm so close to losing you already
I can't lose you
I just can't
I love you
That's why I hide it
You can hear it in my voice
And you want to know
So I'll tell you
It's the pain
The painful thought of losing you
I haven't cried in years
Now I cry every night
It feels weird
But I'm willing to do anything
Just to keep you
I don't want you to go
I'll shake his hand
Tell him I respect him
Please baby
Please don't leave me
I'm begging
I'll do anything
I hide the pain for you
I protect you from it
But you want to know
So I'll tell you
My insides burn
They rot
I don't want to lose you
The thought of it
Makes me want to die
I love you
And I love destine
Remember that

I trust no one
I have and it ended badly
So I'm done
I'll never trust anybody
I always get lied to
I always get ****** over
All I have to say is
I'm done trusting people
Never again

I will always love you
Remember that.
You can push me away,
But I'll always come back.
You can deny your desire and say it can't be,
But I won't let the wall come between you and me.
You're afraid of you dark side,
The harm you can cause.
I have never feared your hands
Or their sharp, pointy claws.
I love them,
I love you,
I love all that you are.
Protest all you like,
But you will not get far.
You can never change my mind.
My heart will stay true.
I'll do everything I can to get closer to you.
I will wait for you forever, so get used to that fact.
I will always love you,
"Remember That".

If I die
Who would miss me
Mom?
No she doesn't trust me
Dad?
Jordan was always the favorite
Tash?
He always hated me
Allie?
She always did to
Jordan?
He probably would
Samantha?
I hope she would
All these people
All my friends
My family
All have
At least one thing
Against me
But who
Would miss me
A piece of southern trash
Good for nothing
Good at nothing
Samantha deserves someone better
So does destine
I'm not good enough
I never was
I never will be
I was a fool to think I was
Nobody would miss me
I'm sorry
To everyone
I've hurt you all
And now I see it
And I'm sickened by myself
I love Samantha and Destine
But I'm not good enough
So if I did die
Who would miss me?

Some people give the gift
of peace and tranquility
to every life they touch.
They are always who they really are.
They are blessedly reliable,
dependably good,
predictably pleasant,
loved and treasured
by all who know them.
You are one of those people.
The best of them
You are a gift
of peace and tranquility
in my life.
In every life you touch
Happy Birthday, my love
And have many more

She's the one
She's my need
She's my want
She's my everything
I love her
I still love her
I always will
She stole my heart
My shattered heart
It's still in her hands
She broke it more
Many times
But she's the one
Samantha Lee Saxon
She's my one true love
The one I need
I can't live with out her
She is my love
For my love is her

Everytime I try to help
It comes back on me
It always backfires
I get ******* over everytime
I do the right thing
But I get the short end of the stick
I get called names
I get picked on
I don't do anything
Because it's not worth my time
But now I'm tired of it
**** y'all
Every single person
Who has ever hurt me
******* me over
Lied to me
Every last one of you
I'm nothing because of you
The happy little kid I once was
He's dead
He's gone
I'm an empty shell
Incapable of feeling
A sucidal freak
*******
You made me this way
Your dirt
No your worse than dirt
Your hated by everybody you meet
Nobody likes you
Nobody loves you
I'm sitting here
With this gun in my mouth
And if I pull the trigger
It's on you
You deserve it
No you deserve worse
But no
I won't
Maybe another day

When I see you
I'm light headed
When I hold your hand
I go numb
When I hug you
Everything is perfect
When I kiss you
Everything else disappears
You say I seam dazed after we kiss
That's because I am
Because I'm kissing the perfect woman
And I can't believe it
You changed me
Showed me love does exist
Showed me I can trust someone
And for that
I thank you

I look alive
I'm dead inside
My heart has holes
And black blood flows

*******
You don't let me do ****
I have no freedom
I can't see my love
Because if you
I don't do ****
Because of you
*******
I want to leave
Move out
What if I do that
It would be your fault
You ran me off
They can tell you
"It's not you fault"
I'm here to tell you
It's all your fault
So *******, *****
As soon as I'm 18 I'm leaving
Moving out
You won't see me for a while
And keep it in your mind
That it's your fault you lost a son
That's why on of them
Doesn't talk to you as it is
Because you do nothing for him
Well I need clothes
I've needed them for month
I need money for school
I need books, pens, shoes and more
I've needed it for months
But do you help?
No I get the money some how
I'm 15 I can't have a job
But I get the money some how
All you do it is buy your pills
And buy for your little baby
My 10 year old sister
So *******.
Your nothing but a dope headed *****

As day turns to night
As dawn turns to dusk
I think what do I deserve
Do I deserve what I have?
All the **** I've done
Hearts I've broken
Virginitys I've taken
Not a second thought about it
Do I deserve what I have?
I've hurt people
I regret it
But I can't change it
I hate my past
But it's a part of me now
And it's not changing
I hope you learn it
And still accept me
Still love me
I haven't told you
Because I'm scared you wil leave
I will tell you
Just know
It's the past
It won't happen again

death
thats what i want
feel the warmth
of my own blood
leaking out of my own body
knowing i went out
the way i wanted
sounds good
but thats just it
it sounds good
i could go with my wrists
id fell my blood
driping down my hands
i could paint a pice of art
let it happen slow
that sounds good
or my neck
i could choke on my own blood
drown in it
fell it fill my lungs
choking me slowly
but thats what life is right
it just chokes you
up untill that day
you give out
well
thats the day im waiting for
thats the day we all wait for
so should i cut my wrists
paint a beutiful picture
in my own blood
feel myself slowly slip away
or cut my neck
and drown in my own blood
so witch will it be?
i just want to die
but really
nobody gives a ****

You trust him more
But you love me more
You can't love someone
With out trust
You trust him more
Do you love him more?
Who do you love?
Answer that question
If you love me
the way you say you do
You sure haven't showed it
Then let me ask you this
What if I left you
Told you I love you
But didn't believe you loved me
What would you do

"Hey jonah call me"
That's the first text
You ever sent me
I called you
Thinking
Something's wrong
"Is everything ok?"
"Yeah I just wanted to talk"
I think
She called me
Just to talk?
"About?"
"I'm bored"
"Oh sorry I'm at work"
"Aww ok bye"
"Bye"
I got in trouble
With my boss
But I didn't say anything
I worked all day thinking
She called me
Just to talk?
I ended up
Not worrying about it
I still remember the first call
I was asleep
I heard my phone ring
I wake up
It's 11:30
I have to get up at 5:00
I answer it
"Hello?"
"Hey jonah"
"Samantha?"
"Yeah"
I was prepared
To tell who ever it was
I have to get up
At 5:00 bye
But no
I said
"Hey what's up?"
"Nothin can't sleep"
"Oh. Dam that *****"
"Yeah. What you doin"
"Talking to you"
"Besides that"
"Sittin in my bed"
"Oh well I'm tired now"
"Ok good night"
"Night"
I loved you then
I love you now
I was hunting
Sittin in my deer stand
I look at my phone
Your calling me
Anyone else
Id text
In the deer stand
Can't talk
But no
I answer it
"Hey jonah"
I hear you crying
"Hey are you ok?"
"Robert left me"
And I sat there
Listened
Got you to stop crying
Then called him
And talked three way
I was glad you called.
I still remember all of that
I love you
We were best friends before
I always wanted more
That was two years ago
Now it's more
I'm the happiest person ever
That's three months ago
Now I'm about to lose you
I can't lose you
I'll go insane
I love you
I'll do anything
I swear
I'm in so much pain
Pain I don't care about
Because I want you to stay
I throw it aside for you
I still remember
That first text
And that first call
And I always will

You, my love
Are my everything
My heaven in hell
My diamond in the ruble
My star in the night sky
I love you
Your the only one for me
The one I love
The one I cherish
I'll take your burdens
And make them my own
Make your problems mine
Love your child as my own
I already love her as my own
Your the camo to my stand
The bullet to my gun
The doe to my buck
Our true country love
The greatest
The strongest
The truest
Of all

I see it now
I was wrong
I'm not going
To give you some fake
"I'm sorry"  
When I say it
What I really mean is
Please
Please
Please
Forgive me
I ****** up
I'll never do it again
I'll do anything
I'll do anything you say
Just please
I'm begging
And I've never begged before

This is my third. This one is in a guys predictive.

Mother-In-Law
You have given me a precious gift
With whom I share my life
You raised and loved the little girl
That I now call my wife
You are her lovely mother
And I'm the luck man
That she has chosen to always hold her hand
Now I just want to thank you
Mom, for all your loving care
And being the kind of mother
That both of us can share

I'm a redneck
Anyone can see that
I don't have street smarts
I have dirt road smarts
Shotguns and beer
Jacked up trucks and mud
Cain pole and and a pond
My baby and me
That's my idea of heaven
I don't want easy
Easy is to boring
Give me duck tape and nails
I can fix anything
I've done stupid things
I've smoked ****
Drank to much
Broke hearts
****** random girls
I regret it
I fought anybody
For no reason
I've stolen cars
But I'm done
I can't change it
Even if I could
The only thing I would do
Is tell them all I'm sorry
But it made me who I am
Even though
I don't like who I am
I'm proud of it

So tonight
When you cry
Whisper the cutters lullaby
Hush a bye baby
Your almost dead
You don't have a pulse
And your pillow is red
Your family hates you
An your friends let you bleed
Sleep tight with a knife
Because that's all you'll need
Rock a bye baby
Broken and scared
You didn't know
That you life would be this hard
Time to end the pain
That hid you so well
And down will come baby
Straight back to hell

Leave me alone
Stop making me think of you
I remember everything about you
Your smile
Your laugh
Everything
But get out of my head
I don't love you anymore
Or do I
No I don't
I love her
She's the one I love
She's starting to notice
Somethings on my mind
And she can't find out
I've been thinking of you
I love her
I love her more than anything
But why have I been thinking of you?
I can't figure it out
My heads a mess
I can't think
It's all just one big mess
I wish I could clear it
Just please stay out
I think about you
But I don't love you
I'm with her
I love her
Why won't you get out if my head

It was just yesterday
I saw you
I held you
I kissed you
But now I'm away
And the pain is back
The knot in my stomach
The burn in my throat
The ach in my back
I miss you
I want you back
In my arms
You are the only one I love
The only one I need
The only one for me
I miss you
I love you
Remember that

I haven't seen your face
Heard you voice
Felt your touch
In days
Or was it weeks
It doesn't matter
It feels like forever
I want you with me
I need you with me
I've been with my brother
For the last week
Drinking the sorrow away
Praying I'll get a text
Praying I'll get a call
From you
I feel as it's my fault
That I'm not doing enough
That I'm not doing as I should
I feel it's my fault your not here
It's my fault you haven't talked to me
It's my fault I feel this way
It's my fault I fell in love with you
And it feels so good
But when I don't hear from you
The pain grows and grows
Until I want to scream
Put holes in these walls
Lock myself in and never come out
But I don't do that
For you
Because I love you
More than you will ever know

I'm in my bed
All alone
Because your not here
I wish I could hold you
You could fall asleep in my arms
Dream the night away
Or we could stay awake
Pass the time
It's your call
I'm up for both
Or we could do both
Stay up late
Passing the time
Then fall asleep in my arms
I would feel the warmth of your body
Pressing on mine
As we sleep
Dreaming wonderful dreams
And in our slumber
We would know
When we wake up
We will be together
I'd open my eyes to see you there
I'd wake you up
Kiss you
Tell you
good morning beautiful
That would be a perfect night
But only if you were here

I haven't in two years
But now I can't stop
I don't tell you
Because I don't want
You worrying
I love you
And I don't want to lose you
I can't talk
I can't breath
I can't do anything
But I want you happy
And I such a *******
Because I know
Your going to read this
Should I press save
No
I should delete it all
Never speak of it
I should
But I can't

**** it
**** it all
**** friends
**** family
**** the world
**** life
I'm done with it all
I'm done with stupid *******
I'm done with pain
I'm done with misery
I'm done with heart break
I'm done with every ******* thing
**** it all
And you know what
**** this life
I'm done with it
You can have it

No one knows real pain
Real pain is when I'm away from you
Real pain is something I feel every day
Real pain comes when I see you
Real pain comes when I know it will never be us
Real pain comes when you say you love him
Real pain is all I feel now a day
Real pain hurts the worst
Real pain is something no one will understand
Real pain is what I understand
Real pain is all I know
For real pain comes from love that has been thrown away
Real pain is knowing you are with him
Real pain is when you lie and say you are happy with him
Real pain is when you are hurt and I can't help
Real pain is when I love you but you don't love me
Real pain is the worst but its what I feel when I'm with you
But I stay with you because I'm right for you and I love you

**** this *******
I'm done
I quit
I give up
Your drunk as ****
Don't know your own name
Don't hear me talking to you
And after all this
You never said
"I'm sorry I lied to you"
I told you I'd try to forget it
No matter how much it hurts
To just hold it in
I still do for you
I'm done talking about it
Because all you do is say
I know
I know
I know
Then I find out
You trust him more than me
Yet you say
Your in love with me
Well you don't show it
No apology
No remorse
No regret
Nothing
I'm not leaving
But what if I did?
Any other guy would
Robert would
Trey would
Joey would
Everybody I ask
Say they would end it
Right then and there
Because if I lose you
I'll put a bullet in my head
I love you
But I don't see it from you
I want to marry you
Have kids with you
Spend the rest of my life with you
I love you
More than you will ever know
And I hope you do to

He is sad
He is hurt
He is dying
He is alone
He is lonely
He is a mess
He is judged
He is ignored
He is suicidal
He is stressed
He is confused
He is ****** up
He is depressed
He is misunderstood
He is tired but still living
He is hurt but doesn't show it
He is screaming but silent
He is in pain but still smiling

**** it
im done
i give up
im traped
no freedom
just take me out
put me out my misery
make it quick
make it slow
i dont give a ****
im done with life
im done with all this ****
im done with everything
**** it
**** this life
im ******* done

All I've done
All the family I said ******* to
My dad
Brother
Sister
Mother
Friends
Family
Lost
I can never go back
I'm stuck in the void
The nothingness
Stuck between death and life
Between heaven and hell
You held me to earth
It was an easy job
Just to be there
But you let go
And now here I am
Hoping death takes hold
An pulls me away

I can't see the scars
I can't remember how many
I'm asking you
How many do you think
How many times
Have I drug a blade across my wrist
Hoping it will end
Hoping this is it
Do you remember why I started
Do you remember what you did
How much pain
Was locked inside
Waiting to be let out
A monster within
Clawing at the gates
Each cut let a little out
But killed me a little more
I was hoping it would end
But it didn't
Like always
But **** it
It will happen one day

So cute
So small
Growing bigger
Growing stronger
Learning to walk
Learning to talk
Loves mommy
Loves daddy
Big heart
Small child
Blonde hair
Blue eyes
The perfect child
I knew when I saw you
I wanted raise you
I wanted to be there for you
I love your mom
I love you
That will never change
But looking back now
I see my mistakes
I wish that I could
But I cannot change them
One little chance
Is all I wish
You will not regret
This I can swear
So cute so small
That baby that I saw

Cuts so deep, blood so red
Clean it up, go to bed
Cry to sleep, dream of death
Wake up though, stop your breath
Starve your body, plague your mind
Keep it up, don't look behind
Throw up food, work all day
Watch your world fade to gray
Never can talk, silence is key
To far gone, nobody stop me
Take some pills, go to sleep
No one cares, you silently weep
Nothing left here, escape your head
Fly away angle, your already dead

This isn't a dark poem
This isn't a love poem
This isn't an angry poem
It's just fact
Yes I can feel
Yes I can write
I've proved you wrong before
I'll do it again
I'll prove I can have a happy life
I'll prove we will have a happy life
I'll prove I'm strong
I'll prove I can protect them
I'll prove all of this
And more
Have a problem?
Tell me
I'll listen
I'll help
**** me over
You'll regret it
This poem is random
But I'm just stating facts
So guess what
Read it
Remember it
And never doubt me