I've hurt my self a lot
I've been stabbed
I've been cut
I've even been shot
but this
this is to much
it hurts so much
I've been dumped before
but I have never felt like this
I want to curl up in a ball
cry and die
I wish I were dead
I wish I never lost you
I have told you I loved you
but now I mean it
I love you
with everything I am
everything I will be
I want nothing but you
I wish I never missed you
it hurts too much
I wish I never lost you
I understand why
but I don't understand my feelings
all I know is I love you
no matter what
through anything im there
so I guess this is good bye
remember I love you

I still love you
no matter what
even though you left
even though you broke me
even though my heart is shattered
I still love you
I always will

how am I any different
im a person
is it my country accent
is it my ripped up jeans
my oil stained shirt
maybe my mud boots
the music I listen to
what is it
why do you call me weird
is it the scars all over my body
because I fight to much
is it my torn up hands
my cut up body
what is it
please tell me
or is it my girl
the fact that
im the luckiest man alive
are you jealous
because im happy?
because she is happy?
because she has a baby?
well let me tell you something
ill treat that baby
like my very own
oh that's what this is about
well allow me to open your eyes
I love her and that baby
ill take care of them
ill raise her like I would my own
that's all I have to say
good bye

what am I
am I human
can humans bear pain
the kind I feel
am I a beast
that would explain
my world is pain
no
im an angle
a demon
im hell
and im heaven
that explains everything
all the pain
all the hate
but
when he looks in my eyes
ill be the last thing he sees
he will pay
ill make him pay
but what am I
im human
that's what make me feel this
and that's what makes me survive

as i stand here
in this pool of blood
i look at my wrist
i see the cuts
i see the scars
so many times
ive drug this blade
across my wirst
wondered if this is it
this time is diffrent
is this it?
was this my life
a sea of misery
moutains of pain
rivers of hate
finaly its all over
im getting cold
im getting tired
as this pool grows
at my feet
i think finaly
i get to leave
i collaps
evrything gets blury
i slip in to my slumber
never to wake again