All I've done
All the family I said ******* to
My dad
Brother
Sister
Mother
Friends
Family
Lost
I can never go back
I'm stuck in the void
The nothingness
Stuck between death and life
Between heaven and hell
You held me to earth
It was an easy job
Just to be there
But you let go
And now here I am
Hoping death takes hold
An pulls me away

I bought it
Thought you loved me
Its a nice ring
Lot of money
But wait
I threw away the receipt
Now I'm stuck with it
It's your size
Fit for your hand
Perfect for you
Thought I'd marry you
Have children with you
Spend my life with you
Guess I thought wrong
So what do I do with it
Can't return it
So what
I guess it's just going to sit there
Next to my bed
A forever reminder
Of the only love I'll ever have

I'm dead
Or soon to be
My body is alive
But I'm dead
My body will soon follow
My soul is crushed
My heart is shattered
My inside is decayed
I'm nothing
You left
You wanted out
For what
Some *******
That won't love you
As I did
Fine
I've said it before
What ever makes you happy
Even if it means my death
Fine
I'll never be happy again
But I don't have to worry about it
I'll be dead soon anyway

All I can say is
..........................
Nothing
Not a word
Bye

I see it now
I was wrong
I'm not going
To give you some fake
"I'm sorry"  
When I say it
What I really mean is
Please
Please
Please
Forgive me
I ****** up
I'll never do it again
I'll do anything
I'll do anything you say
Just please
I'm begging
And I've never begged before

Nobody knows what I'm afraid of
They think they do
I'm not afraid of snakes
Or rats
Or spiders
Or fire
Not even death scares me
There's only one thing
And that one thing could end me
Could **** me
My biggest
And only fear
Is loseing you
If I lose you
I'd go insane
Crazy
Lock myself away
Put a gun in my mouth
And pull the trigger
I love you
You have no idea
It's impossible to say how much
But I'd do anything for you
Anything at all
I swear
Nothing will make me leave
I'm sorry for what I did
Baby please I'm sorry
I love you