You stared back at me
Smiling
No care in the world
So naive of how ugly you'd become
Unaware of how your life would change
In a matter of just a few years
Your free time consumed of
Hospitals
Blades
Hatred
And sorrow
All combined into one pill
That you take every morning
I'm trying you promise
But I know you just want it all to end
You've become accustomed to being unhappy
Your picture of beauty is not what you see in the mirror
All because of things said to you
Drilled into your brain
Like little nails holding your thoughts together
You spend you nights hurting
Yet you can't cry anymore
You've cried enough tears for two lifetimes
But it never seemed like enough
You'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Because at least that means you're still alive
You're heart's still pumping
Lungs still breathing
Feet still taking steps
Closer and closer to the edge of reality
Losing you sanity
And faith in humanity
Your head spinning in circles
Making you feel so dizzy
That you pulled the trigger
Lowered ten feet under
Into the dirt you barely walked on
So young at heart
But your soul aged too fast
I still hear your voice
I still smell your perfume
I hear your laugh across the room
And so I run to it
Only to find
Nothing
Every year that goes by
I forget more and more about you
Trying to grasp your tiny chubby fingers
So that I don't lose myself
The way I lost you
But just like that
I'm in the same place as you
And you know that means
*I'll never be back
Somewhat inspired by the To This Day Project. Similar style