Jonah Lavigne

Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014

No trust

I trust no one
I have and it ended badly
So I'm done
I'll never trust anybody
I always get lied to
I always get ****** over
All I have to say is
I'm done trusting people
Never again

Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014

Call this poem what you want

Everytime I try to help
It comes back on me
It always backfires
I get ******* over everytime
I do the right thing
But I get the short end of the stick
I get called names
I get picked on
I don't do anything
Because it's not worth my time
But now I'm tired of it
**** y'all
Every single person
Who has ever hurt me
******* me over
Lied to me
Every last one of you
I'm nothing because of you
The happy little kid I once was
He's dead
He's gone
I'm an empty shell
Incapable of feeling
A sucidal freak
*******
You made me this way
Your dirt
No your worse than dirt
Your hated by everybody you meet
Nobody likes you
Nobody loves you
I'm sitting here
With this gun in my mouth
And if I pull the trigger
It's on you
You deserve it
No you deserve worse
But no
I won't
Maybe another day

Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014

Country love

You, my love
Are my everything
My heaven in hell
My diamond in the ruble
My star in the night sky
I love you
Your the only one for me
The one I love
The one I cherish
I'll take your burdens
And make them my own
Make your problems mine
Love your child as my own
I already love her as my own
Your the camo to my stand
The bullet to my gun
The doe to my buck
Our true country love
The greatest
The strongest
The truest
Of all

Jonah Lavigne Feb 2014

How many cuts

I can't see the scars
I can't remember how many
I'm asking you
How many do you think
How many times
Have I drug a blade across my wrist
Hoping it will end
Hoping this is it
Do you remember why I started
Do you remember what you did
How much pain
Was locked inside
Waiting to be let out
A monster within
Clawing at the gates
Each cut let a little out
But killed me a little more
I was hoping it would end
But it didn't
Like always
But **** it
It will happen one day

Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014

I'm proud of who I am

I'm a redneck
Anyone can see that
I don't have street smarts
I have dirt road smarts
Shotguns and beer
Jacked up trucks and mud
Cain pole and and a pond
My baby and me
That's my idea of heaven
I don't want easy
Easy is to boring
Give me duck tape and nails
I can fix anything
I've done stupid things
I've smoked ****
Drank to much
Broke hearts
****** random girls
I regret it
I fought anybody
For no reason
I've stolen cars
But I'm done
I can't change it
Even if I could
The only thing I would do
Is tell them all I'm sorry
But it made me who I am
Even though
I don't like who I am
I'm proud of it

Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014

Fake smiles

Well your back
Thank god
But you doubt us
I live you
I don't want you to leave
But I don't know
What to do any more
I'm just an empty shell
In capable of feeling
But for some reason
I feel a love
Stronger than anything
For you
But what you did
It hurt
The worst pain I ever felt
Times a million
But I don't say anything
Not anymore
For fear if hurting you
I'll just slap on a fake smile
I've had plenty of practice
I can do it again
Believe me I love you
More than I love god
More than I love life
I just hope you know

Jonah Lavigne Jan 2014

The plan

My plan
Was to ask you
Next time I saw you
Get on one knee
Open the ring box
And say
Samantha Saxon
Will you
Make me the happiest man alive
And marry me
And pray that you said yes
It was goin to be
The very next time I saw you
But then you left
Riped out my heart
And shattered it
An I don't know what i did wrong
Everyone I talk to
They say the same thing
She will see she messed up
She will see she loves you
She will take you back
She has to
But I don't want you to because you have to
I want you to because you want to
Because you love me
I love you
More than anything
But
Make the right choice
The one that's better for you
Better for destine
The one that makes you happiest
The one you truly love
It was going to be next time I saw you
But now I'm stuck with it
Just sitting there
Reminding me
Of you
Like everything else