Before my eyes could even register
Before my mind could comprehend
Before the car could even stop
You were out of that door,
running
Running to the car blocking the road
World upside down concave in
Not caring if you stepped on the showered glass
My heart stopped as you peered in,
but it was empty
The night was empty
The mountain was empty
The reception on our cell phones was empty
In between the flashlighted calls for her
in the woods, in the river
a body, a soul?
You turned to me
Your instincts continuing perfectly
Somehow you knew the effect of your hand up and down on my back
And took the time to comfort me.

It's not as easy as it seems
to make an impact on this place
Trying to become the best you've seen
to see an impressed look on your face
I try so hard at everything
You know I would do anything
And I know I haven't succeeded when
I'm an average once again.

Hello Sunset, I've seen you much,
these sleeping pills lost their touch.

I itch for sleep; I yearn to dream,
but every option lost it's gleam.

The stars my friends, eye drops my drug.
Count spots on the ceiling, lay on my rug.

It seems this day has lasted a week.
My body's worn, my eye lids tweak.

Shallow thoughts, dark circles deep.
I can try some more, but I can not sleep.

Messy hair, look in the mirror.
My vision's blurry but this dilemma is clearer.

Time unlimited, sleep I lack.
Hello there, Insomniac.

Reality consumes me.
Bright trees look gloomy
When my eyes are opened.

I am lost, but I still
Wander.
My path is clear, my
Destination…I still
Ponder.

When my eyes close
My sight is in rose.
A satin breeze carries me
Home.

No home for the lost.
I remember what I’ve found
And what I’ve crossed.
The stars tell me its hopeless
No home for the lost.

Around the bend
And to
The top.
Piece by piece I climb
And fall.

Maybe…is the end in sight?
The fall of dark
Is swept by light.
Warmth grows in me.
Strangely I feel delight.
Reaching the summit
My eyes open wide.

All that I see is how much
I cried.

Sitting here, in this dark room.
***** white blinds,
and a bed sheet runs through.
A temporary bed on the kitchen floor.
Looking through smoke filled air,
I can't say I don't want more.

Anxiously awaiting,
a gasp of breath.
The slight sound,
a single word with endless depth.
Never-ending thoughts leave me lost,
in seas of awe.
Painting pictures of your mind,
thoughts forever without flaw.