Hi, my name is Brian Allan
And I was an alcoholic
I wanted to show myself
More important than I actually was
I went into every club
Wanting beer and getting drunk
And I wanted to party
I still now want to party in some ways
Or another
But back then I was getting kicked out of clubs for being drunk and disorderly
I know I loved life back then
But I pretended to be the boss of a tv Station called AAA
I used to be in squabbles with my family because they refused to
Play with me
But they were living in the real world
Thinking it was crazy to still be living
In a makebelieve world in my house
I used to have a messy house
I tried to make my house a party house
By putting empty beer bottles around the house
And when people came over to get drunk with me I would stand my ground
I used to get bullied and teased and fought just because I had a weird way of loving life
I went out at night to Las Vegas pub in Canberra and blind beggars inn Canberra
I was an awful person
I nearly got killed or punched for speaking my mind
I hung around the city all night
Nothing bad happened but if i did that again
The situation wouldn’t be as rosy
I felt people treated me like a koomarri to muck around with
And sometimes bully
I stopped doing that in 2004 despite having an alright time dancing
But I was with the people that teased me back then
So I said, I want out
But it was hard because I like to have a good time but I had to grow up
Cause I was showing no signs of my purpose in life which is I want to have fun doing what I want but I must say
Within reason because deep down I hated the people who teased and bullied me back then
When I was first was an artist I toasted my art with champagne but
I was getting tippsy and I stopped doing that because I went to the psych ward I went to the psych ward twice in 2004 and 2013 for having weird dillusions probably because of all the alcohol I drank
I express myself in art and writing
And my new purpose in life is learn performance art so I can fit into society
I still hear those voices of who bullied and teased me back then but not like back then, those voices are not true
I hear about other people get bullied like I did and it forces them to end their life but not me, I loved life too much to want to end it, mind you the thought of death used to scare me, it still does despite me knowing I will come back to another life
But I don’t want to finish this life
I nearly got caught into taking drugs
I gave him $20 and sat there waiting for him
But I got bored of being in there so I left
And I got teased by him ever since but
Then it stopped because I showed no weakness
You see saying all this doesn’t make me weak it makes me strong
Saying all the trouble I caused whilst
Trying to party hard
People are talking to me now
So I don’t want to live in the past
My name is Brian and I was an alcoholic but not anymore

Hi dudes and welcome to the Saturn community concert and our first guest is Kathryn Roswell who was my grandfather in her previous life and she is singing with Martin the Martian
With a top hat here they are
Their first song is agadoo
Which goes like this
Agadoo doo doo push pineapple shake the tree agadoo doo doo push pineapple grind coffee which was Kathryn’s fave song where she knows the words and the actions to and then she sang elvis Presley’s song love me tender which was a song she loved to sing to me ya know her last life’s grandson and then after that Martin the Martian who was John Mahoney from the tv series Frasier singing
I am a Martian with a top hat and I have no tie and I am ready to party all night when your young you will party
To forget about reality and have a little fun oh yeah party right
Yes everyone is ready to party with
Me and Kathryn yo here on Saturn
And I get my top hat and as I am wearing no tie
Just the perfect shade of green
I am a Martian with a top hat
With a naked green body
I am ready to party yeah
C’mon get out your top hat
And put on your dancing shoes
And party party party all night
And then Kathryn and Martin the Martian played a lot of seventies and eighties songs and everyone got down and danced, the songs were
Dancing queen abba
Sweet home Alabama
American pie don McLean
Standing on the outside cold chisel
Duncan slim dusty using all the names of the people here
And then they left the stage
And bon Scott came on stage with Michael Hutchence and Roy Orbison
Michael on drums Roy vocals and bon
On bass guitar they sang
Pretty woman
You shook me all night long
Suicide blonde
You got it
Who made who
Need you tonight
Handle with care
Thunderstruck
Devil inside
And then they bowed to the audience thanking them for dancing and left the stage
Then the crazy hip hop dancers from Jupiter who were Daniel morecombe
And Graeme Thorne who is me now on earth and Caleb Logan and they danced to great songs like
A hip hop version to YMCA village people and Stan from Eminem and another hip hop version of karma chameleon from culture club standing on the inside looking out which is a song I wrote and performed at the poetry slam and the last one was come on aussies come on the old cricket song and now we have some cosmic belly dancers coming out
Their names are Kim Davidson and Bridget bromhead and Ruth cracknell and they shook their bellies to chicken dance
And nut bush city limits and a Christmas song jingle bells and good ship Lollypop and rock and roll music
And after that the swinging yobbos came out slim dusty Alfred Waldron who was another previous life of mine and my currents life’s late father Barry Allan who is now Betty Campbell
And they sang songs like waltzing Matilda and fly burgers which was my first poem I wrote and a tisket a tasket which we showed our inner ***** and then we played all the afl theme songs starting with Sydney Adelaide Carlton Brisbane Melbourne
West coast Fremantle port Adelaide
The gws giants Gold Coast suns north Melbourne hawthorn st Kilda Essendon Richmond and Collingwood
And finished with the green machine
Canberra Raiders song and we left the stage then I came out to sing this song before the fireworks
It is called the schizophrenic Macarena
1 2 3 4 do the schizophrenic
From the first day you were born
To your current situation
With medication you can be reformed
Yeah mate yeah I am schitzophrenic
Don’t worry about my best mate
His name was rob butler
I wish I could explain it because I know
There was no best friend named rob butler
You see if I was married to Susan brown mate and if I had a family
With two sons David and mike
I know they don’t exist
But in a way I wished they did
And I am schitzophrenic
1 2 3 4 I am schitzophrenic
From the first day I was born
To my current situation
With medication I can be reformed
Wow yeah I am schitzophrenic
I like Christmas
But I am a Buddhist
I like the peace behind it
Despite being anything but at peace
With my crazy mental illness
Then I jumped in the back seat
Of my best mates cab
But the thing about it is
No mate of mine has ever drove a cab
Except Stan niemic but it is not him
1 2 3 4 do the schitzophrenic
From the first day I was born
To my current situation
I wish my childish dillusions will go away cause I hate being schitzophrenic oh yeah bow bow
And now here are the beautiful fireworks and that lit up the sky for 21 minutes, it was beautiful
Bye everyone and I will see you at the next cosmic community concert
Goodbye dudes

When you get older
Your mind is so slow
As you go about
Your daily life with your head in the clouds
Oh yeah that’s bad
Then you go to do activities
To improve your mind
Making artworks
And kids toys out of wood
C’mon you feel unreal
Then you go to celebrate
Your birthday because your getting old
You walk on a bus as slow as ever
Making everyone late
Drinking scotch at the airport pub
With a midgeon of ice
Then as you leave you head is spinning
And alcohol poisoning is coming in
You feel like throwing up something fierce
And then the party is over yeah
You drink Metamucil to improve your health
It gives you energy to burn
Then as everyone is going to
A music festival as they hit you while passing
You yell at them saying
That Woodstock people were nicer yeah
A sign you are growing old
When you watching the tube in your house you suddenly grow so tired
As the young are staying up all night
Your eyes can’t stay awake
You remember when your music was
On after 11
But now your music is in family concerts
A sign that I am growing old
As the young are in the clubs
Partying all night
You are going to community performances
Still partying away
To girls and music that was cool back then while young people say your lame
Very very very lame

I am happy
I am feeling and looking happy about my life
I had a very bad anxiety attack
On Saturday night
Because I am getting all these
Demands made onto me
Like I am worried about what
People say if I don’t lose weight
At the weigh in
But the truth is
If I lose more weight it will be a bonus to me but I am happy because my lifestyle has changed
I don’t drink coke
I don’t eat total and utter crap
I get people saying
That they don’t want old Brian returning but I can tell you
I am feeling happy and positive
Knowing I lost over 80 kg and
Even if I don’t lose much more
At present doesn’t necessarily mean
Old Brian is returning
You see I am doing what I want to do
Being strong isn’t really for me
But learning is
I would like to join groups
In art or even dancing like hip hop
But more to my own age group
I think I am putting too much
Pressure on myself
In the attempt on winning awards for weight loss even if I can say to myself
Been there done that
And I could congratulate other people
In following in my footsteps
I will say to you this
I want to stop looking up in anxiety
And the way to do that
Is saying I am happy
And the reason why my workouts
Aren’t doing well is
Because my brain is full of pressure
On being the city’s little angel
I would like to do things in the community and I want the pressure
Of losing weight to go away
I have lost old Brian
He will never return
Never ever ever ever
Because I know the foods and drinks
I had to bring old Brian here in the first place
I am a happy positive person
Who wants to have fun
Old Fat Brian is dead never to be coming back
I thank you to everyone who changed
My bad eating habits but I feel happier now, dudes

I wanna be a wallaby
The wallabies are the best
They beat the mighty all blacks
By 47 to 26
What a win by the wallabies
I can hardly believe my eyes
What a win I hope they can keep it up
Oh yeah and yes they gave the
All blacks a surprise
Perth was the place
To catch the great challenge they embrace
Wattcha wanna be
A walla wallaby
A great win a great win
Oh yeah bow bow
Carn the mighty wallabies
We are the best
Because we beat the best
But who cares because those
Mighty wallabies say to me
Wattcha wanna be
A walla wallaby
Football meat pies yes those
Wallabies beat the odds
And gave the Perth crowd
A great win for them
Carn the wallabies
Carn the wallabies
The all blacks are the team to beat
And we go one-up oh yeah mate yeah
I wanna be a wallaby
Watcha wanna be
A walla wallaby
47 to 26, I can hardly believe my eyes
Yes Australia gave us a surprise
Go the wallabies kick some ****
Go the wallabies show some class
And they did all blacks had their chances
And Australia never gave up
Cold tinnie crack one right now
Cold tinnie crack it open mate
Crack one for the mighty wallabies mate
Cold tinnie crack one right now
Green and gold green and gold
The best team around
Green and gold green and gold
Too good oh yeah
Black is a dark colour
We need to put the bright colours first
Green and gold, cold tinnie cold tinnie
Crack one for the wallabies mate
I am an Aussie and I love life
And I love when the wallabies win
Especially against the mighty all blacks
Well done wallabies 47 to 26
I can hardly believe it
Wattcha wanna be
A walla wallaby
What a win highest ever score
Against New Zealand
Yes dudes what a win

I am Brian Allan
I am 50 years old
I was born on the 28th May 1969
I love doing art, like tapestries and paintings and drawing
I get the idea from my cosmic beliefs
I write stories and poems too
Some silly and somewhat strange
I have a disability as well as schizophrenia I use my disability to make me a better person
And a lot of my artwork is based on that
I like going out having fun
Like to the movies or to watch a game of sport or to do tenpin bowling
My goals are to create a better world for each person to live in through my art

Don’t try and change me
Every part of my life
Don’t try and make my poems better
Don’t try and stop me from enjoying family vlogs cause they are fun
Don’t try and change my chain of thought
I am a positive person who loves life
I hate people trying to change me
Trying to say my voices are true
Even the mental health dillusions
Please don’t try and change me
I am not you, I can’t be perfect
That is impossible to be perfect
I am trying as hard as I could to
Exercise right, I don’t want anyone
Who thinks they know me better
Than I know myself to dominate or change me
I might not want to do anything you want me too
Don’t try and change me
Sometimes in life you have to speak your mind
And I don’t want to make excuses
I just don’t want anyone to change me
Never never never my friend
I will say I am not you
I am me I am me
I have the answers about myself
Not you
So, mate don’t try and change me
Please stop trying to change me
If I get lightheaded it is what I say
Bit what you think
I know my body better than you
I know you don’t like bullying
But changing people is a form of bullying and I don’t approve
I have a mental illness
And I do believe I can get work one day
I do believe I can achieve me goals
And not the goals you give me and
Say they should be my goals
Please mate I don’t like people trying to change me
Just because I don’t look like I have good goals doesn’t mean my mind is muddled
I am not different in a queer way
I am different in a way that everyone
Is different in their own way
So don’t try and change me
I love life I care for people
Don’t try and be a part of everything I do because you worry about my lifestyle
That is changing people that is bullying
I hate that it drives me nuts
Don’t try and change me
PLEASE leave me alone