Johnnie Rae

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

What are you to me?
whenever I ask this question,
my heart just overflows with emotions,
for you are my everything,

My darling you are,
the air that I breathe,
the only one I'll ever need,
the reason this purple heart beats,
for you my darling,
all for you,

You are my morning,
sun shine, so bright,
You are my nightfall,
and you shine brighter than all the stars in the sky,

Did I mention?
you're also my ******* bestfriend,
you aren't like the rest,
you're so different,
I love that,

I swear to my dear,
theres simply no one better,
and I'll be the luckiest girl in the world,
if I can call you mine forever.

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

Purple Heart~

Somebody ask me whats wrong,
so I can pour out this purple heart,
that has been ever so accustumed to swell up,

Why shouldn't it? I've worn it on my sleeve for too long,

For it is ****** and bruised and has been through too much,
and its worn and torn, and has made me tough,
love has tangled it self up in this mess of my swelling purple heart,
and I couldn't ask for anything more,
for this love is whats keeping me sane at any given moment,
and this love, its so strong I just can't let it go,

This exspression of overflowing emotion has become too much,
people around me don't think I'm so tough,
for they see my purple heart fading, my pulse going out,
its finally all gotten to be too much.

well. I just woke up, and wrote this on the spot. So enjoy, although I believe it needs work,

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

Can Anyone Hear The Whispers Of A Vacant Mind?

Can anyone hear the whispers of a vacant mind?
I believe it would sound something like, the crash of the tides,
on a hot summer night,
and I let this fill me up like the fullest cup, from which I drink your poisoness blood,
only to fall to the ground, finding there was no real reason, for this deed to be done,
for there is never any reason, for such an unjustified suicide,
but then again, who would ever take time to justify, the unjustifiable,
and to which mind this makes any sense, I do not know,
but from this pen, my words do flow,
and to anyone who reads them, I wish you luck, in unraveling the riddles of my tounge,
and who would have ever known, there was anyone so wise, all while being so young?

And no, this is not me saying I am any wiser than most,
I'm just going on what I've been told,
feel free to argue, like do most,

Now I will take this time, to make a toast,
to anyone who has ever done me wrong, for you are the ones who have made me so strong,
and while you may think I hate you, you are ever so wrong,
and now I take the time to thank you, for all that you've done,
because without all of your hate, I wouldn't be the person I am today,
and while they say sticks and stones only break bones,
I've used the ones thrown at me, to build an inpenetrable wall,
in which I hide behind, plotting my revenge,
for while I said I didn't hate you, that doesn't mean we're friends,

So going back to the question at hand,
can anyone hear the whispers of a vacant mind?
I do believe it may sound like the crash and fall of the tide,
and as the waves crash, just know, you're listening, to the contents of, my ever so, *vacant mind.

I have no idea where this came from, but I like it, and comments are highly appreciated.

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

Heres to the girls; like me.

To the girls who think they're nothing;
no matter what they say, you're worth something,
there are many people out there, who will miss you when you're gone,
this earth is where you belong,
do not convince yourself otherwise,
no matter how bad it seems, its always possible to pull through,
so do not sulk, with a razorblade to your ever so pale wrist,
do not make things worse, by hurting yourself,
this isnt what you really need,

To the girls who put these kind of people down;
Grow the **** up,
respect the people around you, if you have any class,
to be honest, I hope you fall on you're fat ***,
on the way up to success,
no need to be so rude though,
there is one thing I do know,
no matter what you tell them, they'll always be worth more than every single ******* one of you put together,
it doesnt matter, you chose the wrong path, always being the bad girl,
step into the victims shoes,
feel the hurt they felt,
when you put them down,

Here's to the girls who feel like nothing;
Buck up,
swallow you're pride,
accept the things you cannot change, and change the things you can,
theres no shame in putting on a fake smile, and not letting others suffer,
stay away from drugs, they'll only give you more time to think,
when a boy wants to have *** in an alley, make sure you don't lay in glass,
and make sure the ******* doesnt leave you, with a kid in your arms,
no matter what you may believe, you're worth something,
no matter what any one says, I'm always gonna love you,
its not what they say thats important, its important we all know its a lie,
so be strong, and tell everyone you've never felt better,
but if someone asks you whats wrong, don't be afraid to pour your fragile heart out,
to the ones who love you, because they're there to listen, and they want you to feel better,

So here's to the girls,*
who suffer, but with a brave face,

Here's to the girls,
Like **me.

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

You Are The Water In My Lungs

You are the water in my lungs,

Yes, the thing that suffocates me,
and it's close to bringing me under,
but somehow, I know, I'll stand strong,
long after you're gone,

Looks as if it may rain tonight,
let it wash away all the pain,
wash away all the reason to cry,
I love the rain, for this reason,
it's truly cleansing you see,
brings me back, for a glimpse at who I used to be.

You are the water in my lungs,
and toxins wander through my veins,

So, do you now see what you do to me?
its not too hard to see,
for you suffocate me,
quite slowly,
and as I slip away,
I want you to know,
It was you who did this to me

This was inspired by the song 'City Lights' By motionless in white

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

Whats Happier Than A Rain Cloud?

It rained a bit today,
cleared up a minute ago,
unlike the storm in my heart,

Rain can cheer me up anyday,
but as soon as its gone,
my eyes turn the darkest shade of grey,
and my heart suddenly heavy,
a storm is like a blessing to me,
the rain falls,
like the tears I know so well,
but as the rain hit the ground,
a new source of hope is found,
for the longer the rain continues to fall,
the longer I can stare into the distance,
for absolutely, no reason,
and just,
forget the world,
this is something I wish I could do constantly,

For in my world,
everyone is happy,
and that makes all the difference,

See now,
whats happier,
than a rain cloud?

The rain has come and gone, and I miss it terribly.

Johnnie Rae Aug 2012

My Nerves, Are Shot.

Energy darts through my body like bullets,
making me antsy, to say the least,
oh, why do I have to feel this way,
why can't I just feel good for a day,

Get rid of the constant shakes,
the tapping on the table that annoys everyone around me,
I tell them I can't help it, and they think I'm crazy,
they just don't ******* understand me,

My nerves are shot, and dead and gone,
I knew I was crazy all along,
this isn't an issue I can fix,
I just have to go on, with these problems,
for I can't do a **** thing about this ****,

It's simply the way I am,
whether you like it or ******* not,
my nerves, *are shot.